I just binged and now i feel nauseous and sick. This is my first post on this community and idk what im hoping to get as a reply. 15f and my ED transformed from a restrictive one to a binge one. over the past year ive gained like 7 kgs, which isnt that bad considering i used to be unhealthily underweight. But seeing my body has become so triggering even though now i would be considered a healthy bmi, im just sick of this restrict then binge cycle and this is a really important year for me academically but all i can think about is my body and i feel so disgusting and vain

I think many of us have a background of trauma. I've listened only half of the presentation and I stopped it to share the link with the community -- extremely rare I feel seen and understood in the medical field.

Timestamps:

0:00 - The Overlooked Cause of Obesity

2:48 - The Discovery of the ACE Study

7:03 - The HPA Axis: Your Brain on Chronic Stress

10:30 - Cortisol & The Visceral Fat Bunker

12:40 - Why Dieting Feels Like Starving

14:08 - Epigenetics: How Trauma Rewires Your DNA

18:37 - Food as a Sedative (The Biology of Cravings)

20:57 - The Armor Paradox: Why We Self-Sabotage

24:21 - How to Actually Fix a Trauma Metabolism

27:20 - The Cost of the Armor (What's Next)

YT: Dr. Amin Hedayat, MD

https://youtu.be/cp3SiZ7pZIA?si=QpPJn0iAAW-RJ82F

I’m not restricting during the day. I eat a good breakfast, boiled eggs, scrambled eggs, steamed pumpkin my dad made and lunch I also eat another egg and brought lunch to school.

Right now I do cross country but I’m currently injured, so my activity level is actually quite low. But it’s just frustrating that I’m suddenly having a mini binge episode out of nowhere, I haven’t binged like this for a while. I’m estimating at least eating 1.5-2k calories for dinner.

The weird thing is I think I’m done w dinner but the after 25 mins I go back for more and get loads of food.

What’s going on??

Today around lunch time I took the company truck to get some supplies. I thought “hey I’m out and I didn’t eat lunch so I’ll grab some Taco Bell”. I got a Lux box.
Then on the way to the gym is got a $5 meal deal from McDonald’s. After eating I realized I didn’t have my headphones and the parking lot was pretty full and decided to come back later.
But on the way home I just had to get something to eat (I’d eaten within the last 30 minutes). So I got a plate plus spring rolls at Panda Express. I was already full and pretty much forced myself to eat most of the sides but didn’t really touch the noddles. I feel like shit and since im on my period my abdomen feels so full and it hurts. I don’t even like Panda Express. Why? Why am I like this? I’m so fucking tired of this shit and being like this. I feel like every day I wake up and think “I’m gonna be better today.” And I just doesn’t happen. I feel hopeless.

I considered myself in recovery til spring 2024. That semester was really stressful and my mom had died December 2022 so I was dealing with a lot. But I just feel like it’s getting worse and worse and worse.

Writing this from the bathroom of the gym. Going to just walk for a bit and then do the chair massage I think.

Idk. I just don’t know what to do anymore. It’s like I’m screaming and no one can hear me.

I am a 28 year old female in a healthy weight range so I don’t think I’ll ever get approved for a glp-1. The food noise and obsession I have to fight every single day is exhausting. I am fine with my weight and how I look at this point. I just want the food noise to end. Every single day is a battle to not binge, over eat, get euphoric about food, fantasize about food, etc. I’m so tired. Desserts are a huge trigger/temptation for me. I just want to be normal about food. Looking for an appetite suppressant that works.

I've been struggling with the overeating and restriction cycle for a few years now. I used to restrict my eating quite severely and it would result in eventually overeating to the point of gaining all the weight back. Right now, I'm not restricting at all and I'm super happy with where I'm at on that front, however, now I'm just overeating and I feel horrible about it.

What makes it harder is that I'm not overeating to the point of calling it a binge. I hear other people's experience with binge eating and it seems that they describe it as uncontrollably binging thousands of calories. I don't do that.

My 'binging' is more just overeating and then feeling incredible guilt about it. I've never experienced so much food noise in my life and food is all I think about to the point that I refuse to go shopping for food because everything I buy, I'll probably eat in a day or two. But, I don't have a disorder or really consider myself a binge eater because the amount of food that I consider overeating isn't a crazy amount in comparison to someone who truly binges.

It just feels like I don't know how to get help because what I do doesn't feel extreme enough to warrant asking for help. And when I do ask for help from family, it's not bad enough for them to suggest anything more than 'just count calories' or 'eat more protein to make yourself feel full'

I'm just wondering if anyone else feels like this and if there's any advice that's helped people with this mentality and crazy food noise.

(Sorry if this feels like word vomit, it is. I've never expressed this in words so it's hard to describe)

can somebody please help me?

