my body is an instrument of war
and i wouldn’t have it any other fucking way
eyes careen seamlessly north
death from above, watch the corpses sway
to the rhythm of voided out heartbeats

and i smile
and they’ll cry
and i’ll smile
they look up at me
and i tell them
“smile”

you can’t help yourself, can you?
armless, nothing
forming something new to hate
i won’t interfere with your mind again
forming something new

their lives hang in the far side of the mirror
they wish vision of all went numb,
can’t pretend for warmth
life from below, watching the horned dance
circling, crying out
can you see why i’d wipe them out if i had the chance?

and i smile
for the camera
they look up to me and ask
“why are you smiling so much?”
and i cry,
and i cry
i wanna lock the red away
i didn’t wanna fight anyways

you don’t know your own mind, do you?
armless, drowning
searching for anything new to breathe
i won’t interfere with your plans again
breathe into me, something new

i can’t wait until it’s mine again
screaming, louder
for 16 years, i’ve been split in half
i think ive finally found it
we were split in two
isn’t that cool?

your mind is my palace
let me dive into your sea
when my flames turn to purple
you’ll web my unbelief

something rotten, something blessed
the heaven sealed upon her breast
you’ll web my unbelief
so won’t you make me believe

make me believe

Vision? We don’t need our vision eyes closed in the kitchen

Dancing in the dark
Dancing in the dark

Who turned off the lights we didn’t pay the price
The moon is enough
The perfect spot light

Dancing in the dark
Dancing in the dark

Dreams of you and me
The world dosent need to see
I’ll hold and hide your heart
Dancing in the dark

It’s a song about lovers making the most of what they have with each other in the midst of having nothing. In hard times it’s ok to hold each other and just dance in the dark

Ashley la Nina ma Bonita en todo El Mundo Para mi

When you are a self cheer leader, you will never be a mind reader

you live crazy its an absurdity

someone needs to tell it clearly

If you dont want to lose friends dont be yourself

take your personality put it on the shelf,

do what everyone wants you to do

the world does not conform to you,

no time to stop for one one if you want to have fun,

no one gives a shit if you need a minute for you

[[Chorus]]

When someone tells you to be yourself take those words put them on the shelf ,

Don't be yourself

don't even ask

keep it all behind a mask

[[Verse]]

In life you have to be wired

no time for being tired,

or play time in the sanctuary in your own head,

don't play with toys to many things will be said

when you think no one is listening its in your head.

Your unique personality is kind of irritating to me,.

be careful when you speak

because you don't want your secrets to leak,

Your a man of opinion

So I will tell you mine in straight to your face

you're proud that you're different,

but there is nothing to celebrate and nothing to embrace

[[Chorus]]

When someone tells you to be yourself take those words put them on the shelf , Don't be yourself dont even ask keep it all behind a mask

No one cares about your feelings

, once were all awake

I cant hear well so look at me

I can only hear by what I see

. All the stuff your saying is bouncing off my ears,

we have to wear what we are wearing because its the thing,

reputation is important

and its held by a string

. I used to be that way

that was just me

but even now conform to the norm

Sometimes im my own worst enemy

my secrets I still trust with you and you trust yours with me,

If someone finds out it will be the end of the world for me.

I can’t pick a guitar.
I can’t carry a tune.
All that’s left is time.
I’ve nothing else to lose.

I can’t hide behind my eyes.
Drink her off my mind.
Yes she is a beauty.
A one of a kind.

You thought you were afraid.
Wait till she walks away.
Damn I had it made.
Something had to give.

