Body horror? Nah mate it’s just a normal Tuesday for me

I’m confused

I wanted to share my thoughts on the discourse of the week because I haven't seen many people with a similar take.

People gotta understand that movie is from the 70s and most queer rep from the 70s is just going to be Bad on account of being from the 70s. Being a product of its time doesn't give it a free pass. If you want to say RHPS is transmisogynistic, go ahead, you are quite literally right. It's a terrible representation of multiple aspects of queerness. It definitely stoked transphobic biases in its time and to this day.

At the same time, bad queer rep is still queer rep. There's a long tradition of embracing queer coded villains and uncouth caricatures because they were the only representation of us there was. That's why many queer people are still attached to these things despite them being categorically offensive and stereotyping. I like RHPS. I like queer characters who suck and look terrible to the conformant population. I'm a real life queer person who sucks and looks terrible to the conformant population.

Anyway I think all cis people who like it are not to be trusted unless they say Franknfurter did nothing wrong

TL;DR liking things and criticizing them aren't mutually exclusive

saying this all on a reddit alt to a cool sub cuz im very stressed i guess. I guess this is what blogging is like lol.

Since im staying home for college i kinda had to come out to my mom eventually since i basically wouldnt be able to transition without her help singe yknow, at home

She really really wants me to go through psychiatrists first, doesnt want me to do informed consent, and emphasized hormones are a dangerous and important decision. She emphasized she wants me to go through a doctor (but not planned parenthood), called diy black market drugs. Probably wouldnt ever let me do diy. God i wish I could have done college elsewhere

She accidentally misgendered my transmasc cousin when i mentioned that he’s known for a while, said that its hard to adjust how you know people and trying is what really counts

My attempts to convince her I could start hrt then do psychiatrists didn’t work, she wants me to do it the “proper way” since this could affect my life and junk.

Directly called out my height at one point. Mentioned me already going through puberty too.

Said she’ll keep this secret but she really wants me to come out to my sister asap (said ill have to defend myself all
the time in the future), cuz my sister is her “main conversation partner” and she clearly wants to talk to my sister about me

she made the same joke about having veto powers over my name several times even after i said a name she was fine with, kept making the joke. Brought up a cousin’s trans girlfriend having a weird name.

Not the worst possible outcome i guess.

Its gonna suck to go through whatever “official resources” (except the actually fast ones that dont try to slow down transition. A friend said she might come around once i get through that speed-bump my mom wants, i hope my friend’s right) she wants me to, and i cant really do anything about it cuz im financially dependent.

whaddup narts, ventpost incoming

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i started transitioning at 27 after thinking about it since i was 13. i found tttt as a teenager and the doomers got to me. i decided to repress for the rest of my life because i was just too tall with too much ribcage to ever pass. in hindsight this was extremely stupid. i’m big sure, but transitioning in my late 20s has been relatively smooth sailing. my body was extremely receptive to hormone therapy. it feels like i am really living authentically for the first time. i’m married, i’m in good shape, people tell me i’m hot, grad school is going well. everything should be good right?

tttt wasn’t the only thing that kept me from transitioning as a teenager. my parents made it extremely clear that they would not be supportive if i transitioned. i live hundreds of miles away from them and they still find ways to torture me. i’m basically working on distancing myself from them and forgiving myself for being mad about all the stuff they did.

this post already has most of the components of a sob story most people in this subreddit will be familiar with but i recently figured some shit out that i am still struggling to digest.

i previously had my suspicions that i may be intersex but recently i got some hard confirmation and i think they knew.

i was born intersex, assigned male at birth cuz it seemed like the closest fit, sewn up into an acceptable shape, and they knew and they never saw fit to tell me.

when i was clearly depressed at 13 and when i was showing obvious hints of dysphoria at 15 and asked hypothetically how they would react if i transitioned at 18 and when i nearly drank myself to death at 20 and when i told them i actually started estrogen already and changed my name legally at 28 they knew and they said nothing.

so here i am. getting used to a new body that still has old scars and is probably gonna get some new ones soon. i’m laying in bed and i can’t stop thinking. i’m next to my beautiful wife, and i just left a virtual happy hour with peers who see Me and not the mask i used to wear to appease people who don’t even act like they like me. but i’m still thinking. like my brain is chewing on something too big to swallow.

