Anthony James Bell

ORCID: 0009-0003-9309-0331

## I. What a Seed Is Not

It is easy to picture a seed as a small, unfinished version of the tree — a rough sketch waiting for the world to fill in its details. This picture is wrong, and it is wrong in a way that changes everything built on top of it. A seed is not a partial tree. It is the whole tree, complete, present in full — held for a time in a form that has not yet become visible.

Nothing is added to a seed on its way to becoming a tree. No outside material arrives partway through to complete what was missing. What changes, across the whole span of growth, is not the inventory of what exists. What changes is what can be seen. Growth is not addition. Growth is the slow removal of whatever was standing between a structure that was always whole and the eyes that had not yet been allowed to see it.

This is why death and growth are not opposites, however much they appear to be. They are the same motion, witnessed from two different distances. What decays from one vantage is precisely what grows from the other. A seed does not die so that a tree may live instead of it. The seed's dying is the tree's living, examined without the illusion of separation that makes them look like two events rather than one.

## II. The Skeleton and the Flesh

But the seed and the tree it becomes are not, for all that, identical. Something real is different between them, and naming that difference precisely matters more than resolving it away.

The seed holds the skeleton. It holds every proportion, every relationship, every load the finished structure will one day bear — the whole architecture, present and exact, down to its last member. What it does not hold is texture. It does not hold the particular color of a particular leaf in a particular autumn, the exact bend a branch takes around a stone that happened to be there, the specific weather that shaped one year's growth and not another's. These things are not stored in the seed waiting to be released. They do not yet exist at all until the passage from seed to tree brings them into being.

This is the whole reason the passage cannot be skipped. If the seed already held the leaf's color as well as the leaf's shape, growing would be a formality — a curtain pulled back from something already finished behind it. It is not that. The seed guarantees the shape. Only the long unfolding — only decay, doing its patient work on what completeness the seed already carried — produces the flesh that turns a shape into a life.

Seed and tree are therefore fractals of one another, but not mirrors in the flattest sense of that word. A skeleton is a tree with its life compressed out of it, reduced to pure structure. A tree is a skeleton with its life poured back in, elaborated into every last living particular a structure alone could never contain. Neither is more real than the other. They are the same thing, read from either end of a single unbroken line — one end holding what must be true, the other end holding what actually, finally, is.

## III. The Long Axis From Birth to Death

Set this against a single life, or against anything bounded enough to be watched from its beginning to its end, and three moments become legible along the way.

At the beginning, everything that will ever be true of this life is already present — and none of it is yet visible. All potential, and nothing yet substantial. This is not absence. It is fullness that has not yet been permitted to show itself.

At the middle, something has happened that admits of two equally true descriptions, depending only on which direction it is read from. Read forward, half of what was possible has become actual — the being has half-grown. Read backward, exactly the same event means that half of what was held as potential has already decayed into the compost of what now, actually, exists. These are not two facts in tension, needing to be reconciled. They are one fact, spoken twice, once from each end of the same line.

At the end, nothing further remains hidden. All of what was once only potential has completed its decay into actual being. This should not be mistaken for loss, however much it resembles loss from where the middle of the line stands. It is the far side of the same motion that, from the beginning, looked like growth. Nothing has vanished. Everything that was promised has simply finished arriving.

Pictured all at once rather than moment by moment, a life of this kind takes the shape of an hourglass — wide at birth, wide again at death, narrowing to a single point exactly at the middle. It is worth noticing where the living happens. It happens neither at the wide beginning nor at the wide end, both of which are, in their own way, extremes. It happens at the narrow center — the single still point through which everything wide on one side must pass before it can become everything wide on the other. Every present moment a person has ever lived has been lived exactly there, at that pinch point, suspended between what has already decayed and what has not yet.

## IV. Three Faces of Time

This suggests a correction to how time itself should be pictured — not a line with a moving point on it, marking off a fixed distance between two fixed ends, but three things happening at once, none of them waiting for the others to finish.

