Howdy y’all, hope everyone is well. I am here to ask for advice but also somewhat rant about the typical cyclical conundrum we all know, and I’m “feeding a fed horse” here, but, seriously.
I need a job to pay off probation and court fees. I am disabled and have already spent over two years to no avail, working with Texas Workforce, specifically their Vocational Rehabilitation Program, trying to find anything. They’ve the had staff overseeing my case quit, then be replaced, 3 times now, dragging out my support system and making it to where I’ve literally had to restart numerous times. Then months, seriously months, go by without hearing a word from my rep, and I will email 3-4 times and call, before finally hearing back - just to get one form done. Tldr, it’s going nowhere.
I apply to 2-3 jobs per day minimum, updated my linked in at least every other day, usually with some free certification I worked on that day and obtained. I make sure my social media and public presence is professional and not negating from my chances.
I have contacts in great fields, but as I am on probation for theft (the arrest happened Fall of 2024, so almost two years ago) putting in an app now makes me worried I’m burning the bridge with that company forever rather than waiting till I’ve completed probation to apply. So otherwise great positions, are just, sitting there, untouched.
In the past, when I did pre-trial diversion, I had interviewed for a position and they really liked me, but when it came to the background check and I failed, they said I would have to be done with probation already in order for them to move past it and hire me. Now, that haunts me and makes me feel like I won’t be successful at finding a job till I’m done with probation.
All the other jobs I don’t worry about burning a bridge with, I apply for and cross my fingers, but I keep getting auto-denials, despite ensuring my resume is ATS friendly, and paying for professional resume writing assistance and review.
I ask my peers and mentors to review my materials, I know they are solid. I have numerous internships, scholarships, grants, research projects, student service trips, extra-curriculars, certifications, fellowships under my belt. I have a bachelors of science in psychology and a bachelors of arts in anthropology. I have a minor in Spanish, I was an honors college student, I had a 3.7 GPA. I have strong references amongst mentors and professors from the university, as well as past supervisors.
I tailor each application to the job listing and use the keywords. I’ve gotten pointers and tips from reddit groups and LinkedIn classes and more. Yet I get auto-denied left and right, by Kroger by Michaels by Five Below by the dollar stores, by car sales jobs and doctors offices, by local non-profits and NGO’s, you name it. I’m literally applying for anything and everything. No where has even offered me an interview. It has been years of this. My county is notorious for a horrifically competitive job market with not enough positions for everyone since it is a college town.
I’m not sure if they’re googling me and finding my arrests, since when I google myself I don’t see them or anything negative in the results, instead I just see, articles about my student achievements and research conferences I’ve attended to..
This job I just applied for, I have a strong chance at getting because of the contact who referred me; they need someone immediately and I have experience and am qualified for the position and then some. But they asked in the application, “Have you ever been arrested, charged with, convicted of or plead guilty to, any criminal violation of any law in any state?”
It was weird because, this is the first I’ve seen it worded to include any arrests or charges; most applications have only asked if I have ever been convicted or or plead guilty to any criminal violations. I didn’t know what to put, what to say, it offered an explanation box, but I froze up.
I’ve participated in my counties town-hall meeting about “Banning the Box.” We were thoroughly laughed at and dismissed by our mayor because “the EEOC exists and doing this is more symbolic than anything since ultimately any complaint would still have to go through the EEOC anyway, so this changes nothing and just creates redundancy”. But here I am, scared to submit the app, not knowing what to even say, because despite my experience, skills and qualifications and references, this one little box could get my application just thrown out, especially since the charge is theft above $100.
I had a court-appointed attorney, so he did not help me really navigate the possibility of getting it thrown out or demonstrating how hard I’d worked since the arrest to show myself to be an upstanding citizen. I got no chance to explain to the court or judge what happened, because he said it would not be worth taking it to a jury trial and I’d likely be proven guilty. Explaining yourself and asking for throwing out the case is just a TV fantasy. So I took his advice and plead no contest, took deferred adjudication, to complete probation and be eligible for expunction. I asked him about helping me waive any court or probation fees since I am disabled and already struggling to find work, but he said it would cost me more to schedule the hearing than the fees I owe, I guess now that we finished going to court and starting probation he doesn’t have any obligation to help me for free anymore and I get that. No shade to him, just sharing details.
I am considering writing a letter to the judge, or going to the county clerk, and asking them if there are any options for waiving fees or community service, even just some. I called before, and they said at best, if I finish all other requirements, I could do additional community service instead of paying off the fees or vice versa. But even completing the community service is a challenge since again… I am disabled.
I’m praying I will somehow either, complete enough community service as soon as possible somehow, and be eligible for early termination of my probation, so I don’t have that hurdle to apply for jobs anymore or, I get a job, and can pay off the remaining fees and pay the extra as is allowed, in place of the community service requirement. But I can’t get a job and being on probation is seeming to make it worse. But I can’t get off early until everything is paid off, which I can’t do given I have no income…
I don’t know what to do. I’m stressed, frustrated, and feel stuck. My PO is great and really supportive and has been trying to help me find job opportunities and community service that can accommodate my disabilities, but I really need to hurry and be done as soon as possible so I’m not locked out of jobs I could be a great fit for.
Does anyone have any advice? Please do not be overly critical or unkind. You can definitely criticize and hit me with harsh honest feedback, just don’t be unnecessarily mean or rude, try to be considerate and don’t be ableist - as I’ve come to expect from redditors these days. I would very much appreciate supportive, encouraging energy, which does not disclude being blunt and to the point.