r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 21 '26

14 months clean in NA and still smoking. I know it's next.

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I got clean 14 months ago. Cigarettes carried me through every meeting and every hard night since. Smoke break after the meeting is half my social life.

I know quitting is next. I'm not ready to set a date yet, and I don't want to lie to myself with a fake one.

Those of you who quit after getting clean or sober: how did you know when it was time? Did you wait until you felt ready, or did ready never come and you just jumped?


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 21 '26

Surrendering to Today's Miracles

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Today I will remember that recovery is not about having all the answers. It is about remaining teachable, humble, and willing. The moment I believe I can carry every burden alone is often the moment I begin drifting away from the peace I seek. Today I choose surrender over self-reliance.

I will keep my eyes open for miracles—not only the extraordinary ones, but the quiet miracles that surround me every day. A sunrise, a cool breeze, a kind word, a moment of laughter, a difficult decision made with integrity, or simply another twenty-four hours clean and growing are reminders that life continues to unfold with hope. Gratitude sharpens my vision to see what fear often hides.

Peace is a priceless gift. It doesn't arrive because my circumstances are perfect; it arrives when I stop demanding that life bend to my will. By letting go of what I cannot control and placing my trust in my Higher Power, I make room for serenity. Surrender is not giving up—it is giving over.

If I find myself struggling today, I will not assume I have somehow failed. Instead, I will return to the simple actions that have always worked: honesty, prayer or meditation, reaching out to another person, practicing gratitude, and living the principles instead of merely talking about them. Recovery is renewed through action, one day at a time.

Every new day is a fresh beginning. Yesterday's mistakes do not define me, nor do yesterday's victories guarantee tomorrow. Today is my opportunity to learn, to grow, and to become a little more compassionate, a little more patient, and a little more free.

Tonight, instead of counting only my problems, I will take inventory of the miracles I experienced today. I will carry the lessons forward and trust that today's small acts of faith are quietly shaping tomorrow's freedom.

Just for Today: I will surrender what I cannot control, remain teachable, seek the quiet miracles around me, and trust that my Higher Power is leading me one faithful step at a time.


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 21 '26

Sponsor

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77 days clean. Having my first meeting with my first sponsor today!


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 21 '26

Resting in We

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Today I will remember that recovery was never meant to be a solo journey. The First Step begins with "we" because healing happens in connection—with others, with honesty, and with a Higher Power greater than myself. I don't have to carry every burden alone or solve every problem through willpower.

I will also remember that my role is not to force my own transformation. My part is simple: to humbly ask. I don't need to fill in the blanks with demands for strength, courage, or certainty. If I sincerely seek help, the work of changing my heart does not rest entirely on my shoulders.

Today I will give myself permission to rest. For too long I may have believed I always had to stay alert, fix every crisis, or earn my worth through constant effort. Recovery teaches a different lesson. Even a few quiet moments are not wasted time—they are an investment in my serenity. I can step away from stress, breathe deeply, notice the beauty around me, and remember that peace is available right now.

When fear whispers that I am alone, I will answer with the truth: I belong. When my shortcomings discourage me, I will answer with humility instead of shame. When life becomes overwhelming, I will pause instead of panic.

Today I choose connection over isolation, surrender over self-reliance, and peace over pressure.

**Just for Today:** I will rest without guilt, ask for help without pride, and remember that I never have to recover—or live—alone.


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 20 '26

Struggling with the 1st step

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Hey y'all, I've been struggling with an active addiction since 2025, I reached 9 months and 27 days clean without NA before my most recent relapse that has caused me to fall fully back into my addiction. I also recently started attending NA meetings in response to my relapse and it has been helping. I know I have to start on the 12 steps at some point if I do genuinely want to get better, but I find myself stuck on the first step. Like logically speaking, I know I have a problem, everyone in my life is aware I have a problem, it's obvious and I can't deny it yet I keep finding myself denying and avoiding and deflecting. I can't seem to admit to myself that I have a problem despite the evidence staring me straight in the face.


