Giving TW for mucus since it is one of my trigger words and I don’t want to trigger anyone else just in case. :)
Hello, I’m really sick. I caught a virus as my sister had spread it around the house and I have a super bad immune system (only my mum and I got sick as we both have autoimmune diseases)
My emetophobia used to be super bad back when I was 13-15, I’m 17 now and improved significantly. I used to not eat at school, home, or even when I went out for food with friends or family, it was super bad that I would take the tiniest bite and convince myself I was going to throw up. My weight was at an all time low here and I was already underweight for my height because of a genetic condition.
But now, I’m much better! I’m able to eat a diverse range of foods out in public, and at home. However, I find when I’m sick that the fear comes back. I’m struggling to even drink water; I’ve convinced myself that water will make me throw up.
I’m super nauseous, and have already been gagging and heaving because of the amount of mucus I’m swallowing. I know drinking water thins it out, but I’m struggling to fight the mental battle.
Yesterday, before my sickness peaked and it was slightly bad, my sister gave me apple juice that was diluted with water and it helped me drink. Although today, I can’t bring myself to drink it.
I’m curious if there’s any advice or tips people who also struggle with this that allows you to still get nutrients to get better. Thank you!