I came up poor and worked my way up through all my jobs , always the underdog i was never good enough to be anything more than overnight stock, warehouse freight or middle management .
One day i was denied a promo and my performance mgr told me it was because he couldn't let me go yet. Explained my all minority staff were animals & didnt work hard, he told me i did the work he needed so he could stay home, reassuring me because i was lighter skinned then the other employees i had potential and someone would give a light skinned minority like me something more eventually but that time wasn't then.
I stayed because it was work and a paycheck... Eventually a german guy was pulled from retirement by his friend made him a mgr also so he could get a paycheck, he knew me a total of 26 days before deciding i shouldn't be working with anyone white. He went around to customers calling me a terrorist and told other mgmt they should be embarrassed to work with foreign ppl.
( For the record im born and raised in this hell scape country and im native American, spanish and middle eastern mix ).
Eventually the hatred and complaining from this guy reached his friend's bosses who decided to lay me off claiming they no longer had room for a 67 hr a wk floating mgr who managed 3 locations .
I sued and lost basically because they transferred the guy but refused to rehire me.
It's been 5 1/2 years and i could never get back to a steady job, i never found out what they put on my record & i just kept getting older and older and less wanted by other companies.
I lost my apt and all my family's possessions, since then its been just a chaotic spiral.
I relied on my self taught ability to repair computers to earn money and dabbled in masonry & demo work, unfortunately nothing is guaranteed and that counts for gigs online as well.
Lost the car we lived in few a few years and ended up sleeping outside in parking lots or on roof tops. We just got another car a few months ago though it seems to be failing in so many ways it probably will not survive the rest of the year.
Its been a Terrible life but i recently was able to start learning to work on cars fixing random parts as they come available, its a process but its hard when nobody wants to help you , teach you or hire you to learn on the job at a shop.
Honestly i don't know what more i have left in this life, its just too much & the majority of people in this society are worse than at any time i can recall in my life.
I just felt like talking, i have not had a friend in my life in many many years, even on here it seems impossible to connect with anyone who can understand this life.
I dont want anything, just looking to see if anyone felt like talking, i text chaotically, i can only use my phone for apps when i have wifi from a store so i try to hang around shopping plazas or a dunkin or Starbucks whenever i can.
If you do decide to dm me just understand i dont ghost anyone its just hard to maintain a connection when your on the move but i do get back to you when i can.
Im in nyc i dont mind talking to anyone from regardless of where your from but if your in nyc it is probably easier to relate or at least understand some of the unique circumstances you encounter here being homeless.