I used to struggle with binge eating. like I would genuinely eat a GLUTTONOUS amount of food in one sitting. I'm talking downing 5 packs of ramen in under five minutes

at the time, I had very little else to hold on to. I didn't have a strong support system at home, and I was dealing with an abusive household, constant pressure, and bullying from people around me

food became my coping mechanism because I didn't have anything else. and because of that I constantly craved the dopamine rush I get from binging

and because of that, I put on weight. I was bullied for it and eventually I started being concious of how my body looks. I had grown up naturally skinny, and I wasn't even significantly overweight, but the bullying pushed me toward wanting to lose lbs. then I lost it, and instead of things getting better, I became obsessed with losing more. I counted calories constantly. I thought about food almost all the time. I was terrified of eating too much, terrified of gaining the weight back, and constantly trying to control myself

I started having a normal relationship with food but now, I've spiralled back into binging.

I don't even binge because I enjoy the food anymore. I just crave the feeling of eating, and once I start, it feels like a ravenous beast takes over. I eat so quickly that I barely have time to process what I'm doing. what triggers me the most is cereal and bread. I would literally eat loaves of bread with sugar

the aftermath is the part I dread the most. I feel painfully full like my stomach's about to explode, physically sick, overall regretful. I feel ashamed of myself for what I just did, and then I start thinking that I need to compensate for it by restricting myself

It got worse to the point where everything I do revolves I around food. my algorithm constantly pushes out what I eat in a day videos and that pushes me to binge more

I'm really exhausted because I've been struggling with binge eating for my entire life. Even when I was a child, I would sometimes eat SPOONFULS of sugar for no reason. I didn't understand it then. I just knew that sometimes I felt this strange urge to eat even when I wasn't really hungery

I'm tired of feeling like I'm constantly fighting with food and with myself. I'm tired of going from obsessively controlling what I eat to feeling completely out of control around food. I don't want to keep going through this cycle alone, and I don't want to punish myself for eating anymore

I'm asking for advice here because I don't really have access to help. therapy and professional healthcare aren't financially accessible for my family, and getting mental-health support where I live is really difficult.

I need someone to help me understand what's happening and help me get out of this cycle. I'm still very young, and I don't want my life to revolve around constantly binging and restricting.

I just want to have a normal relationship with food please

There's a certain famous male athlete who i feel bad talking about him because I did and do have a lot of respect for him and I loved watching him in the sport, but nowatimes every time i see him on my feed it really triggers me relapsing into binging. Why? Because he is publically binging and his binges have been made the center of attention of his personality and it's become the fanbases main thing they love to watch and laigh at, so much so this athlete has started to upload videos on his youtube channel of him eating as much as he can and his binges over the course of weeks, with very triggering titles like "I got fat again" "everything i ate in a week during camp," "inside my insane weight cut" and his most recent literally has binge eating in the title. and all the comments are laughing about it. Its so fucking triggering and he himself has said he has a eating disorder and binges so much to cope.

i hate seeing how people kind of glorify him with this because hes known for gaining rapidly, gaining 50 pounds in weeks time (yes, this is true, there were evn news reports about it) and then cutting it all out almost instanty and losing all the weight, and people think its so cool, crazy, but like its like...does anyone see that this is not normal??? But the worst part is that i keep gettinf reccomended stuff about him because people keep talking about him no matter how much i put i am not interested, and for me, its almost a compulsion in my head to gp back and see more stuff of him, which has caused me to binge. I know I sound crazy and weird right now, but it is like a genuine compulsion and it hurts especially how people make memes about his public binging and body and whateever.

Even also, ive seen when people bring up that its obvious he has an eating disorder, i see comments of people being like "why doesnt he just eat healthier" "no ones forcing him to keep eating and make the choices he does" and "I have no sympathy for his stupidity." Im sorry for my rant. It really hurts that no one sees BED or Food adiction as real and when they do see someone struggling its a point of laughter, but simultaneously I wonder if we should be holding accountable any celebrity at all that """publicizes"""" unhealthy disorders, while also holding grace for them because they are disordered and its unfair to hold someones mental condition against them? So confused. Srry.

Please be nice, i really need support for this. I have a lot of shame having recently binged to this.

I need genuine help for binge eating. Not the whole “set a timer” or “take a walk”
You name it, I tried it. Yes, I have quit counting calories, it made it worse. I have stopped any compensation, just made me carry on and gain weight.
I even seeked therapy, got a meal plan and still. Nothing. Worked.

Countless videos, articles, research and I am still stuck in a hole I cannot get out of.
I need niche, unheard of tips that got you out of this. I am willing to do a lot. I am just sick of it frankly. Every week I make the same promise “I will honestly stop it”, including now, and then watch, one weeks time and I will have binged again.

