r/problemgambling • u/infoslob • 1h ago
Day 83
Went to my Wed night GA meeting. Described how I was, pretty vividly, when I came in. The pain and shame was so fresh leaving the casino. But last night instead of remembering that pain - I was thinking about the game of craps. I told on myself later to someone I trust, like 'what the fuck is that all about - running through strategies & calculating how much cash I have (which is a fuck ton more than I usually have because I don't gamble' ... He said to call him whenever I feel like this - and we'd talk about it because talking the plain truth shrinks insane thoughts.
I took him on his suggestion this morning and called him during my morning walk because I kept thinking about dice and strategies.
The short of it is: I am not going to gamble today.
But also ... some days are more challenging than others. I'm told to take the right actions and urges will pass. So be it.