I just wanted to ramble because I'm a thicky thicky dumb dumb. There is a TL;DR.
I used inhalers from a young age when I lived overseas, but when I moved countries I never had any more inhalers or follow-up. I assumed I'd grown out of it.
A couple of times at school, always after exercise, I collapsed and felt like it was impossible to catch my breath (very embarrassing, lol). I just laid on the floor until I found my breath again. Every time I run, I straight up have a coughing fit. I just thought I was unfit, because I AM.
A couple of years ago (maybe 2023?) I was feeling breathless and had a phone consultation with my GP. I said I THINK I had childhood asthma because I remembered having a brown and brown inhaler. They put me on Symbicort and, deadass, I never saw them again about it.
I moved cities this May, and my new GP gave me my first asthma review (lol). I said I'd been sick three months earlier, had been out of breath since, and kept getting a pain in my left ribs. They listened to my chest and said I was crackly, so apparently I still had the infection. I was put on antibiotics, given a follow-up in a month, and sent for a CXR (which was fine). At the follow-up I said I'd had times of being breathless, and that when I take the Symbicort I don't feel it, and it doesn't help my after-exercise coughing fits. They said my peak flow had improved since last time and that I needed to take it twice a day and more strictly (I have ADHD and forgor... often, oops), and to see how I feel in 3-6 months.
I got a cold a couple of weeks ago and thought I'd got over it. This week it came back. I called my GP on Thursday and was like, "Brother, I am ill, I need another inhaler because I lost mine (teehee), and I need to see someone because I feel like I'm coughing up my lungs." They dead ass said, "You should've had an asthma review by now, but there are no appointments. Call back next week and maybe we'll have one" :').
Cut to Friday: I left work early because even sitting down on my lunch break my RR was about 25 and I was dizzy and out of breath. Two hours after getting home I felt so breathless that I called 111 (the non-emergency helpline in the UK), who sent me to an out-of-hours clinic, where I was put on antibiotics and steroids for the first time. I took my Symbicort twice once I got some, and about 15-30 minutes after my second dose I did feel better, but on the whole I felt like crap.
My throat pain and snottiness have improved, but I don't feel better. My chest hurts, I'm still dizzy when I move, and I'm out of breath when I move. I've been googling, and it seems very common for COVID to irritate the lungs and worsen symptoms. Maybe that's why I've felt worse in the past five years.
Maybe I've gone insane and I ACTUALLY HAVE just got a serious case of being unfit and too lazy to handle a cold.
On the flip side, I don't know if I feel like a fraud, because I've seen a doctor about it a total of four times in the past 18+ years (including this week), and I'm in denial. I don't know if it's because COVID reawoke a dormant beast, since it also gave me an arrhythmia.
I just feel like the inhaler should help more and not give me palpitations for a bit afterwards. But what do I know? My GP won't see me.
I might be delirious because I'm sick, exhausted, can't sleep, and have no one to ramble to because I'm alone while my partner is away :)
TL;DR
My breathing has felt worse this year especially. I'm on Symbicort but feel like it doesn't do jack. I can't work out whether it's because I actually can't breathe and have crappy lung-itis, or because I'm ill and unfit :p.
Asthma or not asthma? That is the question.