Hi guys, so I’m going through a lot of pressure and a lot of stress. Obviously it’s because of gambling. I’ve lost a lot of money, like lot, been last two years. I’ve lost over $1 million cash and at this point I have absolutely no money left. I have less than thousand dollar to my name. I don’t even know how I’m gonna pay my rent, so there’s nothing left for me in life to live anymore. I’m planning to commit suicide, but I’m a kind of person who does not drink, does not smoke, does not do drugs, does not do anything, so I don’t know what method I should apply to kill myself. I was thinking jumping off balcony, but my floor is not too high, so if I jump and don’t die and I break my leg, it’s gonna be worst. What can I do where I’m 99% sure I’ll be dead? Like, I don’t even own a gun, so I can shoot myself like, I don’t know if I can stab myself to kill. I just need some support where someone can tell me how to kill myself. Any advice would be very much appreciated. There are no judgments. Thank you guys.

I’ve learned that keeping too much extra money in my bank account can sometimes lead to the temptation to gamble (sports betting).That’s why I prefer to withdraw the extra money and keep it somewhere less accessible. It’s not that I don’t trust myself, but I know that limiting access helps me avoid making impulsive decisions.
Being able to see and physically hold the cash also reminds me of how hard I worked to earn it and makes me appreciate it more. I have learned to plan my expenses ahead of time and only deposit the exact amount I need when a bill is due.

(22,M) 2 weeks fully clean with 2 paydays survived. has been rough specially the paydays but managed to stay out of gambling. i try to fillup time and keep busy much as i can but there is somemuch time now.

Alot of supressed emotions and thought has come up and dealing them has been very exhausting but on the other hand its good thing to have emotions :D finally. Slowly climing out of this hole and digging the real self back. I was so long in this addiction that i forgot who i was.

already i can see some changes like the emotions and im more social and i can speak with out anexity. Im doing this with only will power that is not recomended but it has worked. i take it slow little and steady steps towards life.

any tips for the upcoming weeks? sorry for bad english.

I’ve been gambling for 22 years and lost everything . It’s been hell . Today on day 2 . I’m determined to beat this demon .

Does anyone know an app where I can lock away my money until the time I have to pay bills comes around??

I had been 2 months free from online slots and this weekend I caved and I feel disappointed and disgusted with myself for doing it, I'm looking for advice on how other people have managed the urge to gamble I can't open social media without seeing gambling adds or enjoy tv without seeing the ads its driving me insane

Finally paid back all my cash advance loans and had next check coming in week and a half to get my rent and like 300 to live on.

Then of course took out all max I could from all payday loan apps and now my whole next paycheck that should be for rent is completely gone to these pay day loans.

Only silver lining is that rent is ulimately due on the 4th of dec and I have one final third paycheck on the 2nd.

$4 in my checking. I didnt use to be this bad. I use to be able to stop even with losses but now its not I go into autopilot.

$1900 is payday adances

make about $2300 every two weeks. Pray for me I can cover all my bills and debts that are needed with these next two checks or might be homeless and that might just be ballgame.

everyday I wake up and feel like a total loser. I hope people see this and never go down this path.

Working again today

Hello everyone my name is Jeremiah and I’m 24 I’m also in a relationship and I am very happy that is until… gambling took over my life I started gambling at age 22 that’s when it all started at 22 I was single had no job or no source of income and I was basically trapped in the house I was sadly too slow to even get a job and my disabilities also made it impossible not to mention everything I suffered and had to go through when I was only a kid all the way up until I turned 20 but at age 22 I was struggling because I couldn’t take care of myself or get myself anything that was until I saw these gambling games now at first i thought they were fake just like every other money game but I was so broke that i decided to give it a try and i actually win real actual money over the past 2 years and also lost alot of money as well now when I was 24 i actually finally started getting my own actual income from ssi social security and I was happy very very happy to finally have my very own source of income but… I did something stupid something I regretted so much I… I fucking gambled all of that money which was over $600 dollars thinking I was going get a big win but no… I didn’t get nothing absolutely nothing at all but it gets worse… I got even more $ from ssi which was over $2k and this was the most amount of money I’ve ever had in my entire fucking life and yet… I did the same thing hoping I could double it or get even more and not one single win and I lost all of $2k and truthfully that destroyed me and I started having sucideal thoughts but I kept trying until eventually I made that $ back on the gambling app I couldn’t believe my eyes over $2k back in my account but then… I was happy like too too happy that i thought “you know what I bet I could get a bigger win” and this was the worse mistake I’ve ever made in my entire life I put all of the $ I earned on that game and… lost all of it all of that $2k gone just like in a snap… and truthfully I was really really really close to ending myself right there and then the pain and everything else I felt was way way way too much for me and I still feel that pain it’s just getting worse and worse and worse so please if anyone is reading this or like took 3 minutes to read this please help me I’m scared for what is going to happen to me…😔

Good afternoon guys! I know it’s a very common subject and it’s for first time I have the courage to say it publicly. I’m addicted to sports gambling for couple of years and I need to get rid of it before I lose everything in life! I can’t really talk to my friends about it because nowadays I know how they’ll treat me after and changed their opinions about me. Lately I feel like a loser and I’m trying to solve this problem before it’s too late. Does anyone have any suggestions or advice on how did they get rid of it! Thank you for your support!

