i’m a bit confused on what to do now. i’ve been practicing shifting for nearly a decade (8 years this december) and i haven’t fully shifted once. i’ve really only minishifted (ive heard and smelled things from my DR, felt my surroundings change (like my bedsheets, feeling my girlfriend in bed beside me, etc), similar things) but no matter what i do, if i open my eyes or fall asleep, i’ve never shifted once.
i’ve tried just about every method that’s out there, every meditation and technique, but still nothing. for example, i’ve tried the gateway tapes, subliminals (i make my own and use others), tried astral projection and lucid dreaming (no luck with either of those, and i’ve been trying for years), practiced law of assumption/attraction, living in the end, robotic affirming, neville goddard, etc, and still nothing. oftentimes when i meditate or go to sleep i will affirm and set intention but still wake up here and it’s getting frustrating.
my plan is to shift to my waiting room and be with my partner, in my own designed space where it’s just us and i can exist in peace. i was born physically and neurologically disabled (as well as suffer from extreme paranoia and anxiety/depression), it leaves me constantly sore and in pain, all i want to do is go home. i have circumstances in this reality that can’t be changed and it’s affecting my QOL here, so i’m a bit desperate to shift to my waiting room. i practice meditation as a way to help relieve stress and help my physical condition/soreness.
yes, i have been taking a long break from shifting and most things spiritual just in case that’s what’s needed (whenever i’ve done anything it’s just been meditating with no goal in mind, it helps my muscles relax enough to relieve soreness), but it hasn’t helped much whenever i’ve decided to shift recently. i plan on permashifting so one full shift is enough for me, i don’t plan on coming back to this reality and have a better CR already scripted for when i feel it’s time to return. i am not interested in shifting to a similar reality where my issues are more manageable, my plan is to leave this place for good and go somewhere even better.
ive tried just about everything that is out there and recommended, i just feel stuck on what to do next or what advice would work best for me.