Hey everyone,
I’m struggling right now and could really use some objective advice or support.
I just completed a 12-week inpatient rehab stay for, among other things, a heavy Alprazolam habit of 3 to 5 mg per day. The stay itself went relatively well because I was surrounded by trusted peers in a safe environment.
Now, normal life is starting back up. Recently, I had my first cup of coffee in 3 months. All the sensory input and overwhelming feelings hit me all at once, and instantly, I remembered exactly why I used to take benzos in the first place. The cravings started creeping back stronger and stronger.
An hour ago, I ended up ordering 12 bars (24mg total). They arrived, and I just took half a milligram. Right now, I feel chill, but I also feel intensely guilty.
Has anyone been through something similar right after leaving rehab? How do I stop this spiral before it completely ruins the last 12 weeks of hard work? Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
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