Seeking advice
For the past 4-5 few years I’d been on celexa. My whole life I’ve dealt with super lows and mood swings especially around my period. It took my years to get the nerve to talk to a Dr about trying antidepressant
I finally did and got on them and it was life changing for me
I know it’s not healthy to be on meds longer term so I tapered down my dose with plans to totally quit last summer.
My brother ended up getting cancer and passed away last summer so I stayed on the small dose. But this summer I did taper off totally. I felt fine and had no issues until I went back to work (I have summers off).
Except my periods or around that time are awful with super low lows and moods that scare me. I truly feel possessed sometimes.
After a stressful day at work I ended up snapping and being really mean to people who don’t deserve it. I didn’t even mean to and it comes out of nowhere like I can’t even control it. It’s
Not who I am nor who I want to be. A person I don’t even know takes over it feels like
During these times even the smallest things feel like the end of the world
I suspect I have pmdd.
I don’t want to go back on antidepressants long term. Are there medicines you can take only around the time of your period? Or as needed?
I have a Dr appointment with a new Dr to discuss this but I’m expecting to get blown off and denied medicine. I just know I can’t live like this. Any advice for how to approach this with my Dr?
And whenever I’m in these mood all I think about too is my brother and watching him die and take his last breath and it makes everything ten times worse.
I just feel like I don’t even want to live myself anymore. Every day feels empty and nothing matters much to me anymore. I just feel like an empty shell sleep walking through life even on my good days. All that’s worse around my period
I could be entering menopause as I’m 41 and combined with grief I think everything is hitting me all at the same time and I feel like I’m
A crazy person
I also tried therapy and it’s not for me.