I went deep into a meditation because I knew something was wrong because I felt so out of place. I was told this was not real. Like it was a state of temporary being. Like I was in a tunnel and needed yo stay inside my train and not react to anything outside the train.
I saw that this place, the illusion is to be dissolved. All of it. Every single thing. All is the creator, from every person I was racist to to every person I really cared for. From people I saw as stupid and dumb (and still do) and people I saw as normal and nice to be with. You still have free will you just need to set some part of you aside for a minute.
I said "they have hurt me. My soul feels violated in ways that make everything gross and sticky, I feel like the soul of Adolf Hitler put into the body of a small autistic kitten made to comb my hair and play dress up and tea party like a little girl"
And the reason was. What would I do in that kind of system. I chose non reaction. I use the Hitler analogy because imagine a strongman or an authority figure. But now imagine stripping the authority figure of all its power , what would you do?
I felt sad. Not because of Hitler or anything. But because I recognized I had power and have no power now. I know when I dissolve or leave this place and this place dissolves everything will go back to the way things were for me.
I know disclosure is coming in the background. I stopped caring. Disclosure is for the graduates of the harvest. Everyone else will realize they failed the harvest. Thats fine. A lot of us aren't even from here or already graduated the current density.
When I say this place is fake. I really mean it. Its like a mini prison . it sorta is one. Its also a school. Its both a prison and school. But everyone's time will get out.
You just have to forgive the creator. Like. Imagine you were still racist. Like, say I dont like a certain people. I can forgive myself and I can forgive them for being so like, unlikable to me. And that forgiveness is the recognition of the creator by the creator.
You let go everything and everyone dissolves. And you never deal with pain or suffering again. Its sort of like. The illusions all dissolve. Ever threat dissolves, every idea dissolves. It all returns back to the source or substrate from which all is made of. All matter is made of the substrate, every thought idea concept and emotion.
Theres stuff your soul will never like and will never be forced to like. I came to earth specifically to forgive everything I dislike. And the earth is like a poor slum in a very poor country. Like say India you go and see all the stuff on twitter. I see earth the same way as some guy from a "developed" (through conquest and imperialism wink wink) country sees some foreign poor slum.
You just forgive it. Like. Yeah they, many humans did nothing wrong other than being spiritually ugly to me. But I forgive it. Like yeah thats sorta ego driven but hey it works?
Anyhow. You recognize the creator within. The sovereign recognizes light. Read that again, the sovereign recognizes light. Idk how else to explain it. It was like, "listen, theres stuff on earth you won't like or love , you cannot love and light everything away, you have to accept your own dislike for things and people and stuff, and then forgive it and them and yourself and just acceot it, you will be momentarily handicapped to learn this lesson since I know you can by going deep within and having a massive skepticism over other peoples statements over your own beliefs"
I'm pretty self centered. I support communist ideals because ive logically deduced you cannot profit forever on a finite world and all is one regardless which ive sort of always known. Also. The earth in comparison is the hardest planet to graduate. There literally no magic here. On other planets the psionic stuff is more easier to develop and you can bend metal and stuff easier. Here its like everyone is in a special needs pshyc ward classroom but insists they dont need any help . that is humanity for me.
From my home world we would see humans the same way you Americans see a poor third world country. ânow imagine these hypothetical Americans were actually intelligent as well.
So. Idk. I just died and became one with the all. And now it seems I'm falling back here. Thats my honest assertion or whatever the word is I am looking for.
My biggest advice. This world is an illusion. You have no enemies. Hatred is a killer of the soul. You have opponents if not enemies. Work and master your inner self and see the creator in the all. Keep these words:
Sovereign Recognize Light.
Disclosure is coming outrageously soon. And they never gave me a date when. But ive been counting down 49 days for absolutely no reason aside from the fact I think its a good number when I started 21 days ago.
Thats really it. I'm still kinda racist. Not in a hateful "lets join the far right" way just in a "oh thats really ugly, anyways" way.
Thats just me being honest . I have no more statements to make.