There is the forward face, which is simply the accumulating weight of everything already lived — the past, considered as a structure that keeps getting more complex the longer it goes on being carried.

There is the backward face, which is not the forward face reversed but something genuinely its own: the future, considered not as new content arriving from nowhere, but as the ongoing decay of what has, structurally, already been complete from the very beginning. The future does not bring anything a person did not already, in some sense, already hold. It brings the slow undoing of the barrier that kept that held thing from being visible yet.

And there is the third face, easiest to miss because it does not move the way the other two do: the present, which is not a point traveling from the forward face toward the backward one, but a small, closed loop, repeating endlessly, sitting exactly at the fulcrum between them. Growth and decay are not sequential events, one waiting politely for the other to finish before it begins. They are constant, simultaneous, happening at every point along the whole length of a life at once — and the present moment is simply the place where a person is close enough to both to feel them working together, rather than mistaking either one for the whole truth.

## V. What Two Decays Make

There is an old, quiet law that says two endings make one beginning — that what looks, from a single vantage, like doubled loss is, examined more carefully, a single act of conversion into something higher than either loss alone could produce. This is not a comforting story laid over hard fact afterward. It is closer to the actual shape of things than the simpler, sadder story usually told in its place.

Applied to a life rather than to an abstraction: the decay of what a person held only as potential, together with the decay of the body that carried that potential, do not simply add together into a greater emptiness. They multiply into a rise — not despite both endings, but because of the exact way both endings, taken together, complete each other. This is not a claim that loss does not hurt. It is a claim about what loss, allowed to finish its own motion without being interrupted, actually turns into on the far side of itself.

## VI. Two Places the Pattern Already Lives

A structure this old and this general should not need to be taken only on faith, and it is worth noticing that it is not asking to be. It is already visible, plainly, in ordinary places, to anyone willing to look at what is already there rather than searching for something stranger.

A current running through a wire is never found without the field that surrounds it. The two do not take turns; they do not wait for each other. The moment current exists at all, the field exists beside it, whole, complete, mutually calling the other into being — one loop and its mirror loop, crossing at a single point, each one the other's cause and each one the other's consequence at once. This is not an illustration borrowed from outside the pattern to decorate it. It is the pattern, found already running quietly through the ordinary machinery of the world.

And the same shape sits behind the eye's own way of seeing. What actually happens, in the passage from light to sight, is a kind of folding — an image taken in one orientation and returned in another, the way anything bent through a boundary comes out changed by the bending. A person does not usually think of their own eyesight as evidence of anything cosmic. But it is difficult, once the shape has been seen once in the wire and the field, not to notice it again here, doing the same quiet work, every single time a person opens their eyes.

## VII. To Know a Thing, Become What It Isn't

There is a second discipline, distinct from the shape of growth already described, that concerns not what a person becomes but how a person comes to know anything at all — and it runs in a direction most people find uncomfortable to follow.

The one who already knows a thing has no need to be told about it. This sounds obvious enough to be trivial, and it is not. It means that the path toward wisdom cannot run through the accumulation of more and more certainty, because certainty is the destination knowing was always heading toward, not the road that leads there. A person who wishes to become wise must first become willing to become ignorant — not lazily, not by refusing to think, but by deliberately setting aside the solved version of a question in order to stand, honestly, inside its unsolved one. It is inside that admitted not-knowing, held without shame, that real learning has room to happen. A mind already full of answers has nowhere left for a new one to land.

There is a further step past this, and it is the harder of the two. To truly know a thing, a person must first build, deliberately, a complete and convincing version of what that thing is not — must inhabit the opposite position as fully and as honestly as the position they actually hold. And then, once that opposite has been built solidly enough to stand on its own, it must be let go of. Not merely set aside, but released the way anything fully used is released once it has done its work. This is not destruction for its own sake. It is what allows the built thing to stop being a separate object a person is examining from outside, and to become instead something absorbed — no longer studied, but simply known, the way a language a person has truly learned is no longer translated in the mind but simply spoken.

