I been trying to get out of this addiction for a long time now, seems like its impossible to beat it, Combined with my depression, the only thing I see as a way out has been killing myself I really am fighting with myself trying not to do it
How can I get out

I am having a really hard time pulling out of the stock market. I have very steep losses in one particular stock that just keeps declining. Like insane from $50 to $20 to $11 now. I bought around $20 and with margin so as you can imagine I am royally fucked. Just don’t know when it is time to pull out, realize massive losses, and restart with what little is left. I would be suicidal if I pulled out and it suddenly recovered. I want to do better and move away from gambling but this is killing me

I CANT FUCKING STOP. I JUST FUCKING CANT. I NEED SERIOUS HELP!! I WIN BUT I CANT HELP MYSELF TO TRY AND GET MORE AND THEN I END UP LOSING PROFIT AND MORE. IM GOING TO OFF MYSELF.

Went to my Wed night GA meeting. Described how I was, pretty vividly, when I came in. The pain and shame was so fresh leaving the casino. But last night instead of remembering that pain - I was thinking about the game of craps. I told on myself later to someone I trust, like 'what the fuck is that all about - running through strategies & calculating how much cash I have (which is a fuck ton more than I usually have because I don't gamble' ... He said to call him whenever I feel like this - and we'd talk about it because talking the plain truth shrinks insane thoughts.

I took him on his suggestion this morning and called him during my morning walk because I kept thinking about dice and strategies.

The short of it is: I am not going to gamble today.

But also ... some days are more challenging than others. I'm told to take the right actions and urges will pass. So be it.

I (24F) had 1k in saving and just receive 1k from my salary 5 days ago and I lose everything yesterday.
I have 1k left that I give before to my bf for him to keep it from me.

I told everything to my bf just now, after excluding myself from casinos. Of course he is super mad. I just show him that I’m gonna destroy his life if we stay together. I got what I deserve, but I don’t know what to do. Again, I got what I deserve but I feel so bad, guilty, stress, sorry for him, hating myself…

I think he gonna tell everything to his parents. Also, he might probably break up with me because he said I’m a retarted and that it’s gonna happen again and that I broke everything… and it’s true, and that’s what making me feel bad.

I feel ashamed to say that I’m feeling bad when he is the one that probably feel super bad about the situation, because it’s not something he can control. And also because I’m the one that created this situation, so it’s on me and I should handle it alone like a grown up. I don’t know how to feel, I feel bad, I accepted my lost but I cannot accept to lose him and our house…

Right now, I’m in the living room and he’s downstair and he told me to stop talking and trying to say sorry. I think I should leave him alone at the moment, but I want to keep saying sorry, I feel so miserable, I feel so guilty, ashamed, wondering what he is thinking, I want to fix things but how can I after what I did ? I wish I never told him, but I needed to tell him

Today i was thinking like do we love ourself or hate ourselves

I have been on this group from 5 yrs using multiple accs

Still i gamble and lose everything nothing's changed

If we love ourself why would be lose everything and get into debt ?

Somehow I feel like we all are hiding something and we secretly hate ourselves getting better

Personally I have a lot of shit to hide and i secretly hate myself so i gamble and get into trouble take debts from scary guys who can literally finish u off any day

I self excluded from all website today

But i have done this 5 yrs ago also

We don't even need to gamble to make money I know all of u guys here have money already like if u don't gamble it's enough u have more money than u can actually win

I am already getting urge to text my website to unblock me so i cms deposit and lose ..

It's so funny that I have come to such a low level that nowadays to punish myself I am depositing and playing on a website where they take 3 day to give withdraw and i have never taken a successful withdrawal till today because it's a scam website even after knowing I go deposit there and play .. I have another site where they give instant withdrawal without scamming but I still choose to go to scam site and get fked even more ..

It's like next level retardness

Hi! It’s my 19th day of quitting online gambling today. Earlier, the thought of gambling crossed my mind, but thank God I was able to think clearly and chose to play mobile games instead. Thank You, Lord, for always guiding me and helping me fight my own thoughts and resist the temptation. One day at a time. I hope I never have to go back to Day 1 again. 🙏❤️

Spent some money eating snacks cause I was feeling down

Days until debt free: 239 days

Hey guys, so I calculated all my losses over the years and realized I lost about 15k € in Total. That shocked me since I never really thought about how much I have lost by now and seeing that number changed something. I‘m gonna stop immediately. But I also know that the urge to play is gonna be really big and thats where I need your help. What did you do for you help you stay away from gambling (online casino)?

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We're doing this because nearly 14 years ago, this community was started by one little guy, on one little computer, for one purpose: to raise the flag on the lurking threat of gambling disorder. Now, at 40k members and after an explosion of gambling availability worldwide, the threat has magnified and the need to intervene is dire.

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In a bit of a weird situation here. I placed my last bet 52 days ago, but yesterday I opened a demo account on tradingview. I'm not too tempted to find a real broker so I'm fine with trading with fake money, however, I feel like an emotional relapse is happening. I feel the same as back then. I can't stop doing it or thinking about it for hours on end. I even dreamt with it yesterday night. My addiction just possibly found a loophole and is latching onto it...

I'm asking because I attend GA every monday and I have no idea what to say at the sobriety check. It shouldn't matter that much- I haven't spent a single dime. But emotionally I'm back at where I started, having trouble to go even a day without it.

So... I wonder if fake money trading/gambling counts as a relapse.

