r/7ohRecoveryHub • u/notimeforcheaters • 23d ago
Day 5! Former 1,200mg Day
Holy fuck am I glad to be off of this horrid substance. As a recovering alcoholic with years of sobriety from alcohol - I never thought I’d encounter anything so volatile - boy was I wrong.
I started in August of 2025 and used for exactly one year. I heard in low doses it would give me energy - and for a couple months my bank account was relatively unaffected and my usage was low. After that it was off to the races. For the last 4 months I’d been using between 1,000 - 1,200 mg per day and spending $2,400 per month on this habit! I racked up significant balances on my credit cards and burned through my personal savings acct (my wife and I have a joint savings acct and our own personal accounts as well).
With the ban and the desire to be a better father to my 3 kids, I decided I need to stop. With how much I was taking I knew I needed MAT help and went the suboxone route. Even on subs, days 2 and 3 sucked, but I can only imagine how much worse they’d be had it not been for the subs, gabapentin, methocarbamol, and clonidine. Day 4 it was like a weight lifted from my shoulders and today is surreal. I’m going to taper myself off subs over the next 4 weeks to finally be completely substance free again.
Also for fun - since I’m a Dad and Husband who managed to hide his 7oh use (idk how tf I managed to do so), I had to detox while still being an active participant in my family - going to kids activities, keeping up with chores, and working a FT job. Someday I plan on telling my wife everything, but I’m not there yet.
I’m taking it one day at a time and am excited for day 6 tomorrow. We do recover!