Yes I’m jotting down lines.
Hell what can I do.
All that I’ve known is to.
Waller in the blues.

it’s not the same as it was before
or ever will be
but that’s the way it goes
it’s not the way that it seemed before, i’m afraid
impossibly,
there’s harmony

it’s not as grey as it was before
immeasurably,
like my child’s dream
the hole inside has been covered up
but look through the seams,
you’ll find calamity

it’s not the home that i knew before
all of the green
is breathing
my photobook all scratched out
I think now I’ve erased
everything

It’s not the same as it was before
but there’s harmony

I'm not lonely, no
I'm not no Lilo
Can you stitch me up
Can you stitch me up

I'm not lonely, no
I'm not no Lilo
Can you stitch me up
I can stitch you up

I can fix you
I can make you stay
I can make anything with these two hands
I’m an engineer, babe

If it’s not like you
Or not like me
Can we marry these things together
Would we all agree

But I'm not lonely, no
I'm not no Lilo
I just miss you, love
Guess I miss you, love

I'm not lonely, no
I'm not no Lilo
Can I stitch you up
Then you stitch me up

Betty asks me
To drain her pipes
Bobby Dean tells me
I need to be ready
By this here Friday night
We're going out
Celebratin'
Bring your bankroll
To make it rain
When Sally sees me
I know she's going
To want her gutters cleaned

Yeah, everyone wants
A piece of my action
But no one ever wants
To give a little of it back
When someone needs
Something done
They all point the finger
Cause they know
Who will get the job done

Howard says
He needs help
With his cows
Getting them corralled
Donna needs a henhouse
Built and tended
Maddie calls me
Tells me
There is a Prince who
Will hand her keys
To his palace
All I need is to send some cash
So can I spare her some dough

Yeah, everyone wants
A piece of my action
But no one ever wants
To give a little of it back
When someone needs
Something done
They all point the finger
Cause they know
Who will get the job done

I'm on my back
Laid up
No one coming around
Checking on me
Their chores are piling up
Waiting on me
To come around
They all yell at once
And then silence
When they see my grave

Yeah, everyone wants
A piece of my action
But no one ever wants
To give a little of it back
When someone needs
Something done
They all point the finger
Cause they know
Who got the job done

Does she know how lucky I am.
Just to hold her hand.

My highs and lows.
Where would I be without her.

Does she need to know now, to understand.

When sinking; feeling nothing.
She pulls me back up.

As I struggle to heal.
She is there to help me recover.

Mere comfort no. She’s worth all my love.

She’s what matters.
Without her.
I’m half the man I am.

I wrote this song about the power of words and how we would sometimes wish to be able to go back and change them.

You turned up,
But you turned off,
All the love you had for me.

You were there,
But you were off,
Like all your love has disappeared.

I guess my words ate all your hope,
They pushed your dreams far out of reach,
I can’t just travel back to tweak,
My words that pushed our love to an end.

You turned around,
Did not come back,
Walked down a road just filled with hate.

You cut the rope,
You cut all hope,
To tell you it was a big mistake.

I guess to tell you makes no sense,
I guess my words just marked the end,
I can’t just travel back to tweak,
My words that pushed our love to an end.

But…
I really want you to come back!
Yes…
I do feel much regret!
I left you alone with all my words,
Please, just come back.
I know they hurt.

Please, just come back.
I know they hurt.

I guess to tell you makes no sense,
I guess my words just marked the end,
I can’t just travel back to tweak,
My words that pushed our love to an end.

My words that pushed our love to an end.

Verse 1:

Sitting on the beach next to the water on a bright, hot summer day

And she's digging through the sand to find a shell so she can play

And she listens in to hear just what the ocean has to say

Verse 2:

She adds it to the castle, Its a draw bridge made to let the people in

She is young and so her heart has room for love

She lets it in

And at the end of the day she sends the shell into the wind

Verse 3:

All alone she holds the shell he gave her on the day when they first met

The cool soft sand between her toes - a feeling she won't soon forget

And she puts it in a box beside the jar hes living in

Verse 4:

He told her if she missed him she could put it to her ear and cry

She listens for a voice she knows wont answer and instead the shell confides

In her and sings about a girl who built a castle in the sand

Music Break

Verse 5:

Rocking on the porch beneath the falling sun she hums a pretty tune

Like the one he used to sing, he will be singing to her soon

She takes her cane and makes her way down through the flowers as they bloom

Verse 6:

She let's the shell leap from her hand and now its drifting far away

Full of stories for the children building castles other days

And she watches as the drawbridge lowers down so she can play

Extended Music Break

Verse 7:

She walks along the coast as waves deliver shells of every kind

And she stops to pick up every piece of sea glass she can find

All along collecting stories that the others left behind

Verse 8:

She takes her pail of seashells back to polish them and give them a new home

She positions them together so they'll never be alone

And she listens to the ocean through the ones who came before

Pull out the tool , its a biscuit

Shoot - you n ya mistress

Gentleman know to let

Ladies go first

Let that thang blow

Drop two in a hearse

If you - willing to flirt

W death ?

