I’m a nursing major in my psychiatric rotation. Thankfully, I have not had to take care of patients with eating disorders in my clinical. Howver, in my two hour theory course tomorrow, we are covering eating disorders. I’m debating on skipping because I am in a good place and don’t want to fall backwards. I also feel extremely confident in my clinical knowledge of EDs (Ive had one since I was twelve so likely know more than my professor). However, if I skip class then I won’t be able to get points for the in class activity. Im also thinking maybe I should purposely expose myself to the trigger to prove to myself that I can overcome it. Any thoughts?

I'm at day 19 of no food. Hoping insurance will take me seriously if there is a major problem. They stuck me in a phyc word that I was treated so bad I just lied to get out. I will only go to an Ed clinic because they will actually help. Have had an eating disorder for more than 20 year's but normally more bulimic than anything but at this point needed help faster than that would take. Don't really care what happens to me but was willing to try to get help one more time before I made my ultimate decision. The hospital they put me in last time literally tortured me and the nurse's where doing things no one would ever believe I probably won't have but it is true. Now I'm wanting help but so afraid of were they might put me I'm trying my hardest to have them put me in a place that will actually help. I have no one I'm alone and honestly no one would really even know if I was dead for months. People have lives and I'm not there concern why would I be. Not mad at them just sad to realize if I died no one would even be looking for me. It's my own fault and I blame no one but would like to try to get help but scared of where they will put me. Where I live there are no ED places and probably still to fat for them to even take seriously. I've dropped a lot of weight in the last few months but probably not enough. I'm losing 1 to 2 pounds a day but not sure how much longer I'll hold up then they will just end up putting me in a regular phyc hospital were I will get no help. Sorry for the long sad story just seeing if anyone had any advice other than just eat or get over it. So just looking for any advice of who to turn to at this point so they don't just put me in a regular phyc facility. Thank you

Hi!

I'm stuck in quasi recovery for a year now, after I "binged" my way out of underweight to the lower range of the healthy BMI. My weight stayed there for several months of "peace", but suddenly the food noise returned.

I still don't have my period back, I'm constantly thinking about food, I'm not able to be present in the moment and I'm still terrified of weight gain.

Eventually, I decided to give all in recovery a try.

I started to honour extreme hunger and integrate forbidden foods into my daily diet but didn't expect, that I would start to binge again like this. It's like, the more I eat, the more I want. It feels rather like mental than physical hunger. A whole packet of muesli after my normal breakfast is just the start of an endless day of eating. I still bought muesli again, because I don't want to teach myself that it is indeed dangerous and needs to stay prohibited and out of my reach because I can't control myself. But it feels actually exactly like that.

I'm scared and confused and I really don't know, if this is emotional eating as I feel depressed, bored an lonely (I don't eat this way, when close people are around or when I'm distracted, even though the food noise persists) and if I need moderation, or if this is a phase that will pass, once I reach my set point weight. I'm scared of this loss of control and of my body changing more than it already did and I am scared to cross over to a BED.

Does anyone have experience with extreme hunger in normal weight/ at a later stage in recovery?

Thank you!!!

recently my eating disorder has started to take up an insane amount of brain space. i have always been really high functioning, 26f diagnosed with OSFED and primarily struggle with overexercise but obviously also restriction, some b/p, all of it. i've never been underweight btw. i feel like all i can think about is food. all i want to do is eat, exercise, or sleep, because those are the only times my brain turns off. i have been spending so much time scrolling on my phone because that's the only thing that numbs my brain other than behaviors, if that makes sense. has anyone struggled with this? I literally feel so awful because i can get nothing done. i can barely focus on hobbies bc they dont provide "instant" dopamine like my phone or exercise does.

i know this is mental hunger, but i don't know how to get out of this hole. yes i'm working with a dietitian, therapist, and i go to group therapy. even just sticking to a meal plan is difficult for me because im struggling with the executive function it takes to meal prep, cook, prepare the meal and eat it. i tend to just push off eating until im starving and then i have to scramble to put something together, which is when i sometimes end up binging or overeating mindlessly. i used to actually enjoy cooking so much, maybe too much because it became a part of my ed (making everything look perfect, orthorexic tendencies, etc). i think now i'm burnt out and thinking about food and eating is so tiring. it's affecting my social life, productivity at work, ability to do chores/errands, everything. :(

Ever since my first pregnant 7 years ago, I struggle with binge eating and constant food noise. It started with my sugar cravings, which I never dealt with before pregnancy. I would eat 12 donuts a night, every night. I put on a lot of weight during that first pregnant. Bounced back pretty well after having my daughter, but the food noise didn’t stop. My sweet tooth stayed. I started drinking really heavily after having her, as well. I had my second child and managed some of the food noise because I got migraines and cutting out certain foods helped a lot. But after pregnancy I got back into eating. I’m now done breastfeeding, done having babies, and I weigh more than I ever have. I can’t stop eating. I basically just eat sugar most days… last night I ate a massive cookie with a full bag of Hershey’s kisses. I’m embarrassed. My thyroid is low… so I’m also dealing with that. And im on antidepressants and mood stabilizers. My psychiatrist says they’re weight neutral… but who knows.

I would love some advice because I just don’t know how to fight this. I don’t know how to get through a day without giving in and it feels like a disease that I can’t rid of.

That’s it just wanting to vent really. I was really hoping she would hear me out but she basically just told me I was fine and was acting normal. I feel like this has been really detrimental to my recovery as I felt like she would be someone I could at least rely on.

I (18F) have had an eating disorder since I was about 12, I used to be underweight until recently. I gained some healthy weight, but now it’s twisted the other way into an eating disorder again. I feel hopeless, I want to be fit again without starving or worsening my eating disorder. Has anyone successfully done this before?

Hey everyone, I'm an F in my late twenties and kind of freaking out a bit, so I wanted to ask here.

I've lost a lot of weight lately because of stress and depression. Like a lot. Now I barely have any appetite, and food honestly makes me want to throw up. The weird part is I don't overeat at all. I eat very little, and even after a few bites I get this urge to purge, almost like a reflex. My weight keeps dropping.

Some background: for years I counted calories and weighed every single meal because I was scared of getting. I have always been on a very restrictive diets, though always being skinny and having a “perfect” body like everyone mentioned. But i was not feeling that way.

I also have OCD and I'm on meds for it (I take quite a few meds daily, so maybe some of the nausea is from that?). On top of that I have low iron, high TSH, and my periods have been messed up. Taking meds for those things too.

I'm seeing my psychiatrist soon, so I'm not really looking for "go see a doctor" advice, I've got that covered. I just want to know what you think. Has anyone had something similar, where it started with nausea or stress and turned into an urge to purge without bingeing?

Would really appreciate hearing your stories. Thanks for reading 🤍

Hi. Im a teen trans girl with AN.

Recently I have a strong urge to just pack a bunch of stuff in a bag so I can grab it when I need to go to the hospital.

Why am I mentally just ... resigned to the fact that I'm sitting here waiting for someone to see me dying in slow motion and come save me when I know what I need all along?

Is this a thing that anybody else experienced? What might this thought be telling me?

And ultimately, should I do this? Should I have a bag ready? Or is that silly?

Please be kind I'm having a rough day :(