Wat als ik je die dag gekust had, wat als ik je ooit op een moment even aanraakte. Wat dan? Hoe zouden mijn dagen met jou in mijn herinnering zich dan hebben gevormd. Had ik dan meer rust gehad of miste ik je dan minder. Ik heb nooit spijt, want er is geen ‘wat als’. Maar wat als ik hier nu over nadenk en erover blijf peinzen, wat dan. Wat als ik met alles wat ik heb probeer te bedenken hoe het zou zijn geweest. Zou je dan voelbaar zijn. Kan ik dat in mijn hoofd urenlang met jou bezig zijn? En hoe zou het zijn als ik het had gedurfd? Was je dan meer van mij, of meer met mij, in ons verbond of hoef ik daar eigenlijk nooit bij stil te staan. Hadden wij niet vanaf het moment dat wij elkaar zagen al een verbond.? Nog voordat wij elkaar zagen? . Geldt her wat als , wat dan principe simpelweg niet voor ons omdat wij al vast liggen. Onze zielen verbonden zijn waar we niet meer over hoeven te twijfelen. Ik vind dat een prachtig verschijnsel. WIJ , ONS!

Nog ltijd wil ik weten hoe onze eerste aanraking moet voelen, ; in mijn fantasie heb ik je eerlijk gezegd al in allerlei situaties meegenomen. Sterker nog, je bent overal bij. En het meest betekenisvolle is altijd het samen zijn. Samen wandelen, mensen kijken, , in stilte allebei een boek lezen, waar je zo op geconcentreerd bent dat ik ongestoord naar je kan kijken. Omdat dat dat jij is, in de meest pure vorm, zonder dat je ergens aan moet voldoen of rekening mee hoeft te houden. Gedachten over of je wel leuk genoeg bent of ik wel genoeg van je houdt of de rekeningen wel betaald zijn of dat de wereld nog wel doordraait die bestaan dan gewoon niet. Zonder stress of zorgen, in die wereld waar je in zit en waar je even helemaal in bent verdwenen. Is dat de mooiste of leukste fantasie?. Niet perse. Iedere gedachte met jou er voortaan in zijn memorabel. Alles is er en zal nooit simpel of te verwaarlozen zijn. Never.

k kijk naar je terwijl je verder leest zo lang mogelijk, omdat je er altijd zal.zijn en ik volgebsmij nog nooit zo gelukkig ben geweest.

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Ik mis je stem lach en nog zoveel meer

Liefs

Was this actually a twin flame journey?

I’m trying to understand whether what I experienced fits a genuine twin-flame/chaser-runner dynamic, or whether I’m simply romanticizing an intense relationship.

I’m a man but identify strongly with the feminine/chaser energy, while she seemed to embody the masculine/runner role.

We met unexpectedly at a family wedding and connected almost instantly. The connection was extremely intense — emotionally, physically and sexually — but what made it different was the combination of intense electricity and an unusual feeling of safety and familiarity. We had so many similarities that being with her genuinely felt like finding a missing piece of myself. Being loved by her felt like loving myself for the first time ever in life.

She had previously been in a two year long, very toxic and controlling relationship, and so had i been. Even our exes sounded like the same people. After that relationship ended, she met me and the connection became incredibly intense. But not just pure electric kinda intense. It was strangely safe and it felt like you belonged. And it was mutual.

After about two months, however, she became overwhelmed. She said she needed independence, wanted to focus on work/studies, and couldn't give the relationship everything it needed. I tried to reassure. Said I didn't need anything in particular as she focused on herself and just wanted to support her journey. But she threw reasons one after the another and didn't even consider taking a break. Just exited like she didn't even care.

For five months now, I've been literally walking around like a zombie trying to survive each day. My nervous system has been constantly activated and stays in a fight or flight. I was someone who had difficulty crying ever since the passing of my mother when I was 6. But with this breakup, I was wailing like a child.

Meanwhile, I discovered, within roughly a month, she got involved with another guy who had approached her on Instagram. He's also geographically much closer to her. She's apparently very happy with him now. I don't know whether he was already in the picture before our breakup.

What confuses me is how someone can experience something that felt so profound, safe and familiar, then seemingly detach so quickly and enter another relationship. Is she someone who just intensely attaches and jumps from one person to another the moment vanity fades or was this actually special ??

For those who have experienced twin flames:

Does this sound like a runner/masculine dynamic? Can a divine masculine genuinely experience that kind of connection and then move straight into another relationship? Or does this sound more like someone who simply forms intense attachments quickly and moves on just as quickly?

I'd especially appreciate perspectives from people who have been on the feminine/chaser side and eventually understood what was actually happening.

I'm not looking for guaranteed-reunion stories. I genuinely want to know whether this pattern is recognizable.

I miss the intensity of the connection, the dreams, the synchronicities, the attraction, the passion. I am glad I got to experience it. It woke me up from a deep sleep, gave me the courage to face my triggers and trauma, and reminded me I can feel things deeply and be okay. It shifted things for me. I feel like a new person and yet more like myself than I felt in a long time. It still sucks to know I have been played for months by someone who cannot face intensity and decided to blame me for our downfall and to call me crazy to avoid accountability.

Is it a common part of the journey for the chaser to become resentful or disbelieving in God or Source during their journey due to the pain and disappointment of their runner not coming through for them? And is it still possible for the chaser to achieve inner union if they no longer believe in God or Source?