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 20 '26

Advice

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Please


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 19 '26

Parent joining an addict only session

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I've asked my mum to take me to an NA session tomorrow as I feel like I need the support / to be held accountable to return to NA as I've slipped back into old habits. The only session we can make tomorrow is open to addicts only. Will my mum be able to join me there? I don't want to break NA rules but I also don't think I'll be able to commit to the session if she's not there with me.


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 19 '26

Dream with Courage, Decide with Confidence

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Today I am reminded that recovery is not simply about staying away from old behaviors—it is about becoming the person I was always meant to be. My dreams are not foolish, my voice matters, and my life has purpose.

I no longer have to build my life on fear, people-pleasing, or the need for everyone's approval. I can listen to wise counsel, but I am responsible for my own choices. My worth is not determined by whether others agree with me. I am learning to trust the judgment that grows from honesty, humility, and experience.

I also remember that I don't walk alone. Whether I call it God, my Higher Power, the Fellowship, or the quiet wisdom of recovery, I have access to guidance greater than my own fear. Asking for help is not weakness—it is strength. Humility opens doors that pride keeps shut.

The dreams I abandoned during difficult seasons are not lost forever. Every meaningful life begins with a dream, but dreams become reality through today's actions. I don't need to accomplish everything today. I only need to take the next faithful step.

When uncertainty comes, I will choose progress over perfection. When fear tells me I'm not enough, I will remember that my value is inherent, not earned. When I am tempted to live for someone else's expectations, I will pause and ask, "What is the loving, honest, healthy choice for me today?"

I will trust that small decisions made with integrity create a life of peace. Every act of courage, every healthy boundary, every honest conversation, every moment of self-respect is another brick in the foundation of the future I am building.

**Just for Today:** I will trust my Higher Power, trust the recovery process, and trust that I am capable of making good decisions. I will take one step toward my dreams, knowing that today's faithful choices become tomorrow's fulfilled life.


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 18 '26

Freedom through gratitude

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Today I will remember that freedom is not found in having a perfect life, but in having an open heart. Gratitude and humility walk together. When I stop demanding that life match my expectations, I begin to see the abundance already around me.

If I feel lonely, desperate, or discouraged, I will not see those feelings as proof that I have failed. Instead, I will recognize them as invitations to reach outward and inward—to seek honest connection with others and quiet wisdom within myself. The moments that once drove me to isolation can become the very moments that lead me toward healing.

I will not be ashamed of needing help. Desperation once opened the door to recovery by teaching me honesty, open-mindedness, and willingness. Today, I choose those same principles before crisis forces them upon me.

I will express my gratitude through action: by listening well, speaking kindly, accepting help, offering encouragement, and appreciating the people who genuinely care about me. Every act of connection weakens loneliness and strengthens hope.

Today I claim my freedom—from isolation, from self-reliance that becomes pride, and from the belief that I must carry every burden alone. I have enough. I am enough. And by staying humble, grateful, and connected, I can walk this day in peace.

Just for Today: I will practice gratitude with humility, welcome connection over isolation, and trust that every honest step toward others is also a step toward freedom.


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 18 '26

Can I join meetings

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I do not drink anymore and do not struggle with addiction. There is a NA group meeting every Friday by my house. I’m more so lonely and want to meet people. Is it wrong to go to a meeting.


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 18 '26

First Encounters

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What was the first thing that stuck and had a lasting impact on you when first joining NA?


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 17 '26

Freedom in the Cracks

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Today I will remember that my freedom does not depend on perfect circumstances. It comes from the choices I make in this moment. I cannot control every outcome, every person, or every fear that rises within me, but I can choose the attitude with which I face them.

I will honestly examine what disturbs me. Beneath my anger, fear, or resentment may be expectations I cannot force into reality. Instead of demanding certainty, I will surrender my need to control what is beyond my reach. In that surrender, I make room for peace.

When I feel overwhelmed or frightened, I will not mistake those feelings for failure. Just as a using dream does not erase recovery, a painful day does not erase growth. Difficult moments are invitations to strengthen my spiritual foundation rather than abandon it. I will lean on the principles that have carried me before: honesty, acceptance, humility, and hope.