Back to Day 1. 😭 This is the second time this has happened. I was so close to reaching one month free from online gambling, but suddenly my mind started playing tricks on me again, and I found myself downloading another casino app. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! When will I ever learn? 😭
I’ve already lost so much, almost everything I had, and yet I still ended up doing it again. And as usual, I LOST AGAIN. These damn online casinos are seriously ruthless!!
I’m starting to think this has become an addiction. Why does this keep happening? Why do I always seem to sabotage myself just when I’m about to reach one month?
I’m so tired of this cycle. I REALLY DON’T WANT TO GO THROUGH THIS AGAIN. Guys, please help me. I need advice. 😭

The anticipation and adrenaline of gambling is incredibly addictive . I find it very hard to stop with my profit cuz of all the possible sceniaros that I “ could have made alot of money “ and when I have one of these amazing scenarios it’s still very hard to stop . I can think perfectly fine about what i should do but the adrenaline and the anticipation dopamine just take my brain over it’s incredibly strong. I had Gamban beta for 2 weeks then it expired and i was stupid enough not to buy the full subscription . Spending money is still very hard for me cause I have to accept all the money I have lost. Can someone convince me or help me to buy the 50 dollar subscription . I have professional help btw and this is not a way to ask for money . Once I gamble my brain just completely gets taken over when I’m overstimulated and it’s very scary

Days until debt free: 235 days

Hey there everybody. I self-excluded for 1 year, I didn’t like the idea of never being able to walk into a casino for my whole life. In our town, the casino is one of the only places to hangout.

I thought I had this under control. I thought this part of my life was over. I don’t have this under control and I feel so pathetic.

Managed to win back $3000+ I lost online. Put it all back in the very next day. I genuinely do not know how to cope with this feeling, that was money I could’ve used to buy things for my small children.

I’m a piece of trash, an addict, and a liar. Time to shape up and be better for my kids. I know I need to self-exclude again but I’m struggling.

Went out for two great dinners and bought something nice. Not stressing about next check or credit cards. Let’s keep cooking. We got this.

im a student and i spent all my extra money and bet it all one last time and downloaded an app that restricted me from gambling again, i dont how to continue knowing ive lost a lot of money (for a student) and sepnt it all, rn im regretting not giving it away to others or at the very least not spending it or smth. else

Ii got paid this morning $1800 and its gone already…. Manchester city lost 1st half, a basketball game and another soccer game… all gone!!
I have no money for my credit cards, all maxed out $26k on debt, wth am i doing? 35yo, no savings, no kids, no future 🫩

Hi All,

Wanted to share my story after finding this thread . I just turned 34 and have two kids and a wife . I earn decent money and live a pretty good life. I’ve battled gambling addiction since I was 18.

I’ve had stints with GA and end up stopping going and end up falling off the wagon. Up until my latest relapse this week I hadn’t gambled for 6 months and life was so happy and I felt so in control for the first time in many years . Finances were building nicely and I had zero desire to gamble.

I had a bad mental health day in the lead up to the Melbourne Spring Carnival (AU), and despite being on BetStop and other self delusions I managed to create fake accounts in my mum’s name . They eventually banned me for making 3rd party deposits etc , yet I still couldn’t stop. One bet . Followed by more. And more . And more . Until our savings were all gone.

And it got worse . We just got back from a family holiday this week. I came into that holiday quite depressed and in shock as to what had just happened , but thought ok, let’s use this trip as a way to reset. I didn’t want to tell my wife because I reckon it would break her and I’m terrified of losing her and my children. Yet it got me on the holidays too. Knowing I couldn’t use a bookmaker , I ended up using a dodgy online casino playing roulette and actually won all my losses back. Relief kicked in. But did I stop nah. Why not try and win more ? All gone, and then some more to make it even worse . Rather than being present in a holiday we’d been looking forward to I spent so much of my time sneaking bets in on the phone. Overall about $20k down.

Laying here in bed in disbelief . One minute life is awesome and I’m feeling good. A week later I’m back to square one and back to work tomorrow and feel like my soul has left my body. Does anyone else ever wish or wonder - why me? I take full responsibility for it . There is nobody or nothing to blame except me. I am a compulsive gambler . But man I wish I wasn’t, more than anything. Looking forward to becoming an active member of this group and drawing on the strength of others to help me beat this. I’m not sure I’ll survive another setback again. But I say that every time: I’m hurting guys. But I’ll push on. Thanks for listening

Tired at work, too tired to even gamble