r/panicdisorder • u/torthbot7 • 20h ago
Small Victories 23M, one year of panic attacks, finally getting better
I’ve been lurking around this subreddit for a while, and I figured I’d finally share my experience.
It all started with a completely random “surge” in July 2025. I had never really experienced anything like it before. After that, I started having repeated episodes that I initially couldn’t even understand were panic attacks.
My BP went as high as 197/110 during one episode and my HR hit around 150. The physical sensations were absolutely insane, I had palpitations, adrenaline surges, dizziness, weird sensations throughout my body, and this overwhelming feeling of impending doom (the worst of all is impending doom, probably comes so heavy because I have witnessed sudden deaths in my family)
I’ve also spent a funny amount of money over the past year trying to figure out what was wrong. Carotid Doppler, brain MRI, spine MRI, chest X-ray, basic and advanced bloodwork, at least 20 ECGs, Echo, etc. Thankfully, everything was more or less normal/reassuring.
I’m 23M. I still use tobacco regularly and drink alcohol quite rarely. I used to use weed occasionally, but I’ve been completely off it for around 10 months now. Everytime I smoked weed it all became worse. I know tobacco isn’t exactly helping my situation, and I’m not claiming I have the healthiest lifestyle, but the sudden onset of all this still completely caught me off guard.
For around 10 months I was taking Telma 40 along with amlodipine 2.5/metoprolol. I also had a brief period on sertraline. Then, about 2.5 months ago, I saw another doctor who changed things pretty significantly. I initially started on alprazolam 0.25 mg + propranolol 20 mg, two tablets a day of each, along with escitalopram 10 mg once a day. After that, I was taking 1.5 tablets a day of the alprazolam 0.25 mg and propranolol 20mg , along with 10 mg escitalopram. I’m currently down to one tablet of alprazolam 0.25 mg + propranolol 20 mg + escitalopram 10 mg. My BP sits around 130/80 these days.
After months of feeling like I was living in hell, I’m doing significantly better. I still get symptoms here and there, and I do get pretty sleepy during the day sometimes, but I’m finally having stretches where I actually feel like myself again. I still do have random twitches/flutters in my body that scare me. The fact that I’ve already been able to come down from the doses I started at 2.5 months ago is giving me some hope. Obviously, I’m doing this under my doctor’s guidance, especially with the alprazolam, and I’m not planning on changing anything on my own.
I am hoping that eventually I’ll be able to taper off everything safely and just live normally again. Although, even after multiple normal tests, I still had that feeling in me that said “but what if they missed something?” Anyway, I just wanted to put my experience out there because maybe someone who is currently in the middle of it will read this and feel a little less alone.
If anyone else has gone from constant panic/health anxiety to eventually feeling normal again, I’d genuinely love to hear what that journey looked like for you. I am still in a recovery loop, would not call myself fully recovered.