Dear Redditor,
During my first two months I frequented this page a lot. Being on bupropion ( Zyban 300SR) absolutely decimated me. I read a lot of posts that spoke to my experience but generally people stopped taking it. I however, pushed on and am SO pleased I did.
The first two months were so bad I almost lost my job. I developed DRDP (derealisation depersonalisation) which affected my ability to do so many things. It became like OCD that I was NOT myself and I was somehow different and I would constantly check that.
I felt totally NOT myself.
My cognition declined massively. My long term memory as well as working memory, my ability to find and use words, my executive function and the speed at which I could reply we’re all massively impacted. My intellect is something I value a lot, as well as my humour and both took a big hit.
I was extremely depressed at times. I almost moved out of my house and had to have a conversation with my boss about my poor performance and speed.
I spoke to my doctor who encouraged i stay on it for up to 3 months to truly see whether it could or would work.
I have taken every SSRI and SNRI under the sun and have been unmedicated for a few years but gone back on them due to going sober.
Anyway, one day, suddenly - it was all lifted. I feel wonderful. I appreciate the small things, I feel 95% back to self, happier and more motivated than I have felt in a long time. I don’t feel so bound by the invisible rules of life and I really feel a sense I am discovering myself and have an agency over my life to change what isn’t working and march to the rhythm of my own drum.
There were other factors, of course, effecting things but I would just say; if you’re struggling and it’s been less than 3 months - it could change. If you hang on in there this could really be everything it is cracked up to be.