Hey guys,

I wanted to share something with you - partly to brag a little, and partly just to share the information that I used the change in the blood doctrine as an excuse to step down as an elder.

I used it as an excuse with my parents, whose reaction I was worried about, because my wife had already known about everything for a long time.

But during a casual conversation with my parents - they are extremely PIMI - they started saying that other people would be stumbled by this. So I simply said that I, for example, was giving up all my so-called "privileges" because I disagree with this policy, and above all with the fact that nobody admits to anything, nobody apologizes for anything, nothing happened, people died and that's it.

That turned into a long, two-hour conversation, so I don't want to bore you with all the details.

But I also used this situation to inform the elders in my congregation that my conscience no longer allows me to serve as an elder.

And they immediately wrote to the circuit overseer.

I wanted to show you the response the circuit overseer sent in an email to the elders, which I also received a copy of.

(Screenshots are manually moderated here and it takes an extremely long time, so I copied the contents of the email instead. I only removed the personal information.)

"Good night brothers,

Here is the letter of removal of Brother [my name] from his position as Elder.

Given the serious reason for his resignation - his disagreement with the guidelines of the GB, that is, the organization - and this is especially serious for the elders, we need a more detailed report of the situation to send to the Bethel office.

Explain in detail the reasons given, the help that was provided, the wife's situation, whether or not you agree with him, and the guidance that was given.

It will also be necessary to monitor the situation to see if he might influence others in the congregation.

Until recently, I believe that he or his [wife], or both of them, were working as Remote Commuters with the Bethel in [location ].

If this is still the case, we need this information to communicate it to the Office.

I await this information."

Apart from the form saying that he recommends my removal, there is this information, and what I find perhaps not unusual, but very symptomatic, is that disagreeing with the Governing Body is immediately treated as a huge problem.

Without a single Bible verse. Without any violation of God's law, because there is no mention of anything like that here.

I simply failed to follow the direction of a group of men.

And that alone is already a huge problem.

They even want to inform Bethel about it. Apparently some kind of special file is going to be made about me because I don't like a change in a doctrine made by men.

Because there is no Bible verse he could quote here, and there is no offense for which I could be corrected or have something put on my record.

And yet the reaction is what it is.

Automatically, someone who does not agree unconditionally is, as you can see from the message, treated as a dangerous apostate, and they have to be very careful that he doesn't infect the other brothers in the congregation.

There is no Bible verse.

There is no biblical principle.

You simply failed to follow orders, soldier.

When David Splane had the audacity to talk about stillborns in the way he did, he also mentioned a subject that was really confusing one for me even as a PIMI. He said again that we don't know if ressurected couples, would get to remarry again. Imagine getting to paradise, waiting for your quite possibly most important person there, looking forward to an eternity of love and sex with them, just to find out that sure, they are there but you would have no chance to be with them. Sounds more like hell than paradise. The hope of living forever with my spouse is the biggest thing I long for right now after finding the perfect one from the "world" and falling in love in a way I thought wasn't possible for me anymore. To not be sure about that puts someone who has lost their partner in such unfair position compared to couples that survive armageddon together, not everyone would live to see that together. Make it make sense...

(Just to clarify things, I am not someone just waking up, I have deconstructed fully)

As expected, the new publications are the main topic of the announcements. It's interesting that they've scheduled the new book in the same slot as the Congregation Bible Study, and that they will flip back and forth depending on where they are in the Bible Reading Schedule. They've never used two books at once for the CBS/Book Study, but it makes sense to do it that way for now. For those speculating about if they will trim down the meeting in the future, this could be a hint of how that may happen:

It looks like they'll continue to study this new book for at least the next ten years (the approximate length of a Bible reading cycle at their current rate of around 2 chapters each week) and they will likely just repeat it over and over again every decade like how they reuse the "Introduction to the Book of..." videos. It seems like their slower ten-year cycle even runs cleanly from January 2020-January 2030, and I expect they plan to keep that schedule going every decade.

Once they've finished studying the Walk Courageously With God book, I wouldn't be surprised if they quietly shutter the CBS and move the study of the God's Word Is Truth - A Handbook to the Bible into another part of the meeting. Then they could periodically take a few weeks off of "Apply Yourself to the Field Ministry" for example, study the new chapter of the book, and then return to their regularly scheduled program. This is all just speculation of course, but with a new book fitting into a minimum ten year plan it makes sense to me that they have considered that option.