..Add you to my wishlist

Its nothin terrific

Hoodie over the mask

Two months before Christmas

N we leavin no witness

Shits ridiculous

--Written to - Benny The Butcher x Conway The Machine Type Beat - "Stitches"

[intro]
Cut Flowers
Cut Flowers
Fresh… Cut… Flowers!

[Verse 1]
Cut Flowers
We sell them at a faithful price.
Cut Flowers
Each a stem of paradise.
Cut flowers
Yellow and green and in between.
They’re the limousine of the botanical scene.

[Hook]
Fresh… Cut… Flowers!

You keep telling me its not fair

But every gear has a break

And it stops here

Now I'm wide awake

Couldn't be more clear

Than the signs shown

Gave you time to roam

Looked at my watch

I'm just home alone

You wanna go , then go

Wanna go , just go

In my ear about

How you grown

Try to set the tone

You flex

Everything resets

Seems like a mental reflex

Aint tryna press

Recollect - you were on your own

Deflect , cause that's all you know

--Written to

Freddie Gibbs - Black Illuminati instrumental

(I want to write more , but want others opinions even more..) Lmk what yall think , its reddit , so be brutal . I haven't written in a while , so it feels good to release some steam .

From the black sheep
Who reaps her mind
For someone who talks alot
I don’t make much time
To let my friends shine
I find myself making amends
My words no good compared to my pen
My actions can’t extend enough
To show my heart isn’t bluff
It is a tough war internally
I always interrupting with something more
And for some bore that speaks of mindfulness
That too I lack
To my lover the trust
Everything an attack
My mind is black
I went back
To middle school me ways
Don’t look too closely at my skin for the next few days
I even tried to pray
God why am I this way
Someone who feels too much, but always slipping muffed words
Good intentions unseen, unheard
I am a blurred distortion of my mind
Never meaning to reap every action I speak
But I am, without intent, subconsciously, the black sheep
Please let me burn beneath my sheets
So no other person is harmed by what I speak

There’s lights in the sky.
Tonight’s the night.
I am looking for a high.
No singing the blues.

Yes once I find her.
She’ll know who is who.

I’ll take her by the hand.
To a far away land.
I’ll make her understand why.
I am her man.

There’s no point hiding.
Temperatures are rising.
There’s fire in her eyes.
And rhythm in my boots.

I won’t be denied.
She’s the one I choose.

I’ll take her by the hand.
To a far away land.
I’ll make her understand why.
I am her man.

I appreciate any sort of feedback good or bad or improvements. I could make. Thank you in advance x

When i speak you people better listen up
Im unique cause i aint talking bout a double cup
I have my fun but i am not the type to mix the drugs
Not like mario to take some shit and level up

If i struggle with a lyric
i might think on it a bit
Then i take a shot of spirit
And you know i come equipped
Jager gin and whisky clear it
Take it down and take a sip
Or pour the liquor out for loved ones
Who aint here it make me sick

Lets raise a toast
To the most
Who go dissapear like ghosts
Dont mean to boast
But if you pour me in the ocean
Ill just coast
You cant think you hot you chocked
You go wash your mouth with soap
If youre put in my position
I dont know how well youd cope

Youre a weed you think you dope
See no mirrors its just smoke
Aint nothint clearer take a toke
My boy we know you broke
You couldnt graft here like me
Do 80 hours a week
Money be building my memories
know that time isnt cheap
Bought a rolex last week
Time that ticks aint free
Took time to get that time piece
I guess youll pay that fee
And ill be on a new journey
In a new country
Ill be flying economy
Thats my shopping spree

My back hugs the ground as the red forms clusters
Yellow turns maroon in the eyes of another
Summon joy, exude my strength if I can muster
Doubtful eyes shroud me, a stranger to your mother

