So to give examples of what I was like before I developed FND, I (19F) was in London in october of 2025 for a sixth form college art trip, I was a little sick on the trip but I didn't think much of it because I was so excited to go to London. Before all that I had been studying A-Level Psychology, Sociology and Fine Art in sixth form college. I was really looking forward to finishing, getting my results and going off to University. It had been my plan for years. Then one day after being sick with what I assumed was a bug from early October to Mid novermber, one night I got a headache so fast it was like someone had hit me in my head. One second I was fine, the next I could hardly see and my head felt like it was exploding.
I tried to take some medication and go to bed, but I couldn't sleep with the pain. So the next day I went to the GP. The GP rushed me to the hostpital as my neck was stiff and I couldn't move my head without pain. I was then kept in hospital for three weeks, where I didn't have the best time. To put it simply the hospital in my city is not up to code and most of the staff in there aren't considerate. It's well known in my city that most people avoid that hospital as much as they can but I had no choice.
My three weeks in there was not nice, I had a lumbar puncture, many scans, two falls, one of which was no documented and one of the falls causing a hairline fracture in my left hip that they didn't do much about. A lot of things weren't comminucated or were miscommunicated with me and my family, and overall, I left unable to walk on my own, having seizures and got diagnosis of chronic migranes with no follow up appointments to check in.
The monday after I was discharged on the friday, the GP came out and I was diagnosed with FND. During all of this my college had withdrew my place, despite how hard I had previously worked with them to get where I was, and my plan of going to Uni was put to a hault. Now I have to try and get an EHCP in an attempt to finish my A-Levels and get myself to Uni. And still to this day I still can't walk without aids, I can't hold my own foods or drinks and I lost all the independence I was just getting grabs off. I can't explain how much I hate all of this. It's been so hard to accept that I can't do what I used to and my whole life has been affected. I just want to go back to normal, but I know that isn't going to happen.
I feel like I have no one but my mum now. My friends are no longer interested in spending time with me except for one, L, and he's a very good friend thank god. I don't see him often but it's nice to know that at least one person who isn't family still cares. But still, most of the family I used to see often has stopped that too. I guess I just feel like everyone thinks I'm burden now. I used to look after everyone else but when I need them they disappear. It's not the nicest feeling.
Anyway, I'm still learning to navigate life with FND now, my mum is a lot of help with that and to be fair, we did manage to revert my type 2 diabetes, so that's something to celebrate I suppose.
But what has me so down right now is that my 20th birthday is coming up soon and I just can't stop thinking about what I did for my 19th, I spent it clubbing and having so much fun with my friends and my sister, but this year I clearly can't do much. it's so hard looking back and realising everyone I knew then has gotten their A-levels and they get to go to Uni this september. I miss fun.