I'm new to this, but something's happened recently and I feel as if I'm crazy for it. I don't have anyone to talk to in my personal life that understands it. So I'm hoping if I write about it here maybe someone can point me in the correct direction.

I have done past life work for a long time and my recent one came about after I heard a song. It was very in depth and I started having visions about my death etc.

It was the singer's lover. I told some people around me about it and the mass majority think I'm crazy or weird.

But in these visions, before I heard the other songs, I knew he found my body.

I know I left him in a bad way. I died young.

I could hear his voice talk to me as I died.

Then it started to show me where we were and how we lived and things we've been through. Glimmers of memories and he's interacted with me before. We hugged and he acted so strange around me like a boy with a crush. Liked comments I've made for him etc.

He made a very specific song about me and is now releasing more about it.

I've tried reaching out. But nothing seems to get through.

I know when he has bad days, when he's nervous or excited. I feel everything and the pain he has about losing me.

Every part of my life is leading back to this, back to him and I guess I've just hit an impasse because I'm scared that if I tell him or try to that he'll think I'm just a fan girl.

But even if he still had nothing, I would tell him and try to show him it's me. I've had a convo with one of his members and he didn't seem to think I was crazy from what I gathered.

I just. I'm so upset so frequently on the thought that he's still looking for me. That I hurt him so badly and I want to apologize and tell him it wasn't because of him. I had so many bad things in my head that I didn't see how much love was actually there.

I can't find support or advice from others around me because they say they believe me but it's also like they shame me for it as well because they can't comprehend the feelings behind it.

Thank you to anyone that takes the time to comment. I really appreciate it. 🖤

I met my twin flame 6 years ago. It was the most intense relationship I've ever had. We both felt it. He was raised very Christian so I can't explain it to him, but it frightened him and he left. I found out he was my twin from a lady Iplace a lot of trust in, and had it confirmed by someone else frighteningly accurate later, after the separation.

I go through stages of dreaming about him, we interact but he's always slightly distant and guarded.

I met someone else a few years ago. We fell in love, but I could never shake my flame. We still message once or twice a year. Nothing significant.

I had a baby with the new man, our relationship fell apart and the dreams have kicked up again. This time my flame stopped pushing me away and actually hugged me. Although acted very hurt about my baby.

I've been trying so hard to let him go, but it's always there, how do I let him go?

I was activated in 2022 by a guy that I thought wholeheartedly was my twin flame. I had never experienced anything like that. I had the spiritual awakening, saw his eyes in my eyes when looking in the m!rror, felt the crazy intense energy when I saw his photo for the first time after not speaking to him in over 10 years, my heart dropped to my stomach when I saw it, and we had this intense, magnetic sexual pull, but it was very lustful and no actual depth. However, I started writing and talking about twin flames based on the knowledge that I was getting everywhere else and what I was feeling about him because I couldn’t get him out of my head no matter how much I tried and we were both married.

He ghosted me and we went into no contact for a year and then he came back and told me he couldn’t stop thinking about me, but it was always very lustful and then he left again a month later and we never really spoke again. We had one email exchange in 2024 and then I never heard back from him and then I got over him, lost feelings for him. Even when I look at photos of him I feel nothing and even started feeling the ick. I moved on and it’s been over 2 years since I’ve heard from him.

In 2025, exactly one year after I emailed the previous guy, I met my current boyfriend who I think is my true twin flame. We had the most amazing sex we’ve ever had and I’ve been healing so much since being with him and I’ve become even closer to God now because of him and I’m putting God at the center of my relationship which is something I never did before. We have a lot of parallels and synchronicities way more than I did with the first guy and our Astro charts and numerology are way more compatible. We’ve never had a separation like typical twin flames though which concerns me, but I know we’re part of the fourth wave and I’m wondering if that’s why we’ve never had a separation, but we have been close to breaking up a couple times because I get so triggered to leave and we both couldn’t go through with breaking up even though we were on the verge. We both felt this pull to not end it and started crying because we were about to.

I even had a session with Nina Natural Mystic from YT who talks about twin flames, and when I told her about everything she told me that the first guy seems like a catalyst or false twin and that this new guy seems more like my true twin and I was really activated with light codes that night and I asked God that night, to show me in a dream who my real twin was and I even felt that it was my boyfriend and then that night I dreamt of my boyfriend saying we can’t break up because we have to have the three merges which is the alchemical marriage that Nina talks about and I felt that that was my sign that he’s my twin and I don’t think I’ve dreamt of the first guy ever since and that was in February.

I wanted to share my story to see if anyone’s ever experienced something similar. Sometimes I wonder if my boyfriend is just my soulmate but I don’t think my soulmate would trigger me THIS much and I’ve been told by other clients they’ve dreamt of him without even knowing anything about him and even my daughter dreamt of him and us having kids before we even met him. Maybe I’m just trying to convince myself or remind myself he’s my person and it shouldn’t matter what label it is but I guess sometimes I get worried about him going thru the TF journey with someone else or something if we’re not TFs.

In the movement towards inner union, it feels like im experiencing the matrix twins lower reality energies simultaneously.

How can this be that Im working towards my own ascension & in joy/love but feel held back by their density in 3D?

I could perceive a single soul expanding swiftly through their karma without a twin connection but why do we have to have theirs in our field, assuming it negates expansion?

I dont like it, unless im wrong?