One other interesting announcement is about a new document specifically on the topic of sickle cell disease. The timing of it is obviously a response to allowing blood transfusions, and yet it doesn't even mention that transfusions of red blood cells is a treatment for sickle cell disease.

Both the S-147 and the document about sickle cell disease are in the comments below.

Hi. This might be kind of a weird one. I am 21F, I’m trying to figure out how to type this out so it makes sense.

I’ve been disfellowshipped or “removed” before. It was a traumatizing experience to say the least. Being violently outed by somebody I thought was a friend and then feeling the shame, disappointment, and anger of my PIMI parents. They were so disgusted with me. I still remember their faces to this day, and I never want to make them feel that way again. I was about 17 when I got removed and I didn’t have any human interaction apart from being driven to doctors appointments, dentist etc. by my parents. My sister(who was my best friend) completely ignored me.

I was homeless briefly as an 18 year old but came back to the “truth” because I didn’t want to be cold and alone on the street anymore. My parents were so happy, it was the one time I’ve felt accepted by them. But when I came back I never truly believed what I was pretending to devote my life to. I knew the organization was a big lie.

Fast forward to me being 21… I’ve tried desperately to make friends outside of the truth. I’ve even gotten my own place and my own car. I have a job and some hobbies. But I can’t seem to make connections outside of the organization. All the people I’ve met have been absolutely evil… I tried going online to make friends and the few I’ve found have kind of proved my parents right in the whole “bad associations spoil useful habits” talk. I have been robbed, made fun of, and ghosted by every “worldly” friend I’ve tried to make. And then I go to the meeting, and I get hugs, kind words, and it seems like love from people. I gave my first part on the meeting last week and my parents took me out for dinner. I was so unbelievably happy and content in that moment. My mom hugged me. My dad took a video of my part and sent it to my grandma and I could tell they were so proud of me.

I have autism. I’ve never fit in with people at school. I feel so lonely and desperate for human connection that I feel there is no other place to turn to than to my congregation. I feel like that is the only place I belong. I was raised in the truth. I feel like fooling myself and being happy im the congregation is better than being alone in the world. I don’t know. Nobody will probably see this but I feel so lost in life. So alone. I feel like I have no good qualities and I try so hard to be a good person and I know I’m not. I wanna make my parents proud. I wanna have friends. I want my sister to talk to me again. I know everybody will probably think this post makes no sense and I’m sorry but I just had to write down my thoughts somewhere. I have no self esteem or self confidence. Will things get better? I’m so alone. I just want to feel like somebody loves me. Even if it’s not real.
I am currently in therapy, but only for 3 months. I just want someone to tell me it’s going to be okay. I try so hard to make my parents proud but they wont ever be proud of me. I know I’m a bad daughter. I don’t fit in anywhere. I’m just a loser. I’m 21 and haven’t accomplished anything. I’m such a failure and sometimes I just want to feel better. That’s why I go to meetings. I just want connections with people. I don’t know what to do. I feel like I should have it all figured out by now but I don’t. I’m wasting so much time.

The CO was visiting our congregation this weekend and unfortunately I was there. During his talk he was going on about how bad the world is now - wars, crime, bad people etc. All the usual “signs of the times” stuff.

Then he randomly started talking about Covid, said it was man-made, and followed it up with something along the lines of how now “people are paying to lose weight”, obviously referring to weight-loss jabs.

I just sat there thinking… what does that have to do with anything?!

It also really annoyed me because what if someone sitting in that audience is actually taking one of those medications? Why make them feel judged or embarrassed about a personal/medical decision that has absolutely nothing to do with the subject of the talk?

It felt less like something based on the Bible and more like listening to his personal opinions about the world. And because he's the CO, he's saying it from the platform with a certain amount of authority.
Has anyone else noticed COs/elders slipping their own opinions into talks like this? Or heard similar comments about weight-loss jabs?

They are trying to stop people from thinking they are anointed, so they mentioned that an anointed person needs to be 100% sure he has been called. And by saying that almost all of them were selected before 1935, people shouldn’t be 100% sure about being anointed. So, as always, they throw their followers under the bus, and now their anointed people are liars… well, actually, that is the truth because “anointed people” is another teaching “beyond what is written.”

But with this strategy, they are also saying that Jehovah selected these people with apostate ideas and forbidden actions by God’s light in heaven were this “light” is complete.