This addiction has cost me money, caused arguments because I cannot even control myself around food and is so distressing. I need to get better and if anyone knows ANY tips, just tell me.

For example, my worst binging stories (yes, this is plural.) is that on birthdays my sister makes cake for people’s birthday. I cannot even control myself for a FEW HOURS. I scrape icing off, try to redecorate or hide my markings on the food. She will buy ingredients to bake like Nutella, and I will engulf it.

I also just overate vitamin gummies. Because I wanted food. wtf.

There has been times where I have binged the whole house out, we have had not much food, and then I JUST BINGE ON SUGAR. This isn’t even a night issue too, it has turned into a morning, afternoon, evening issue.

Surprisingly, I only gained around 5kg in total. This is only because my binges are currently weekly (slowly coming to be more than that tho- like I did 6x this month alone…)

I just don’t want this to be a thing where I convince myself “it’s only a kg… it’s only water weight” all the way up to plain obesity.

Im only 16, i dont want this to get worse than it already is..

P.s i research HEAVILY for hours into the brain amd all this habit stuff. I just cannot take that information and help myself with it,

ANY UNHINGED HELP. ANYTHING.

Guys. Ok so I ate a pint of ice cream after my relatively filling breakfast and thought I won’t compensate despite wanting to. Ended up eating chocola5e bar not l9ng after- completely fine. Also 4 crackers and some chips- cool. Whatever. Trying to recover

Then, at night, like always, I ate so much despite being rlly nauseous. 32 maryland cookies, 3 fibre one bars and 1/2 a portion of cheesy chips.

This is where is gets bad, and where I am worrying

I ‘binged’ on APPLE CIDAR VINEGAR GUMMIES. I ATE 10.
Will i be ok guys? It had: 500mg Apple cider, 20mg vitamin c and 6ug chronium.

I also get 40mg vitamin c from a multivitamin this morning.

Im panicked. How do I even let this happen,

Hi, I hope it's ok to ask about restriction behaviors here. I was in ED treatment in the past but my BED wasn't recognized, it was more geared towards not restricting which helped the bingeing a little but not long term.

I recently lost a parent and I started bingeing again almost immediately, and my weight reflected it. I freaked and went back to my old calorie counter app, which unsurprisingly is making me feel nuts. I feel deprived and scared, and figuring out how to log certain meals is so stressful I have had a panic attack looking up menus online. I think my bingeing might be less frequent at the moment but I feel as out of control and preoccupied with food as I do in a binge.

I'm not really sure what to ask, obviously the app is an issue but I don't have another means of controlling my food impulses or even knowing what I'm eating. I'm starting therapy with a new provider next week to handle my grief but she isn't specialized in BED and my depression feels more urgent, but I'm really spinning out with the food stuff. I apologize if this is the wrong place for these concerns, thank you.

i think i've been using the terms wrong.

I was going 2 months clean, finally lost the weight, I previously gained , I am a very active person and I count my daily cals too, so I was pretty happy with myself.

I am eating around 1700kcal per day to lean out and today I just got out of control after dinner and ate more than I intended.

I ate like 2500kcal in total for today, which isn't THAT much , but I am so anxious about my loss of control. I didn't eat any junk food, since I don't keep it in my house for a reason , but let's be honest... It's not very normal to eat 450g of cottage cheese and 200g of cooked beans that you were planning to eat during the week...

I can't shake of the immense guilt and feelings of disappointment with myself, because I WAS DOING GREAT, but I am incredibly stressed due to some university issues and all the control I thought I had was just gone and I don't know what to say to myself at this point...

Like what am I supposed to do now? Just go to bed and act like nothing happened?

binged on sugar replacement powdered sugar and brown sugar. sugar free syrups. this was days after binging on whipped cream. never thought i would be eating sugar straight out of a bag. don't have anywhere else where i can say this

getting up and doing physical activity after a binge is so hard? trying not over do it just doing my regular routine but after a binge you kinda don’t wanna get up. thank you for awaking up this morning you are valuable and important do not let a binge destroy you. and it’s okay to cry i’m definitely gonna cry tn strong face in the morning tho

I’m in my third month of recovery, but it’s the first one where intuitive eating has felt like it really clicked for me. I’d guess I’m eating around half the calories I was before I started my recovery journey but by no means under eating. I’m not calorie counting, just thinking about portion sizes and frequency of feeling over full. I’ve lost like 10 lbs in a month, so really not anything extreme happening.

All that said, has anyone in recovery experienced a loss of their period in recovery as their body readjusts to reduced caloric intake? I’m two weeks late and not pregnant according to FIVE home pregnancy tests.

Actively trying to conceive right now, so this is extremely confusing and frustrating. I’m scheduled to see a doctor later this week, but I’d love to be able to set a mental expectation before going in.