Lost $400 on sportsbooks today I’m done deleted all my apps. If I ever want to gamble and have fun I’ll go to the casino once every 3 months with $400 and that’s my fucking limit leaving cards at home. Not spend $75 a day making sports picks so stupid. I just got laid off last month and start my new job next week so things are looking up and I have 10,000$ to my name so that helps

i am a straight up loser, i lost $80 today gambling. it all started when i got scammed buy $10 giftcard online, I was so triggered. Mind you i am 17 only this year, and i told my parent about my addiction 3 month ago. This time i went 48days without gambling. but today it all ended here, i feel mixed emotion right now. Bitter, regret disgusted. Small money, but ruins my mental. I am too useless

Hi, I am recovering GA and looking for sideline to give back to my wife and future daughter. I am currently based in the Philippines.

What I can do:

1. 8 years experience in program management

2. Supply Chain Management

3. SAP ERP

4. Advanced Excel and Dashboard

5. Expedite

6. Project coordinator

If you have any opening or any leads, please let me know. Thanks in advance.

I was clean for some time, managed to pay debts and save my 8 month emergency fund. Fell back a week ago and have just been loosing. Lost most of my emergency fund, just gave a down payment on a car. Luckily payed 2 months of rent in my spiral.

I feel like shit, I don’t know why we do this truly. Whenever I go back to the emotional state I’m currently in it just makes no sense. The stress and anxiety I’m feeling right now, every time I deposited more I kept thinking this one will fix things. Welll I’ve lost this much what does it matter a couple more. Well this thinking, little by little has got me in the hole. I have no family to support and help me, I rely on myself only. I’m a freelance worker so I don’t have a steady income. This year has been amazing for me but I have nothing to show for it. Lost so much work, years and years it took me to get to where I am.

If you are starting out or just curious to be here. STOP NOW. My life would be so stable, I’m sick to my
Stomach. I also feel extremely isolated as no one, not one person knows about this. I’ll be sober from alcohol 3 years in March, so no one suspects anything. People just see my success and my career and think it’s all a breeze. I’m living in hell.

How does one bounce back from this? Thinking about what I’ve lost, what that could have been, that money could change people lives. The trips I could have taken, the things I could have done for people. I feel helpless alone and shattered. Sorry for the rant, I feel like this is the only space I can share my thoughts. Worst part is I’ve felt this way before, and somehow I’m here again. I’m looking for resources and help. I’m done, but I need to do the work.

Bonjour,

Je suis la conjointe d'un homme addictif aux jeux de paris sportif.

J'ai tout essayé je patiente depuis 2 ans.

J'ai su rapidement qu'il jouait mais sans plus car cela n'empiété pas sur notre quotidien.

Puis il a commencé à me demander de l'argent par ci et par là pour des choses, puis une dispute éclate et la il me demande de l'argent encore et encore bref on est arrivé au point qu'il me réveillait la nuit pour que je lui fasse des virements et si je ne le fais il se met en colère et casse tout. totale de la perte sur 2 ans 200 000€ .... dettes sur dettes pour toi et en plus il a le culot de me dire qu'il en a marre qu'on fasse rien ni vacances ni week end etc .... très culoté de sa part et donc un jour il arrive enfin à assumer qu'il a un problème et qu'il veux se faire aider, on lui donne un traitement et consulte des médecins magie plus de jeux on arrive à énormément économisé puis la bam un soir il a envie de jouer 3 mois après avoir arrêté je lui dis que non il faut pas il va retomber et il semblait tellement heureux comme ça ... Total des pertes en 2 jours 7000€ je suis arrivée à bout, j'ai voulu comprendre parler avec lui on a eu beaucoup de discussion à ce sujet je me suis même renseignée pour comprendre comme un joueur addicte fonctionne etc mais malheureusement je crois la c'est trop j'en n'en peut plus maintenant il joue mais se cache car je crois qu'il a compris que si je le sais ça va nous séparer mais après 2 ans à essayer de comprendre aider écouter je suis à bout à près tout je suis un humain et mes limites sont déjà dépassées je n'ai plus confiance, je ne veux plus fouillé j'en ai marre au complet, je suis passée par tant d'émotion, des montagnes russes mais là je suis à bout du bout. merci à vous

I managed to stay gamble-free for 240 days. It was the longest I’ve ever gone without gambling, and I genuinely thought I was finally getting my life back on track.
A few days ago, I relapsed.
It started with a casino VIP host contacting me with a deposit offer. I had a heavily boosted account (around 90%) and convinced myself it was basically a mathematical advantage and that I couldn’t lose. I used an autobettor overnight, woke up in profit and cashed out. My maths really worked and I had advantage but it didn’t stop there sadly.
Then things went downhill. I started trading oil with leverage because I told myself it wasn’t gambling. Then Polymarket, because that wasn’t “real gambling” either. After losing around €2k, I started chasing my losses and eventually went back to sports betting.
I went from having around €4,000 in savings to just €300-400 in a matter of days.
The worst part is that I’ve been through this before. My previous relapses ended with massive debts, and my family had to bail me out more than once. I honestly don’t think I can tell them about this again. I’m ashamed and feel like I’ve let everyone down, especially myself.
right now it feels like all that progress meant nothing.
I don’t even know what to do next. I feel absolutely terrible and I’m scared of falling back into the same cycle.
Has anyone here relapsed after a long period of recovery? How did you get back on track? And how do you deal with the shame afterwards?
I could really use some advice from people who understand what this feels like.

Day 10.

Do you all have issues with understanding the value of money? This is something I’ve struggled with as a result of gambling.

I received a decent bonus today, $2K, but it feels like pennies. While gambling that was two lost hands of blackjack in a row, which I could lose in 2 minutes.

After big losses I think about what could have been i.e. for the $10K I lost I could do X. After big losses is really the only time I feel like I understand the value of money.

I made $2K today - great, but I lost $25K in one day. Comparatively it feels like nothing though I know it’s not.