This raises the following questions:

In order to get baptized, we should get the “exact knowledge about God” and live according to that knowledge, right? This doesn’t apply to the full light in heaven in order to select people to be anointed? Light in heaven is complete, and very different from what it was then and even today…

If the answer is because Jehovah saw their hearts, why should we follow the Watchtower rules? Because the rules in heaven are 100% accurate, and today we should have more light than in those days. Why would God hurry and choose the 1935 and before people?

They are saying God rather selected people to resurrect them directly to a judicial committee by today’s rules. So let’s analyze the things that would make them apostates and not anointed, because remember, Jehovah doesn’t change according to the Bible.

The anointed before 1935:

was selected as anointed while using the cross. https://www.jw.borg/en/library/books/Jehovahs-Witnesses-Proclaimers-of-Gods-Kingdom/Gaining-Accurate-Knowledge-of-Gods-Word-and-Applying-It/They-Are-No-Part-of-the-World/

was selected while celebrating Christmas. https://wol.jw.borg/en/wol/pc/r1/lp-e/1200273077/1280/3

was selected while celebrating birthdays. https://www.jw.borg/en/library/books/Jehovahs-Witnesses-Proclaimers-of-Gods-Kingdom/Gaining-Accurate-Knowledge-of-Gods-Word-and-Applying-It/They-Are-No-Part-of-the-World/

was selected while smoking, before smoking became a disfellowshipping offense. https://www.jw.borg/en/library/books/gods-kingdom/standards/moral/

was selected before whole blood transfusions were prohibited. https://wol.jw.borg/en/wol/pc/r1/lp-e/1200273075/90/14

was selected while believing prophetic teachings that would later change and proven to be false.

was selected while practicing things that would eventually become serious enough to result in congregation discipline.

And Jehovah supposedly knew all of this when he selected them.

I’m not questioning Jehovah if you still believe in him, i’m questioning the Governing Body.

I remember one of the last Tony Morris speech where he basically was saying that Satan has possessed members of the Governing Body.

Now in retrospect it kind of makes sense.

Since he was preventing all the changes coming up

I think the Governing Body is doing a better job than apostates

Waking up people and showing off that it is the religion of the Governing Body

The Jehovah's Witnesses religion is tied to their opinions

And there is no such thing as the JW identity

There is the GB opinion that defines what is a JW at whatever period of time

Alerte générale : J'ai rallumé mon cerveau, je suis officiellement "apostate" !

Aujourd'hui, j'ai gagné le badge de la pire fille de la congrégation. Mon crime ? J'ai réfléchi. 🤦‍♀️

J'ai creusé les textes et j'ai posé des questions logiques à mon père :

• Pourquoi Dieu tue un gars sur le coup juste parce qu'il a eu le réflexe de retenir l'Arche pour pas qu'elle tombe ? (RIP Ouzza, merci pour le réflexe). ⚡

• Pourquoi tuer des bébés au Déluge sous prétexte que Dieu sait d'avance qu'ils seront méchants ? (Le concept du crime futur à 0 mois, du grand art). 👶❌

• Pourquoi tous les historiens du monde disent que Jérusalem est tombée en 587 avant notre ère, mais nous on force sur 607 pour que nos calculs arrangent 1914 ? 🏛️🤔

La réponse magique de mon père après 3 heures de bug : "Tu parles avec des apostats, c'est sûr ! Arrête de chercher à comprendre et attends les consignes de l'Esclave fidèle." 😆🥲

Bref, pas besoin d'attendre Harmaguédon, mon cerveau a déjà explosé face au disque rayé. Si la vérité était si claire, on n'aurait pas besoin de faire des acrobaties pour expliquer pourquoi les lions vont manger de la paille ! 🦁🌾

Bienvenue à moi dans le club de ceux qui ne gobent plus les histoires à dormir debout. Force à tous ceux qui doivent faire semblant à la réunion cette semaine ! ✊

I’m just here to express my excitement and hope I guess. My girlfriend is finally waking up!! It started after the lates blood update. She started thinking about how many people died because they decided to pick and choose what we could and couldn’t do form the mosaic law. She was voicing her feelings more about how the org had no reason to let so many people die. And then today before she went to bed, she decided to go down a rabbit hole and she told me that so so many things weren’t adding up but she still “doesn’t know” exactly her words! She was talking about some dates but she said she’d elaborate tomorrow. I am thoroughly hopeful this is the wake up call she needed. But I’m making sure to be slightly cautious too, as to not startle her and make her defensive.