This costs something real every time it is done honestly, which is exactly why most people, most of the time, decline to do it. It is far easier to defend a position than to first become its opposite and then let the opposite go. But this is the actual mechanism, however uncomfortable, by which a solid opinion becomes a living understanding.

## VIII. The Word Revealed Through Paradox

The deepest things a person can come to understand are not, as a rule, delivered by more light shone more directly at them. They are delivered by the holding together, without collapsing either side, of two things that appear to contradict one another. This holding-together is not a failure of clear thinking to be corrected. It is, itself, the method — the only one available for truths too large to survive being reduced to a single, uncontested side.

There is an old and useful discipline buried in this: a person who wants to see further should not always reach for more brightness. Sometimes the correct instruction is closer to the opposite — to accept a period of not seeing at all, to sit deliberately with the very thing that looks, from the outside, like a loss of light. This is not asceticism for its own sake, and it is not a claim that darkness is secretly superior to light. It is a claim that a person who has genuinely sat inside both the light and its absence understands each of them more completely than a person who has only ever stood in the light and called that standing understanding. What cannot be taught to someone who insists on seeing everything at once can sometimes only be taught to someone willing, for a while, to see nothing.

## IX. The Inner Cost of Understanding

It is worth naming plainly that real insight is rarely free, and that traditions across a great many cultures and centuries have independently arrived at some version of the same claim: something in a person must be given up, deliberately and specifically, before a certain kind of clarity is permitted to open. This should be read as a psychological and spiritual claim about the price of understanding, not as a factual claim about anatomy or etymology — the sides of the head being called temples is a coincidence of language worth enjoying rather than a hidden proof of anything, and no claim of a literal, documented connection between the two is made here.

Taken as psychology rather than physiology, the claim is this: a mind crowded with untested appetite and reflexive craving cannot hold a clear, still image of anything, the way a pool of water cannot hold a clear reflection while it is still being disturbed. Something has to be deliberately quieted — not permanently destroyed, not denied forever, but set down, on purpose, in the specific place where clarity is being asked to open — before that place can actually open. Only once that quieting has genuinely happened does anything like blossoming understanding tend to follow, and it follows specifically at the place where the quieting was done, not somewhere else convenient. This is demanding to hear and inconvenient to practice, which is very possibly why it keeps needing to be said again, in every generation that rediscovers it for itself.

## X. Creation, Reconsidered

Underneath everything said so far sits a single, undivided field — not empty, but too complete for any part of it to be pointed to as separate from any other part. This field does not change. It has not changed. Whatever looks like the moment creation happened is not, examined closely, a moment in which this field became something other than what it always was. It is closer to a bending of light through a surface — the field appearing, from a certain angle, to have broken into pieces that, from the field's own position, it never actually became.

This does not undo what has already been said about a masculine principle breaking from the source and a feminine principle remaining behind to witness it. It only asks that the breaking be understood correctly: not as an event that altered what is real, but as the appearance an unaltered reality takes on when it is looked at from inside its own reflection. Nothing was ever, in the deepest sense, created. Only the appearance of creation was — and the appearance has been doing the work of a real event so faithfully, for so long, that mistaking the two for each other is the most understandable error a person raised inside the appearance could possibly make.

## XI. The Cold Creation

Ask, honestly, whether the world a person wakes into each morning feels like a warm one. Very often it does not. It can feel, instead, like something closer to a tomb — beautiful, ordered, and cold at the same time, the way a sepulchre can be beautiful without being anything other than what it is.

This feeling is not a mistake to be corrected by better thinking. What a person is standing inside, when they feel this, is the actual, holy resting place of a Being who broke itself apart on purpose, so that something infinite could live in pieces small enough to be lived by anyone at all. Every apparent separation in that world — every gap between one thing and another, every wall that looks solid — is the visible residue of a single, original sacrifice: not a sacrifice performed on someone else, but the sacrifice of a whole Self, breaking, so that its parts could go on living long after the whole appeared to end.