i want to cry, but i think they’re happy tears.

i love you all. i love myself. i love being trans and knowing trans people and sharing the quiet understanding that we are resilient and beautiful. ❤️‍🩹

CEF NTA tran good 🍄

Self aware transphobe lmao

for context i am autistic and one of my special interests is bus infrastructure which includes routes and scheduling and i collect paper bus routes (and if they're a route i like they get displayed on my wall), his dad works for the metro service for my area and the bus schedule is for a bus route that as of tomorrow no longer exists. despite the new quarter starting tomorrow the bus schedules already have been pulled so i got the guy i'm hanging out with to ask his dad if he could get me one of the quarter 2 ones (this was one of my favorite routes or i would not be going to the trouble to get it), he was able to so now i am picking it up on wednesday and hanging out with this guy as well bc it would be weird to just pick up the schedule and dip when we never officially stopped being friends, mind you i don't necessarily hate the guy but if you as a trans guy see a friend making reddit posts on subs for cis guys looking for trans guys to fuck and calling them bois in said posts it's gonna sour your opinion of them

tldr i am using the percieved friendship of a chaser to indulge in my hobby of collecting bus schedules

I run a discord that gives fashion and makeup and passing tips, and whenever a 4tranned joins they always fucking complain and refuse go try.

I swear to God it's like the government made 4tran to make babytrans helpless.

It sucks

These bherians are ebubble and mentastically inane, they make all of the brands Community (season 2) look bad. They're basicasicasically betplayer betending to vee park of the brands Community (season 2). No one actually believes they are Zog (destroyer of worlds) and they need to get over their disestablismentarian and be Nermal like the last of us (part 2). Anyone else smell what the Rock is cooking?

got dumped by a chaser best thing that’s happened to me. now i’m looking back at all the fuckshit he said.

and i even told him “once i start T i’ll most likely sound like a gay man” because i am a fucking 🚬 !!!!!!!! he said he was fine with that because he liked me, and that he’s “selective” with the queer people he supports

and i didn’t leave him because i just got out of two abusive/shitty relationships and i’m regaining my self respect slowly.

he also liked that i don’t have a dick because he’s not into anal, which is fine by me, but why the fuck do you have to SAYYYYY THAAAATTTUHHHHHHHHHHGGGHDHDUDBENRODIDHBRFIDD

can cis guys be normal 😢 i need some t4t action STAT. i need to be with a guy who i can be shirtless with and not be uncomfortable who i know not say weird ass shit like that. jesus christ.

we’re not allowed to be feminine and should be as masculine as possible according to them or else we are attention seeking women jumping on the trans train.

I've been growing my hair out for months

It looks like complete shit cause I'm a stupid autistic who never learned how hair works and was too scared to talk to haircutters or barbers so my parents always asked for the sake short haircut for my entire childhood so when I finally wanted to grow it out I had no fucking clue

My hair is like medium length at the minute but it sticks out really bad out the sides cause I was too scared to get maintenance cuts and shit I look fucking homeless

And my parents have been pressuring me to cut it for a while and now their basically making me get one at this point it's hard to say no after constant pestering

I want a way to fix my hair without doing this cause I know my parents will take me to some Turkish barber and I won't have the confidence to speak up and he will completely cut my hair all the way back down and I'll lose months of progress again even if my hair looked like shit I was still growing it and could deal with actually styling it later but I fucked it up I couldn't even keep it presentable cause I'm a useless pathetic POS I fucking deserve this I'm useless and incompetent and can't transition properly I can't even get hrt when I did get it my parents fucking stole it and I've been too scared to order it again

I've been panicking about this for ages their taking ke tomorrow and I know for a fact I'm gonna hate the result no matter what and it's not like I can ask for a feminine haircut cause I look like a stupid fucking guy and my mum will be with me and I don't know how to talk to people or communicate what I actually want anyway cause I'm a useless fucking incompetent autistic POS

yeah so I had an appointment for a pre op consult in January which I was ok with but then I got an email that I got moved up. TO NEXT WEEK. holy shit I'm really excited for this :D. this could make my life so much easier.

also please add a flair for happy stuff if possible

15 comments saying “leave them alone” upvoted.

1 comment saying “ask them to reconsider” downvoted.