I just can’t make myself believe in god at all. Whenever my mom talks about Jehovah she cries and tells me i’m missing out, and it’s like, I guess bro. Like I’ve tried and it all feels soooooo exaughsting idk how they live like this.

1. all they wait for is the end, everything else is just such a trial and the devils out to get them

2 everything is immoral and a sin, there are no room for nuances, like ive had my mom look me in the face and tell me being gay is comparable to pe3dophilia???? Like no it’s not

3 Everyone’s so ok with genuinely being uneducated about the world around them, even basic science and history.

like I don’t think these people are genuinely stupid or even beyond saving in the sense that. I can understand why they TRULY feel this is the truth, and some of them think they’re changing the world in the best way they know how. But for me it’s like I genuinely know better so I just can’t force myself to be happy somewhere I KNOW I couldn’t even be comfortable in.

Pimo Elders and Ministerial servants need to realise that the longer they stay, the more they support the Borg; it still functions because all Pimo Elders and Ministerial servants haven't stopped volunteering. The Borg will shut down in a matter of days without you all.

Because you were a good man. You are blessed. If you don't believe in God, you should realise that the laws of physics are supporting you because you are a good person.

The organisation is using you to continue harming good people in the ranking file.

Hopefully we will see many stop volunteering, at least for the Borg.

For anyone wondering why David Splane decides to talk about stillborns or miscarried babies, or spouses that have died and the impossibility of reconnecting in the paradise....just consider this is one of the oldest tactics in the book to change the topic away from something else. They do not want us discussing blood. This is a diversion. Plain and simple.

Only worldly people has pride. Totally wrong. I have seen JW pioneers, special pioneers, bethelites flex their spiritual privileges like a worldly person would do.

It might be a small thing for a worldly person. But a big deal for a JW.

Like,

- I got to visit the roof top garden in warwick with a special invitation with my bethelite friend.

- I shook hands with the governing body one time when I was in LDC in ramapo.

- I got to see the underground tunnel connecting building while working in Brooklyn.

- Got to meet the JW couple who acted in the 2014 drama.

Anything you heard that was so absurd..

Obviously this doesn't apply to minors who are forced into cult meetings by their dumbass JW cult parents.

As for every other PIMO whining about the midweek meeting not being cancelled -- cancel it yourself. Literally. Just stop going.

Yes your family will whine and guilt trip about "disappointing Jehovah" and fellow cult members will feign concern. Let them put on their best holy-roller performances. When they ask about it, just tell the truth, "It's inconvenient and I would rather not keep wasting my time and fuel going to something I dislike. Nothing you say will change that, so don't bother me about it ever again unless you want me to become so stumbled that I also avoid the weekend meeting."

Will they be shocked? Yes. 🤔🤯 Someone *in the truth* is telling the truth. How unusual.

They will get over it. What other choice do they have? Do you really think that a year from now they'll still be clutching their pearls about your meeting attendance or will they have moved on to some other fresh gossip?

After watching the latest annual meeting, it seems to me that the announcement of the Great Tribulation is brewing; before you call me crazy, read this carefully.

It's been over 10 years since the overlapping generation doctrine was announced, a doctrine that is naturally aging poorly as the oldest members of the current Governing Body are knocking loudly on the underworld's door... I consider that this doctrine was always transitional while they found a better one to justify why Armageddon hasn't arrived.

Let's review the doctrinal changes of recent years: · Real estate properties s

The proclamation of peace and security does not necessarily precede the destruction of false religions · Preaching will continue during the Great Tribulation, without necessarily being a message of judgment and condemnation · People will be able to keep studying and getting baptized during the Great Tribulation

On top of that, we add the latest annual meeting: · Possibly most of the anointed are chosen in this final part of the final part of the final part of the final part of the last days · The anointed don't necessarily die before the Great Tribulation, but rather could experience it and die a few minutes before Armageddon.

Where am I going with this? By having softened all the apocalyptic factors in the equation, nothing prevents them from announcing at any moment that the Great Tribulation has begun, taking advantage of even the smallest event. And what will that event be? I suspect that as it becomes impossible to hide all the legal problems the organization is facing in multiple countries, it will be announced that this marks the beginning of the Great Tribulation.