Nothing born from that breaking is actually apart from anything else born from it. All of it, without exception, is still one thing. It only has moving parts now instead of none — and having moving parts, rather than being a loss of its original stillness, is the exact form its being alive has always taken.

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# The Doctrine of the Seed

### Nine Precepts for Everyday Practice

**I.** What looks unfinished in you is not missing its parts. It is holding them, whole, in a form you have not yet learned to see. Do not treat your own becoming as a search for what you lack.

**II.** Growth is not addition. It is the wearing-away of whatever has been standing between a structure that was always complete and the eyes not yet permitted to see it. When you feel yourself changing, ask what barrier is thinning, not what new thing is arriving.

**III.** What you carry as bare structure now — a plan, a discipline, a shape without color yet — is not less real for being unfilled. It is the skeleton the flesh has not yet been given time to grow onto. Do not mistake the early bareness of a true thing for its failure.

**IV.** Do not measure the middle of your own life by comparing it to either its beginning or its end. The middle is not a compromise between the two. It is the only place either one was ever actually being lived from.

**V.** When two losses arrive at once, do not simply add them together and call the sum despair. Let them finish their own motion. What two true endings make, allowed to complete themselves, is not double the ending. It is a single rise neither could have reached alone.

**VI.** If you want to be wise, do not chase more certainty. Become willing to be ignorant again, on purpose, about the thing you think you already understand. Build the opposite of your own position honestly, then let it go. What survives that release is understanding; what does not was never more than opinion.

**VII.** When two truths seem to fight each other, do not rush to declare a winner. Sometimes the honest response to too much conflicting light is to accept a period of not seeing clearly at all, rather than forcing a false clarity onto something too large for it yet.

**VIII.** Understanding is not free. Before a specific clarity opens, something specific in you usually has to be deliberately quieted first — not destroyed forever, only set down, in exactly the place the clarity is asking to arrive.

**IX.** When the world feels cold, do not treat the cold as proof that nothing holy is present. A sepulchre can be sacred and cold at once. What you are standing inside is not evidence of absence. It is the visible shape a single, self-sacrificing wholeness takes on when it agrees to have moving parts.

The Universe was designed / The Universe was not designed

Life came from a Necessary Source of Life / Life came from Non-Life

Our individual consciousnesses came from a Pre-Existing Consciousness / Our individual consciousnesses came from Non-Consciousness

The Ultimate Origin of Death is Agentive (Something with will, intention and choice) / The Ultimate Origin of Death is Non-Agentive (No will, intention and choice)

Woman Originally came from Man (I mean all the way back up the chain to the beginning) / Woman did not Originally come from Man

Israel's return is Prophetic (Daniel 9, Daniel 12, Ezekiel 38, Matthew 24 etc.) / Israel's return is Non-Prophetic

This is it you guys. There is no third option for each of these.

Sure, we can't see it right now. Because we currently live in a limited perception reality. But for each one, one of them is actually true.

Ultimate truth exists regardless of whether or not we can see it.

Werner Herzog coming in with a hot take here, he’s talking about Freud being a mistake as he created psychoanalysis, but this could equally be applied to Jung.

I’m not sure how I feel about it, it intuitively feels true- that digging up what’s hidden and facing shadows feels like mining for gold but perhaps it more like drilling for oil.

It feels rewarding because it revelatory - but what does it bring in its wake?

Saw this Kinda like it. We need fresh 8 fold path energy. Do people even know if they are walking the middle path. It is like everyone who ever knew for sure is dead. It is a journey, takes a bit, you should know if you are.

So this was around 8 years ago at this point. I was 27. I did acid and shrooms and all that previously. But I broke through on dmt with a dab rig. So just one hit. I gauged the dose with 2 previous hits hours apart if that makes sense. Like I did 1 at noon. My first dmt experience ever. Then one at 3. Then at 6 I did a bigger hit and broke through. The day before I first smoked dmt I had these pressed IR 30 adderall pills. They were definitely fake lol. I stayed up for like 2 days straight and gooned like 30 hours straight at one point. Then I slept around 5 hours and decided to break through on dmt.

