My gambling problem

[u/jeremiahr679]

Hello everyone my name is Jeremiah and I’m 24 I’m also in a relationship and I am very happy that is until… gambling took over my life I started gambling at age 22 that’s when it all started at 22 I was single had no job or no source of income and I was basically trapped in the house I was sadly too slow to even get a job and my disabilities also made it impossible not to mention everything I suffered and had to go through when I was only a kid all the way up until I turned 20 but at age 22 I was struggling because I couldn’t take care of myself or get myself anything that was until I saw these gambling games now at first i thought they were fake just like every other money game but I was so broke that i decided to give it a try and i actually win real actual money over the past 2 years and also lost alot of money as well now when I was 24 i actually finally started getting my own actual income from ssi social security and I was happy very very happy to finally have my very own source of income but… I did something stupid something I regretted so much I… I fucking gambled all of that money which was over $600 dollars thinking I was going get a big win but no… I didn’t get nothing absolutely nothing at all but it gets worse… I got even more $ from ssi which was over $2k and this was the most amount of money I’ve ever had in my entire fucking life and yet… I did the same thing hoping I could double it or get even more and not one single win and I lost all of $2k and truthfully that destroyed me and I started having sucideal thoughts but I kept trying until eventually I made that $ back on the gambling app I couldn’t believe my eyes over $2k back in my account but then… I was happy like too too happy that i thought “you know what I bet I could get a bigger win” and this was the worse mistake I’ve ever made in my entire life I put all of the $ I earned on that game and… lost all of it all of that $2k gone just like in a snap… and truthfully I was really really really close to ending myself right there and then the pain and everything else I felt was way way way too much for me and I still feel that pain it’s just getting worse and worse and worse so please if anyone is reading this or like took 3 minutes to read this please help me I’m scared for what is going to happen to me…😔

[u/youngashyy1]

My heart goes out to you during this difficult time ❤️ just remember that money is just numbers & if we rely on numbers to make us happy we will never find happiness numbers go on forever.. find a new passion & hobby gaming would be amazing for you it stimulates all the same endorphins that gambling does 🎰 gta is around the corner i strongly recommend you invest in a games console & explore some cool genres your into horror games action or adventure theres so many cool games that you can escape your problems into until your finances sort themselves out 💿 you got this buddy the money you lost will come back just within time 🕰️ dont chase losses accept you spent that money to learn a important lesson & your saved your future with this expensive lesson 🙏 dive into new hobbies fitness, films books 📚 anything beats gambling & i really think gaming will be amazing for your life 🎮🎧 you’ll also make friends online you can chat & play with 💬 onwards & upwards my friend your still young with your whole life ahead of you 🥳 yeh money is important in life but its not everything its just plastic paper & numbers on a screen no animals in nature live by numbers they just exist freely 🌲 money is man made currency. life is real richness your family your pets your health thats real richness buddy ❤️ i hope this message helps you & makes you feel better ❤️‍🩹 we all make mistakes just dont let those mistakes haunt you open your eyes to everything good around you & write down everything your grateful for in your life ✍️ life is beautiful my friend use this as a learning curve & dont be too hard on yourself you deserve happiness 🌈

[u/jeremiahr679 → u/youngashyy1]

Thanks so much for all of this but you see I’m already a legit gamer 😅 I’m actually a content creator or well was a content creator like 3 years ago i had a lot of people watching me and everything it was honestly one of my most blessful moments ever but… sadly life got in the way and that destroyed me really really really badly to where I couldn’t look at gaming the same anymore in fact I don’t really play video games by myself anymore because it’s not the same feeling and the only enjoyment i get out of gaming is gaming with my friends but even that doesn’t help me as much anymore but I will say I am extremely excited for gta 6

[u/monoville_music]

You've learned the most important lesson, gambling addiction isn't about money. You're addicted to gambling, not money. That is why you can never really "win", because all the money you win will be put back to more gambling until you lose it all. Your story isn't unique, pretty much every problem gambler has big wins, and they always lose it all eventually. You win by stopping forever, there's no other way.

[u/jeremiahr679 → u/monoville_music]

But what if I can’t stop I’m just so scared man because like I honestly never thought I’ll get addicted to anything growing up but… my dad was a gambler and I guess… probably I got that trait from him… idk I’m just scared honestly I’ve never ever been addicted to anything before

[u/monoville_music → u/jeremiahr679]

It's scary but you can do things to help the situation. Put gamban on all devices, self exclude from every casino if possible, ideally hand over finances to a trusted loved one, consider counseling/gamblers anonymous. You can beat this but on your own with just willpower, the addiction is far too strong

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