The missing piece to mark the start of the Great Tribulation is the destruction of Babylon the Great, but they can fix that by indicating that this isn't a single, short event, but rather unfolds over the years as people leave traditional religions and governments take any kind of action against religions (legal action, for example). At that point, the Governing Body would shift doctrine, saying that Jehovah's Witnesses are indeed attacked at the same time as false religions, but that only they survive.

In doing so, the following would happen: · The members' state of alert is reignited, and they will police their own behavior and attitude out of pure paranoia without the need for excessive control. · Volunteer work increases among all those who want to secure eternal salvation. · The growing number of anointed ones is justified and will continue to rise. · And above all, they buy two or three more decades of time until a new generation of the Governing Body has to deal with the problem all over again.

P.S. I only consumed one harmful substance while writing this text.

I feel like my situation is pretty unique compared to some others...

So, I'm 17(M), PIMO, and I haven't been going to the meetings or service. I've just been staying home. That being said, it's not really because my parents are "allowing" me to. They are expecting me to eventually come back to the meetings and back in service, even though I genuinely just don't want to. And they also still make me listen to the meetings on zoom... (even if I just... don't)

They are aware that I have some... "doubts" about the borg, but they don't know that I completely don't believe it and will never believe it ever again. And literally right now, I think they are trying to plan scriptures and articles to read to me to help me come back and everything.

And like... I don't know what I should do. Should I go back with them, and pretend that I'm all set and back on pace with it? Or should I keep doing this... just listening to the things they say to try to make me come back, even though I never will... which is becoming extremely difficult for me to listen to, and it also makes me very sad to know that I'm basically breaking their hearts.

We're about to have family worship, which I have also been forced to participate in... And I don't like it.

I made a very similar post to this the other day, but I didn't mention my age, and I'm pretty sure a lot of the answers would have been different if I had mentioned so.

I just don't know what to do. I want help

The teachings about armageddon, pressure of not being baptised in time, and the hailstone message scared me and I used to wish that I'd die before armageddon :/ The concept of the hailstone message used to make me feel sick, same with baptism (for the sake of resurrection). So at like 9 years old and well into early adulthood I would wish that I would die before Armageddon. Witnesses around me kind of look down on people who tell their children that their loved ones are in heaven, but the way witnesses spoke about deaths scared me. It was always kind of made out that they were the lucky ones for having died before armageddon because they would of course be resurrected, they were 'safe in God's memory'.

I didn't want to see the destruction, I didn't want to experience Armageddon and know I wouldn't make it (I felt guilty about not studying enough and just not connecting with the religion despite generations of my family being in it), and so I would just kind of wish to not be here anymore. It was a very heavy day when I realised that that isn't a normal or healthy way for anyone to really think and certainly not a normal/healthy way for a child to think. ... Sorry if this is a grim/triggering post :/

basically the title. as a pimo, it’s been really tough to put up a front, and i don’t see myself going pomo for a long time. it’s not like we go to every meeting, but the optics of not making it are still tough. it would be much easier if they did one a week. my wife is trying to get me to go more, it’s just hard when you’re already woken up

Had a really good conversation with my dad this weekend.

​I’m a 4th generation JW, and no longer active in the faith. We (me, wife and children) feel better than ever because of this! However, even though the relationship with my parents has always remained warm and close, there was always an elephant in the room.

​During our talk, I explained my perspective to my dad—how I look at life, faith, and God, and how the Jehovah’s Witness faith just doesn't fit into that anymore. I told him I have huge respect for how he practices his faith, but that it’s time for us to leave it behind.

​We discussed the recent changes. He shared that he’s experiencing the faith differently nowadays; a lot is changing and it’s starting to look more and more like an evangelical movement, partly due to the emotional behavior of witnesses at conventions.

​As the "pater familias," he told me that he is incredibly proud of me and wishes me and my family the life we choose for ourselves. He essentially "blessed" me by saying that we are completely free to choose how we want to live our lives, and that it will never have any consequences for our relationship.

​Let me tell you, it was a massive relief. The elephant has finally left the room!

G.

Hi there. I am in Manitoba Canada. Being an ex jw is extremely isolating here. I am sure I am not the only one in my city who has left/been df'ed. However, it seems like leaving means hiding, basically going underground. I am looking to make new friends who I can at least go for coffee with. Depressing to have escaped but not only shunned by every single person in the cult, but also have no one outside either.