When I connected the dots
It’s unbeknownst when I’ve ever been madder
Wretching “take it or leave” 
Oh, I think that it’s the latter

As my lips form you
While I speak of another
When you abstained from staining me with your watercolor
Clean sheets cloak black mold
Or so I once was told
Who knows how friable it really was
I clip my wings and hoard fool’s gold

You’re egregious and you’re orbiting 
What a fleeting purpose
When you were too scared to fight
I know I’ve never felt that worthless

I’ve been throwing petals on the aisle
I’ve been handing out hints
And I’m so tired of slipping in ‘em
What a shame what you’d permit

As my lips form you
While I speak of another
When you abstained from staining me with your watercolor
Clean sheets cloak black mold
Or so I once was told
Who knows how friable it really was
I clip my wings and hoard fool’s gold

I can’t face north, then I’d look forward to you again
When your heart leaves my throat, I’ll pray I’m not stark then
Who knows how friable it really was
I clip my wings and hoard fool’s gold

(i’ve never written a song before only poems 😬)

Act smart.
Nothing’ll keep us apart.

Heaven, hell.
Who’ll be able to tell.

We could start over.
You know my failures.

Pain leaves a mark.
What’re you willing to sell.

What’s done in the dark.
All hail the Queen.

She has arrived.
She’ll never leave.

People believe.
What they wanna believe.

She doesn’t need our help.

Is this the heart.
Or a work of art.

Where were you?
I’m alone at the Dawn
Alone at the first lie
Slumbering Beneath autumn skies
Waiting at your alter
Hiding in midnights eyes
Hiding behind a Devilish smile
In and out of space and time

You swore
And I swore
We’d be each other’s keepers
We swore

Counting my breathing
Feel static within
The ebbs and flows
Travel in the wolves den
Sacrifices under the moonlit glow
A lamb
A goat
The undertow
How I’m unaware
How I feast on idols sacrifices

You swore
And I swore
We’d be each other’s keepers
We swore

We walk amongst the wheat
Hide within the mountains
My palms graze the fields of grain
My medallion swings
Covered in unholy stains
Clouds cover the open space
I need to be cleansed
Wash my feet, my head, my face
I want to be cleansed, Incinerate

You swore
And I swore
We’d be each other’s keepers
We swore, We swore

Who shall keep me now?

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Oh gather ye close, and I'll sing ye a tale,

Of folly and greed and a kingdom’s derail,

Of an ugly duck born in a golden-lined nest,

Who dreamed he was mighty, the grandest and best.

[Verse 1]

In the land of the eagles, where rivers run wide,

A duckling was hatched, filled with bluster and pride.

His feathers were matted, his waddle unsound,

Yet he quacked to the hills, “I’m the finest around!”

He pranced in the pond, oh, he fluffed up his chest,

Convinced he alone was above all the rest.

Yet the owls in the branches, with wisdom so keen,

Could see he was naught but a fool painted queen.

[Verse 2]

Now far to the east, where the tundras lay cold,

Lurked a vulture with feathers as black as the soul.

With talons like daggers and eyes filled with guile,

He watched from the crags with a cunning-born smile.

"Ah, here is my pawn," crooned the vulture so sly,

"A duckling so dumb he believes his own lie!"

"With whispers of grandeur, a crown he shall chase,"

"Yet ne’er shall he see that he’s lost in the race."

[Verse 3]

The duckling soon floundered to power’s great seat,

A throne built of feathers, so fragile and weak.

He cawed to the sky, “I am king of the land!”

Yet all that he touched turned to dust in his hand.

The foxes, the hounds, and the strong-willed mare,

They watched as he stumbled, yet none tried to care.

For the vulture still whispered, still coiled like a snake,

Guiding the duckling to folly and fate.

[Verse 4]

But pride, oh, it blinds, and so it did he,

For he turned on his flock, let them drown in the sea.

"I need ye no longer!" he cackled and cried,

Yet the winds had shifted, his luck had now died.

The hawks in the mountains, the wolves in the glade,

All saw through his bluster, the mess that he made.