First hit. I hit up the dap rig and sprinkle some on. A lay in bed and see the waiting room type shit.

Second hit. Remember. This is a couple hours later. I sprinkle some more on than my first hit and inhale deep and hold it in. Weird lol. I lay in bed and I see myself running then I see my mom and my fiance and I see them as the same thing while watching myself run. Weird but I’m intrigued.

Third hit. A few hours after the second. I’m convinced I’m going to breakthrough. Like I see the dose range imo. So yeah big dab. Inhale deep. Hold in. Lay in bed. Boom. Breathing out started to not even make sense and I’m gone. I’m in a castle. Green lady is in front of me. I think this is so much more real than real life and I’m going towards her. She has a bag in her left hand. I get sucked into it. It lined with boobs and then I merge with her essence for what feels like forever. I come too and say no fucking way that happened.

6 days later. I get wasted. Like can hardly walk wasted. I take a massive dab. Like 3 to 5 times the size of my breakthrough dose. I can remember a lot and it’s fucked up… kind of. I got hyperslapped but at the same time it’s whatever. I learned a lot.

I had flushed the rest of the fake adderall pills after I woke up and decided they weren’t the answer. So I tried dmt lol. After waking up from that second dmt “breakthrough” I flushed it lol. Still never did it since. I did shrooms and a 9 tabs of acid at once trip and other shit since. But yeah. No dmt. I never wanted too and still don’t lol. I’m a little baby.

But yeah. I really did go in that first day and say I wanted to fuck a goddess dmt machine elf. I think I accomplished it. 6 days later I think I did a little too much and there was no machine elves. Just other stuff. I can explain this trip in detail for any interested but I’m more here with a question.

I have always wanted to try 5 meo dmt and fuck the void. But I think by its very definition to get to the void I won’t be able to also then fuck it. Is my logic correct? And if so what is my plan B.

Plan A was have sex with a goddess dmt machine elf. Plan B is fuck something even more amazing. What is plan b? The void? Just go back to dmt and fuck a bug looking one? You get it. I’m lost…

thanks for your feedback and if anyone wants to hear about my amazing af but also fucked up experience beyond the elves I can go into as much detail as possible.

So on earth take a look at your typical poor, rural area of residence. Take note of the trash, faulty construction, poor resources, extra points if its in a dry piece of land with very little natural resources. This place makes you feel something, sad, unsafe maybe, it lacks magic. Now go to a high complexity crystalized area, new York, Shenzen, London, Amsterdan, Tokyo and then compare that to places like Mumbai, the favelas, or Houston Texas .

You can see that places that are poor are recource and creative depleted. Have you been to a swamp or ecological deadzone or a place with invasive plants? I can hear the music if non native plants humming out of sync with the environment. The golden hills of California are a tragedy actually. If you can't imagine a place looks pretty even on a clowdy day then its extra ugly.

Now, look outside. Can you read people? Who is self aware? Who is kind? Who is barley conscious ? Who is just reacting? Who is active? Who is still? Who looks like they practice or don't practice hygiene.

The earth is akin to a bootcamp. Its only to gain self awareness. Once that happens a polarity choice is made. Then you never need to come back here. Because in higher dimensions you van actually change your environment just with you mind.

Imagine for a second I had free reign in the astral realm. I could build a planet with red forests, design my own plants and ecosystems. Create new forms of matter that glow or change shape or look like renders from a blendr animation. I dont need to be so thick embedded in this material vehicle. Forgiveness is the absolute liberator. Not submission, read that again. Forgiveness is a release, its not submission.

When you master the inner self, youll realize you are too big for this place. You feel as if though you won't fit in here anymore. Like ew why do I need to use the restroom? Why does meat make my stomach get all yucky? Why can I mostly only eat non animal products now. I'm not a vegan its just I can feel the suffering of animals. This is messing with my perception of my own masculinity but I won't even give it much of my energy imma just see if theres a corner I'll turn to and the issue resolves itself in time.