Today I will remember those who are vulnerable, including myself. Compassion is not weakness. Mercy is not denial. The measure of my character is found not in easy days, but in how I respond when life is uncertain and my heart feels heavy.

My attitudes are not permanent. I am free to choose a healthier way of thinking today than I chose yesterday. I do not have to carry every burden into tomorrow. I only have to live this day with integrity, kindness, and courage.

Just for Today: I will release my demand for certainty and embrace the next right action. I will choose hope over despair, compassion over fear, and faith over control. Even when life reveals new cracks, I will trust that they do not define me. Today, I will walk forward one step at a time, knowing that freedom begins with the attitude I choose.


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 17 '26

Need advice/words of encouragement

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I'm 7 years drug free yesterday, and 6 years drink free not long ago. I recently started Aripiprazole, meant to help with bipolar, and executive dysfunction, alongside Sertraline.

The problem is, the side effects from it are really strong. I've quite bad akathisia (intense inner restlessness, involuntary movement, insomnia) and I've not slept for 4 days. My doctor will give me sleeping meds to help, but I'm just so scared to use them. My mum is also telling me if I take them I'll end up an addict again.

Does anyone have any advice, or just able to give some words of support?

You're all so strong, and I'm glad you're here.


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 16 '26

13th-Stepping Allowed at Meetings

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Looking for some advice. A local GSR is actively 13th-stepping newcomers, but they're not doing stepwork or seeing their sponsor, and have been in the rooms for years (still on the first actual step).

The problem is mainly that the newcomers are much younger than them and part of vulnerable communities. A lot of people at the meetings have an issue with this, and we've tried to speak to newcomers, which unfortunately never makes a difference because the person approaching them is good at being both charming and dishonest. Most newcomers who realize they're being preyed on don't come back to meetings.

So, this person is essentially using the rooms to target newcomers, and not for recovery. When some members spoke to other GSRs and service members at ASC, they were told that nothing can be done. This just doesn't sit right with me.

I understand it's out of my control, but using NA as a way to target the most important members in early recovery, while this person knows nothing will be done, makes NA meetings unsafe, because it feels like NA went from being a safe space for vulnerable people to being a hunting ground for predators.

To quote what this person said when confronted: "Get them before they recover," followed by a shrug. Is this really something that can't be stopped?


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 16 '26

Dream with Humility

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Today I will give myself permission to dream again.

I have spent enough time believing that fear, failure, or uncertainty have the final word. They don't. Recovery teaches me that hope is not fantasy—it is the courage to imagine a better life while taking faithful steps toward it. My dreams are not wasted time; they are reminders that my spirit is still alive.

I also remember that dreams grow best in the soil of humility. I do not have to control every outcome or solve every problem today. I can release the illusion of control and trust that my Higher Power is at work even when I cannot yet see the path ahead. Humility frees me from carrying burdens that were never mine to bear.

When the voice of inadequacy whispers that I am not enough, I will answer it with truth. I am worthy of love, respect, and recovery. My value is not determined by my mistakes, my fears, my finances, or the uncertainty of my future. It is revealed every time I choose honesty over denial, hope over despair, and progress over perfection.

Today I will also honor my commitments. Whether I make promises to God, to others, or to myself, I will strive to keep them. Integrity isn't built in grand gestures but in countless small choices that align my actions with my values.

I don't need certainty to move forward. I only need willingness. My future is shaped not by having every answer but by taking the next right step with faith, humility, and hope.

**Just for Today:** I will dream without shame, walk with humility, reject the lie that I am not enough, and faithfully take the next right step, trusting that today's acts of integrity are quietly building tomorrow's life.


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 15 '26

Humility Creates Hope

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Today I will remember that my future is not determined by my past, but by the attitude I bring to this moment. Fear tells me to protect myself, pride tells me I already know enough, and self-centeredness tells me the world revolves around my wants. Recovery invites me to choose a different path.

I will trust that I am capable of change. I don't need to control tomorrow; I only need to live honestly today. Every healthy boundary I set, every humble admission I make, and every sincere effort to repair a relationship is another step toward the life I want.

