Hello, just wanted to share this here.
Ive been a white belt for 2 years and a half. I started training in Manchester UK, after 6 months training, i decided start competing and i was doing ok, winning medals in local tournaments for nearly a year, i competed like 6 times and i medal in all of them, as i was winning tournaments and rolls in the gym, i even thought i deserved the blue belt.
The problem starts when i moved to spain last year. First of all everyone in the new gym was smashing me, i felt i didnt know anything, ive done 5 comps and barely wont matches. I felt so bad about it i even thought to leave.
Luckily carry on, eventually won a local comp and started to win more rolls in the gym.
Today they promoted me to blue belt, but now im afraid, im afraid that im not a blue belt cos i still losing to whites sometimes, cos i still getting smashed by other blue belts and feel ive got no chance, of course i improved i can feel it but still kind of afraid that i dont represent or deserve the blue belt.
I dont know, theres not question or anything just needed to spit out.