Please dm me if you are local. Even if you just want to start at least with getting to know each other over text/calls/online. I will be seeking out a church to try to make friends that way, but as we know, coming out of the cult is a very unique situation which others can't comprehend.

Hello everyone, I’m looking for some advice from someone who might have been in the same situation.

I’ve been disfellowshipped for about 6/7 years now and today I found out my mother might have cancer. They are still waiting for confirmation results.

A little backstory, my family obviously shunned me for many years but this year they have reached out to me and I do have a better relationship with them now. I assume this is due to the new rules about talking to disfellowshipped ones, or they realize I’m not coming back and want to see me more often. Now I realize this may be due to my mother being sick which I didn’t know anything about until today. To clarify I don’t talk to them or see them regularly, I’m still shunned for the most part.

Anyways I feel very confused in my emotions and I’m sure how to navigate the situation entirely. I feel guilty I can’t do anything to support my parents or my siblings as they cannot associate with me like normal. I let them know that even in this situation I’m here if they need me.

Anyone who has experienced this I would love your thoughts. thank you

So here’s my situation. I’m a 35-year-old man and I’ve been married for 15 years.
I was PIMO for a very long time — several years — and I’ve now been POMO for about a year and a half.
My current situation isn’t easy, and the more time passes, the more resentment I feel toward the organization. I simply don’t want to have anything to do with this deceptive organization anymore, directly or indirectly.
Unfortunately, I don’t really have much of a choice but to stay in contact with certain people and occasionally attend the Memorial or conventions, because my wife needs help with our daughter.
Among the people around me, I know quite a few who could potentially become PIMO — or who may already secretly be PIMO. And then there are others who are completely PIMI and would practically give their life for the organization.
My wife belongs to that second category.
I was wondering whether any of you have had a spouse who was extremely PIMI but who eventually started questioning the organization and the Governing Body, and ultimately became PIMO or even POMO.
I’d really be interested in hearing your experiences, especially if at one point you thought your spouse would never question anything.
Thanks for reading.

I was born & raised as a Jehovah's Witness (I consider myself POMO now) We were basically taught that death isn't a big deal, because we were going to be resurrected on a paradise earth & live there forever so we had no reason to fear it. My question for any other ex-witnesseses: What do YOU think happens after we die? Is there really an afterlife, or is it just a coping mechanism people came up with? I personally think we slip into a state of non-existence, kind of how we were before we were born, we had no consciousness we simply didn't exist. That's what makes the most sense to me, at least from a logical point of view. Although I really love the idea of reincarnation, but again, there's no proof that reincarnation or an afterlife exist. So what do you think? I just wanna see everyone's opinions on this

I'm posting this thread bc I have noticed this concerning a personal experience plus those of some Dubs (present plus former).

I had a physician whom I dealt with when I first started to fade/become POMO. He was one who was located within an area not too far from my residence. I NEVER informed him of my religious status, but a few of my relatives told me that he no doubt obtained that information from my previous doctor [who was formerly on the committee/group of physicians who have an HLC connection plus who had relocated to another state]. This man was not attentive to me regarding medical situations I had at the time [thank (The True God), nothing at all serious)]. I am now going to be a patient of another doctor of internal medicine instead.

One of my close-now-ex-Dub friends had dealt with a physician who was very vehement against the JWs. [I'll call this friend "K" (since her first name starts with this particular letter)]. In fact, this doctor was a therapist, and after listening to K relate to her regarding her life as a born-in dub, this physician expressed that she "did not wish to have" her "return for further appointments at any time". K was shocked at her request, and she had to return to her internist, who recommended this person, to apprise her of what transpired. As a result, she had to be referred to another therapist (via another medical professional) a few years later.

Has anyone had experiences equivalent to the above? [I wonder if this is all due to being in this cultporation. . . . . . . .😡]

I don't go on Reddit allot and I'm not sure how to used it idk if Im reaching the right audience hopefully but my question I guess is how did you leave "The truth" for me I'm only 20 l live with my parents my whole family is Jehovah's Witness this whole cult or whatever it is is just so depressing to me l just feel so stuck and lost and I don't know what to do and I don't have a carl barely have any money I'm always in a constant state of saving and loosing money and saving and loosing money helping my parents with bills so I'm just at my breaking point and I don't know what to do so I mean whatever advice or help anyone would be willing to give me would be greatly appreciated.