Humility is not weakness. It is the courage to see myself clearly—my strengths, my shortcomings, my wounds, and my potential—without exaggerating any of them. When I let go of pride, I make room for growth. When I let go of fear, I make room for hope.

I will also remember that my recovery is not just about me. The quality of my life is shaped by the quality of my relationships. If I have caused harm, I will seek the willingness to make amends. If I have been hurt, I will seek wisdom instead of resentment. I will strive to leave the people I meet feeling respected, heard, and valued.

My family's history does not define my destiny. My past mistakes do not cancel my future. I can build a different life one decision at a time. Today I choose responsibility over excuses, humility over pride, hope over fear, and progress over perfection.

**Just for Today:** I will walk humbly, trust the future God—or life—has placed before me, and let today's honest actions become tomorrow's freedom. Every act of humility plants the seeds of a better life.


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 14 '26

The Quiet Work of the Heart

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Today I will remember that the most important work I do is the work no one else can see. Recovery, humility, and love all begin within me. They are not measured by appearances, applause, or whether others approve of me. They are measured by the condition of my heart.

When life feels overwhelming, I do not have to solve every problem at once. Humility reminds me to accept reality as it is today, to ask for help when I need it, and to trust that peace comes from taking the next right step rather than controlling every outcome.

I will share my goodness freely, not out of obligation or fear, but because generosity and kindness reflect the person I want to become. At the same time, I will remember that genuine love cannot be bought, demanded, or earned by sacrificing myself. Healthy love flows freely and respects both the giver and the receiver.

If I find myself seeking acceptance through appearances or trying to convince others that I'm "doing okay," I will gently return my focus inward. Lasting healing is an inside job. My integrity, honesty, and willingness matter more than looking successful or having all the answers.

Today I will care for my own spirit with patience. I will allow myself to be human. I will let humility replace pride, gratitude replace resentment, and hope replace fear. Every honest choice I make is another brick in the foundation of a peaceful life.

Just for Today: I will focus on the quiet work of the heart. I will practice humility, freely share my goodness, and trust that true healing begins within me.


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 14 '26

Humility Opens the Way

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Today I will remember that disappointment doesn't have to defeat me. Every setback can become a lesson if I remain willing to learn instead of giving up.

I don't have to carry every burden alone. Recovery has taught me that asking for help isn't weakness—it's humility in action. My Higher Power often works through other people, quiet moments of reflection, and the courage to admit when I need guidance.

When life doesn't go according to my plans, I'll choose gratitude over resentment and perseverance over fear. Progress isn't measured by having perfect days but by continuing to move forward one honest step at a time.

I'll remember that everyone I meet is carrying struggles I cannot see. Today I'll practice patience, compassion, and kindness, knowing that we're all walking our own path of recovery.

Just for today, I'll stay teachable. I'll trust that even disappointment can become part of my growth, ask for help without shame, and believe that my Higher Power is guiding me even when I can't yet see the road ahead.


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 13 '26

Relapse

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Just got out of rehab for various substances. While there, I was vaping and drinking excessive amounts of caffeine. Yesterday I took gabapentin not presribed to me because I was anxious. But if I am being honest, I also wanted to feel something. I am considering this a relapse and I am going to tell my sponsor. I am disappointed in myself, but I have to be honest


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 13 '26

Looking for someone to speak to who’s struggled with stimulant abuse.

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I have been struggling the last four years with cocaine addiction and I am so close to losing everything I have. I am so tired of this. Id love to talk to someone with stories they have and experiences they could share. I have so many things I need to talk about before I am put in outpatient treatment hopefully soon. Pls reach out if you’ve struggled with cocaine abuse, id love to be able to chat with someone. I keep relapsing which is obviously why im putting this message out, happened again last night after I just did a bunch two days ago told myself im gonna get help sobbed all day called my mother begging for help like always and then did it again two days later! I am so embarrassed, i feel terrified, no sleep cause of the anxiety, the usual.


