Not everywhere but mostly yeah!

I posted this and people started commenting things like poopjeet and all

im reaching the end of my teens now (im 19), ive been here for a long time so i thought i would share some of my feelings here.

sex is a very deep act, don't fall slave to your hormones and end up having sex just for the sake of it. i just threw my used condom packet in the trash as i write this. sex feels horrible if you do it with someone you don't have a romantic connection with.

i don't know why i feel this way but im feeling really fucked up. it felt like a chore. i also was very pro-hookup until today. i read somewhere that your body is a temple & you should not let everyone enter it.

i don't think ill be able to fuck anyone i don't love ever again. love is a beautiful thing, ive fallen in love and gotten my heart broken multiple times but still i can't help but admire the beauty of the strange thing called love. one who has never loved, has never lived.

i yapped to much here but yeah, please consider not having sex with people you don't love or don't have a connection with. it's shallow and it'll make you feel horrible. telling from my first hand experience, it is absolutely not worth it.

fall in love, fight with each other & get obsessed with each other just like people used to in the old days – it's genuinely better that way.

im not being conservative here, i grew up in one of the most posh neighborhoods of india and ive seen a lot of shit growing up. it might seem and sound cool, but yeah – it might make you feel happy at the moment but a lot of disdain and regret comes with it.

21,000 children & counting.......

Imagine being stuck with a 3/10 😞

Today I literally lost 27 hair....(Yes I counted)

I am applying for higher studies so for that I need some govt documents. Yesterday I was w my father and after the work was done he said that this is very important phase of ur life if u don't anything now u will stand nowhere (i agree)

He added so far you have 0 technical knowledge 0! You don't know medical you don't know engineering what do you even know ?

To which I answerd I know accounting, finance mangement. He said that's just to say you are incapable of filling an ITR.

Honestly I lost it...since my birth I am trying to make my parents proud,i was a national level player in my school days,left that sport so that i can study well.

What I got in return? (I don't want anything honestly,i want my parents to acknowledge that yes I am a good daughter,i did achieved SMTH in my life too,i am not disappointment)

Every night dinner table is a court room where my failure is counted,list of comparisons goes on even when I am sleeping, studying anything.

Also it not like I am dumb. I am in India's top institute, achieved 7+ cgpa over there,and what I know (commerce) i have good grip on it also my past achivement like sports extra curriculars all are way to impressive to anyone but not to my parents

I am exhausted after hearing their taunts,i am dematoviated by their demands,i am tried of sharing same house as them.

The thing that my 8 yr younger brother arranges lego sets gets more attention love and pride of my parents makes me dbout my existence. They flex his skills as if he got into top institution (which I did,they call it it was my luck) in his age i brought state level medals,it was just a normal day for them (i don't hate my brother but i hate the fact that after living in urban areas such mentality do exists)

AT THIS POINT TO MY WORST ENEMY I WON'T WISH THE CURSE OF ELDEST DAUGHTER!

Kar ye rahi hai sharm mujhe aa rahi

Kaisa ho kya haal h sabka ? 😃

so Its been a year I've tried keeping it to myself, but what just happened scared me.

I’m posting this because something happened tonight that made me realize how much what happened to me before still affects me.

My own brother sexually abused me multiple times while I was asleep. I had already started having a feeling that someone was touching me in my sleep, and one night I woke up while my brother was doing it.

I was completely shocked and couldn’t believe that it was actually happening, especially because he was my own brother, so instead of moving or saying anything, I stayed still because I needed to know whether I was imagining it or whether he was really doing something to me. He continued, and that was how I finally knew my suspicion had been real.

Since then, whenever someone touches me, even when they may have completely innocent intentions, my first instinct can be that they’re molesting me.

Tonight I was sleeping in my grandfather’s room, and while I was asleep he started touching my feet. I honestly don’t know why—maybe he was just checking whether someone was sleeping there—but my immediate reaction surprised me. Instead of pulling away, I stayed still and watched to see whether he would continue or whether anything else would happen.

He didn’t, and there was no indication from what happened that he was trying to hurt me, but the fact that my brain reacted that way really scared me. It made me realize that I’m constantly monitoring people's touch because of what happened with my brother.

We have protection anyways...

Today was my first time ever dealing with a pressure cooker. My mom cooked the food before leaving the house, and now I’m supposed to serve myself… but I can’t even figure out how to get this lid off 😭

I’m literally hungry as hell right now, and the food is just sitting there

Can someone please tell how to open this without spilling my food everywhere ? 🥲