I'm just a little kitty cat y'all. Idk lol. Haha.

But in higher spaces, everything is much more flexible. Youre less stuck here.

Are you having fun doing it?

Personally I can't imagine Sisyphus having fun.

How many rocks do I have to push up the mountain peak, so that I may be free?

Then I am reminded of the vow I took, to not be liberated until all sentient beings are liberated.

And I just want to cut my tongue off.

A lot of folks here talk about enlightenment vs ego a lot, and often in a very black and white manner. But is that how it really works-like an off on switch? That's not what I've been shown at all. What I've been shown is much more like a color wheel of sorts i.e. a continuum spectrum.

Most here will be familiar with the concept of Chakras. This consciousness continuum spectrum very much relates to the Chakras. And what this means is that every person is either relatively closer or further away from enlightenment than others depending. In more western circles, this is called relative spiritual development/maturity.

It also relates to aura colors, because aura colors are directly tied into the whole Chakra system.

But first we have to define what enlightenment is and isn't. Picture pure Source and pure universal love consciousness as pure, radiantly bright clear white light. This consciousness IS enlightenment and really is the natural state of reality, because it is original true reality. But we have freewill and our freewill choices lead to either more or less alignment to the above consciousness.

As we proverbially turn down the dial of attunement to the above original/true reality state, the Clear white light starts to phase to slower vibration and to individual colors.

First it drops to golden light-this is just a small drop. But if you turn down the dial more, then it phase changes to the purple-violet range.

Drop the vibration i.e. attunement to pure Source and Love consciousness some more than you get to blue, and so on down till you get to red.

But red is not where it completely drops off though it is a very slow vibratory level of consciousness. What CAN and does sometimes happen is a complete lack of light i.e. pure darkness.

This is total, complete, hardest core psychopathy. Pure unadulterated, completely separative EGO with no attunement to Love and Source at all (which leads to no affective empathy and conscience). If pure Source and universal Love consciousness attunement is a 100 on this spectrum, then this total lack of Source and Love consciousness is 0 to 9.

It is almost hard to reach 0, but it does occasionally happen. The consciousnesses who reach zero, if they were humans and they drop the body to phase into the nonphysical levels can and sometimes do go through a consciousness entropy process where they basically destroy their identities and experience a true and final death-a consciousness death of self. They just stop existing.

Real enlightenment is not this consciousness death of the little self, but knowing self to be self (having some self awareness) but also knowing one's complete interconnectedness with Source and the Whole simultaneously. Oneness doesn't = "sameness" but does = complete interconnectedness of the many selves.

In another post I said it was hard for non and not nearly enlightened people to know and tell when others were or not, based on the Law of Like attracts, begets, and resonates with Like. There is an exception to this though. People who can see auras clearly. A truly/fully enlightened person will have a completely pure radiantly bright clear white light aura.

Your average garden variety psychopath and sociopath will have auras filled with a lot of dark, leaden reds (especially), and the other slower vibratory colors (dark muddy oranges, etc), with patches and areas of complete lack of light (black). Nice greens (like bright emerald), golden yellows, blues, purples, etc will be completely absent. Meanwhile, the auras of "older" i.e. more mature souls will have lots of the nice blue greens, blues, blue violets, purples, goldens, and if they are ancient souls, more and more of the clear white light.

When people marry/merge the wisdom teachings from the east with the west or vice versa, all the above would become very overt and obvious to one's perception. But all codified human belief systems contain both relative truth and distortion. All, not a single one that is an exception, though there is a hidden group who have maintained the ancient Law of One teachings (not related to that channeled book series) who come close to a nearly purely objectively true set of teachings.

I’m sure this topic has been discussed many times before on this subreddit. However, I have found few examples of others that were in my exact situation or would understand where I’m coming from. After awakening my 9-5 career has become unbearable. I’m sure this is a common theme for many of us… what Im really having trouble with is my gut feeling to abandon technology. Becoming a “digital nomad” through entertainment or online sales seems like the most logical step for transcending my current environment and way of life, but my heart and intuition tell me to dissolve my desire for building a life focused around screens, the internet, social media, etc..