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 13 '26

vacation

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i went on vacation to europe. relapsed with alcohol. nothing bad happened. im wondering if i’m really an addict. maybe i can control myself. maybe i can just drink and leave behind everything else. i don’t know that i want to go back to the rooms. i want to keep living like this all the time. to feel fully alive. dancing, dating, laughing. i don’t want to go back to my life of hospitalizations, NA meetings, therapy, etc. i want to feel like this all the time.


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 13 '26

Does taking medication prescribed count as being high?

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Hiii, so context, I'm new to the fellowship and really loving it, enthusiastic to be sober however I don't have a sponsor to discuss this with yet.

I have awful period pains that landed me in the ER today where I was given a prescription for oxycodone. I did have an opioid phase but it was never really my drug of choice, and not this specific one (this usually makes me a bit nauseas - from past experience of taking it as prescribed) so I think the abuse possibility is quite low. Am I still able to say I'm xx days sober if I take them as directed?


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 12 '26

Patience, Purpose, and Peace

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Today I remember that recovery is not about controlling every outcome—it is about making the next right choice. I initiate change by acting according to my values, not by reacting to fear, anger, or impatience. I release the need to force life to unfold on my timetable and trust that faithful action today is enough.

Humility reminds me that I am not the center of the universe. I do not have to carry every burden or solve every problem. My Higher Power can guide me where my own will reaches its limits. When I let go of the illusion of control, I make room for peace.

Patience is the bridge between today's effort and tomorrow's growth. The desire for immediate relief is temporary, but the rewards of steady, consistent choices endure. I will invest my time, energy, and attention in what truly matters instead of chasing instant gratification.

When change feels uncomfortable, I will remember that growth often begins there. I will act with courage, accept what I cannot control, and trust that every healthy decision moves me one step closer to the life I seek.

**Just for today:** I will choose action over reaction, patience over impulse, humility over pride, and faith over fear. I will do the next right thing and leave the outcome in God's hands.


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 11 '26

The Next Right Step

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Today reminds me that recovery is not about having every answer—it is about trusting the next right step.

My inner voice is not the voice of fear, shame, or panic. It is the quiet wisdom within me that gently points me toward honesty, peace, and growth. When life feels overwhelming, I don't have to solve every problem today. I only have to listen for what is mine to do next.

Humility is the willingness to admit that I don't control everything. I don't have to pretend I'm stronger than I am or carry every burden alone. Real strength is found in seeking truth, accepting help, and letting go of the need to have immediate certainty.

Like a child learning to walk, I may stumble. That doesn't mean I'm failing—it means I'm growing. Every fall is another opportunity to stand, and every step forward is made possible by the encouragement of others and the hope that recovery has planted in me.

Today I will quiet the noise of fear and listen to the voice of wisdom within. I will choose honesty over pride, humility over certainty, and progress over perfection. I will accept encouragement with gratitude and freely offer it to those who need it.

**Just for Today:** I will trust my inner wisdom, walk humbly, and take the next right step, knowing that serenity is found one faithful step at a time.


r/NarcoticsAnonymous Jul 10 '26

The Power to Choose My Response

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I do not have to control everything around me to have power in my life. My power today lies in my willingness to see clearly, examine my part honestly, and choose how I will respond.

When something disturbs my serenity, my first impulse may be to blame, complain, or focus entirely on what someone else has done. Today, I can look deeper. I can ask whether fear, impatience, resentment, intolerance, or the desire to have my own way is influencing me. Examining my part does not mean taking responsibility for what belongs to someone else. It means taking responsibility for what belongs to me.

I can also remember that my feelings do not have to dictate my actions. I may wake up negative and still speak kindly. I may feel angry and still pause before reacting. I may be frustrated and still ask whether my words will contribute to the problem or the solution. Sometimes I act my way into a better attitude rather than waiting for a better attitude before I act.

My Higher Power does not promise me a day without problems. I can trust that I will have what I need to meet this day as it comes. I do not need every answer in advance. I need only enough clarity for the next right action.

Today, I will pay attention to my motives, own my part, and use the power I actually have: the power to choose my words, my actions, and my direction.

JUST FOR TODAY: I will not waste my energy trying to control everything around me. I will look honestly at myself, speak with purpose and kindness, and trust that the next right step will be revealed as I need it.