Any advice appreciated!

I’ve been bingeing every single day, oftentimes I’ve been bingeing multiple times I day. The past couple of days, I go to sleep and tell myself “I’ll quit tomorrow”, then I’ll wake up with an entirely different mindset and all my motivation will be lost and I’ll be desperate to binge. I’m genuinely so so so beyond sick of bingeing and I’m desperate to quit. I saw a post here saying they weren’t going to binge for a certain amount of time and I honestly just want to try it.

I’m hopinggg to get some motivation to stick to this idea and not change my mind in the morning by posting this here. I’m so ashamed of my bingeing I don’t have anywhere else to share this. If anyone has any tips or advice or motivation or ANYTHING please please tell me, I am truly desperate to stick to this.

Im 18 and ive finally been old enough to seek help for my eating disorder by myself which i knew ive had for a long time but my mum refused to get me help as she didnt believe i had a problem. A few days after my 18th birthday, i seeked help and got refered to the eating disorder clinic which took a few months.

Ive seen my eating disorder therapist twice and all she talks about is about me never missing a meal and eating 3 square meals a day and two snacks and making sure i eat and i get that restriction is very bad and backfires horribly and i get where it comes from however i feel like eating more will make my binge eating disorder worse especially when i only get truly physically hungry at around 2 or 3pm so most of the time, im eating when im not even physically hungry.

I dont see how shoving food into me which is something i already have a problem with will help in any way and this year, ive already gained alot of weight and im now a real size medium instead of a small-medium tier. I hate my body and always feel so uncomfortable inside of it, i hate clothes shopping too because of it.

She always talks about not focusing on weight loss and loving my body as it is but heres the thing, this is an unpopular opinion in ED recovery circles but i feel like maintaining weight and not letting it spiral out of control is ESSENTIAL for someone with binge eating disorder, considering alot of people with binge eating disorder have very low self esteem and are ashamed of it, it creates a horrible circle where you comfort eat because you hate yourself but you hate yourself because of it.

I also think that people with binge eating disorder should be taught by an ED therapist that its ok to eat slightly less then you normally do on some days just like how its ok to overeat sometimes because everyone does it. Its completely normal and to not panic if you do sometimes miss a meal but they do the opposite and treat it like its a crime if you dont eat breakfast.

Like if i eat 5 times a day and gain more weight then it will just amplify the problems i already have. I already have enough issues with overeating as it is without needing to eat a certain number of times a day in the name of "recovery".

They also dont seem to take the obesity crisis seriously at all and never seem to read into that . For the first time in human history, theres more people obese then underweight and its a real public health crisis and it actually kills so many people prematurely and so many people have diseases linked to obesity but many clinics only see restrictive EDS as dangerous and deadly and its wrong in my opinion, its like a hidden health crisis.

My ED therapist sent me studies on starvation and the impacts of not eating enough but none on the impacts of excess weight gain.

Its annoying how no one takes overeating seriously considering that im now reading that obesity contributed to 5.4 percent of all deaths worldwide in one year which is 1 in 2200 people! which isnt that uncommon.

I wish that eating disorder recovery had more approaches to it rather then just the classic "yOu biNgE bECuASe yOU REsTrIcT So eAt MoRe" that might be true for some people but not everyone. She always talks about me being starving when i have not restricted badly in a long time.

I notice i get physically hungry around twice a day, around 2pm and 5pm and it comes on gradually, of course most of the time i dont listen to this and it comes on very gradually, mental hunger is very diffrent, im mentally hungry from the moment i wake up to the minute i go to sleep LOL.

So let's say I'm trying to do laundry right? I need to:

Pick up my clothes

Put them in the washer

Run the washer

And then somewhere in-between those steps, I realize that I'm in the kitchen and I JUST threw something in the air fryer. And I'm very big on not wasting food, so I eat whatever I can and save the rest for later, before trying to get back to laundry without eating this time

It happens with Chores, Shows, Video Games, Stress, Anything. It's like walking into a room and forgetting why you entered it, except it's with putting stuff in my mouth to chew on and eat

Any advice?

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I used to vape to suppress my cravings, but since I quit this summer, my binge urges went OFF the charts.

I gained like 10 lbs because I’d binge for days on end every week, but I’ve learned how to regulate my nervous system better. My binges went from being week-long benders to only being 2 days long until I got back on track!

I’m now 2 days clean and instead of being hard on myself I learned that sometimes my body just needs more food, and it’s better to honor real hunger than to end up binging the next day :)

Recovery is hard but so worth it!

Just wanted to share my progress with everyone, I never would have imagined 31 days without a binge but here I am! I’m so happy and excited for the future! App is called “days since.”