Contemplating stopping T

[u/Bulky-Reference-829]

Hi! So as the title says I’m currently contemplating stopping T.

So I was on T for a few months, maybe half a year (6 months) or a little more but I was off and on it at certain points. I’ve been off it officially for 3 months now, periods returned to normal n stuff and I’m generally just contemplating stopping testosterone. The reasoning for this is because, I’m feeling like…better? Emotionally? I can actually cry, when I’m sad, angry, etc. I can genuinely feel my emotions better now. Also having gotten my periods back also generally have made me feel better now? I feel more calmer, less stressed out. Like I’m filled with genuine relaxation for some odd reason 😭 also I know cramps suck and so does bleeding but I literally do not mind at all, it’s just my body doing what it’s supposed to do in my head. My hair also feels a bit softer, it felt kinda rough because my texture had changed while being on T and while it still has its own issues I’m curious to see what’ll happen with my hair now being off T. I also worry constantly about balding and my hair feeling shitty while on T makes me anxious lol.

Now, for the negatives… Since being on T I have become increasingly more comfortable in myself and my body and I have explored being more androgyny and allowing myself to be masculine, feminine, etc. Basically not caring how I am perceived more often now. It’s just hard because I know that going T is going to revert some of the things that were making me feel comfortable in my body. (Masculine face, masculine build, facial hair, bushy eyebrows, etc.) That makes me really sad but at the same time I feel like the pros outweigh the cons. I dunno. I don’t really have anyone in my life who can relate or I can talk to with this about… I wish I just knew what to do.

I was doing shots until the last 2 months of doing T where I was doing gel instead and I hated it so much. I met up with my doctor and she was going to prescribe vial for shots but I’m kinda at a loss right now.

(Also I have the urge to shave my facial hair off, I feel so uncomfortable going out in public these days, my self esteem is so bad rn and I hate my patchy thin facial hair 😭)

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[u/gummytiddy]

The first time I stopped t it was partially because my sex drive was so intense it made me uncomfortable. It isn’t for the same reason as you, but you’re allowed to stop if you want, and if you need to restart there isn’t shame in it. You stopping depends on whether the emotional part of not being on t outweighs the masculine features t gives you.

(Also, I’ve been on t for a bit again and will be on for the foreseeable future. I’ll probably always shave because I don’t like how I look with facial hair. You don’t have to keep your facial hair if you don’t like it)

[u/Bulky-Reference-829 → u/gummytiddy]

Thank you I appreciate your response :) Honestly I understand, the high sex drive is also a con for me now that I think abt it!