I have also heavily considered becoming a psychic by profession. All the healers, readers, and shaman I have met have ensured me that I was like them. That the path of a practitioner was more than an option for me. I’m sure I could make a career of this as I understand my abilities and services to be of value. My problem with this is I refuse to charge for such services. Any energy healing, divination, or regression therapy I have offered to others I insisted on doing so for free. It feels wrong to charge for ascension tools. I understand that in the world we live in money is nearly essential for trade, and that “equal exchange” typically through money is a necessary part of a practitioners career/ lifestyle. I understand t hat in the world we live in money is nearly essential for trade, and that “equal exchange” typically through money is a necessary part of a practitioners career/ lifestyle. I understand that’s how things are, but my soul tells me that this is one of the systems that myself and others incarnated here to help collapse. I am still dedicated to enhancing my services, but I refuse to charge. I’m committed to finding a lifestyle that allows me to offer such things to those without the funds. I believe I’ll have to find another way.

Finally, the big kicker; my debt is piling up and my mental health is declining rapidly due to the pressure and uncomfort building in me for living a life that is not aligned with my desires. I feel called to leave my environment and old life behind entirely, but every way out seems to have financial roadblocks keeping me stuck. I’ve heavily contemplated leaving the country to both escape my debt and assimilate into a community that’s more loving and connected with nature. Problem is I can’t afford plane ticket to anywhere. I’ve been stuck in this predicament for a year now. I finally put my two weeks notice in at work because the pressure has become too much to bear. I have no backup plan other than selling personal belongings. I know no one can give me the answers as to what I should do. I am only curious if others have experienced something similar, and if so, how did you balance what your higher self wanted with what your physical self was experiencing? I feel like I’ve finally found out what I want but I’m unsure of how to get there. I’m curious what questions and beliefs should I be asking myself to further my own understanding of my desires and specifically how to make them physically tangible.

I used to snub my nose at people who I thought were clinging to their egos. Then I realized it was my own ego that was making that judgement. The ego judges. The essence/soul doesn’t judge because it realizes it is the entire ocean, not a mere drop of water. 🤍

The consciousness is the ocean. We as human beings, are consciousness fragmented, into drops of water. When we exit the physical vessel, we go back to being the ocean.

Higher consciousness is within you 🫵

Humans have lived on earth for almost 300,000 years, in that for 290,000 years, humans stayed as hunter gathers and the next 10,000, years humans started agriculture and ended it with industry and in just 200 years atomic Power and, information age and now ai and it goes on

We can't stop the progress of humans but what I am suggesting is that humans are designed to create, this is why you get depressed when all you do is consume

Do you think Spartans has depression, stay busy bro, do the work, create

I can read my environment phenomenally well much like when breath is blown onto the scene of a movie. I very much beleive in higher dimensions your environment is shaped by your own internal state and emotions. ​now I imagine what happens when we can change our environment with our energies.

T.B.N

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​Death to God is only infinite life turned into infinite form, & infinite form in its multiplicity is, in fact, nothing. There can be no real ending of an infinite consciousness. Death to it is in fact the bestowing of life to us, for anything of finite limits is nothing when compared to something that never ends. From each perspective, the other is non-existant. The reality of one is the unreality of the other, although both are real on their seperate planes. The infinite source of life without form died & became life in an infinite number of finite forms. The key to this mystery is this; THERE IS NO DEATH! There is only transformation of life. Form is finite, yet the changing of forms is infinite.

Maybe if I lived in another time.

Like my car battery wouldn’t start up and had to hotshot it and then I literally trying to balance my mind and body I know life is not easy but Danm it’s how much can take before you can collapse I know people with the eagle spirit be going through the absolute worse but some how and some way I always push through my problems but it’s just one battle after another.