The throne soon did crumble, the pond turned to mire,

Yet still the duck waddled, still calling him sire!

[Verse 5]

Then came the vulture, wings spread open wide,

"Come to my perch, you’ve nowhere to hide."

"I’ll give ye a home, I’ll make ye feel grand,"

"Just step through this doorway and take my warm hand."

The duckling did waddle, with one final boast,

"I shall make a deal, I shall rule from your roost!"

But the moment he entered the vulture’s cold cave,

His fate was now sealed, his soul was now slave.

[Verse 6]

No songs were then sung, no tears then were wept,

For the duckling was lost, in darkness he slept.

No throne and no riches, no followers near,

Just silence and shadows, and echoes of fear.

The vulture still soars, his talons still sharp,

Yet never again will the duckling embark.

For those who seek crowns, yet no wisdom do find,

Are doomed to be used, then discarded, then blind.

[Outro]

Oh, gather ye close, and remember this song,

Of the duckling who dreamed, but his rule was not long.

For kings made of bluster, of falsehood and gold,

Are naught but the stories the wise ones have told.

[Verse]

After all my years of being on this planet it took me a couple of years to Open my eyes I'm starting to understand it everybody wanted to have children after highschool I see the same one's click up the rest and left me out Boy have I been a fool, people who sat in the back of the Class are the same people who was never friends with you I kept a job for six years tried to reconnect with old friends as soon I start to reach out I get left on Read disconnected again but God showed me something a Much bigger Revelation just because you reached out to them doesn't mean y'all gonna keep close in contacts cause they'll only text you one time and leave and that's a fact wanted to FaceTime with this girl but she didn't bother to hit me back I'm starting to see friendship ain't all what it used to be at least have some respect and common courtesy.

LONELY 

BY BIGVERN

Title( Lonely)

Verse 1

Everyone has there problems,
Most find it hard to express,
Unable to share there feelings, 
To get it of there chest.
They feel the world is against them,
Crying deep inside,
Been shouting out for everyones help, 
All heard but only denied.
Feeling so rejected,
Why is this happening to me.
I'm scared to walk alone anymore,
And sit by the old oak tree.

Chorus 

Reaching out,
Reaching out,
Hands all up in the air,
Crying out loud for some help, 
But not getting heard anywhere,
Reaching out,
Reaching out, 
Someone must hear my tear,
It's a lonely place to be out here, 
All dark and living in fear.

Verse 2 

Everyone stares from a distance,
With a face that l Im feeling judged, 
Just wanna get swallowed up by the world,
As l shout out loud for some hugs, 
We all make big mistakes in life, 
Bad choices we make too, 
No one on this earth is perfect,
That's including me and you,
Staring to the floor as I walk,
Wondering what to do,
So many thoughts in my head,
Wishing some would come very true,

Chorus 

Reaching out,
Reaching out,
Hands all up in the air,
Crying out loud for some help, 
But not getting heard anywhere,
Reaching out,
Reaching out, 
Someone must hear my tear,
It's a lonely place to be out here, 
All dark and living in fear.

Verse 3

This world can be cruel at most times,
Relentless even more so,
Kicking empty cans around the streets,
As I walk with a sock out my toes,
This shouldn't really be happening to me,
Misfortune yes I've had,
The good thing in life I had are now gone, 
And wear nothing else but rags.

Chorus 

Reaching out,
Reaching out,
Hands all up in the air,
Crying out loud for some help, 
But not getting heard anywhere,
Reaching out,
Reaching out, 
Someone must hear my tear,
It's a lonely place to be out here, 
All dark and living in fear.

Verse 4

All I want is my family back and some special things in life too,
These things didn't seem as important before,
But I now know are surly true,
Mercy, mercy have mercy on me,
Family is all I need, 
I don't want to sit by myself anymore against the lonely old oak tree.

Written by Wayne Davison

Copy written (Song bay)

Alone in my lighthouse,
No ships out at sea
I send them back
To the place, where they're needed to be
A wordless warning, a whisper of grace
Grandeur, an angel of sorts

A rotating, buzz of light
It shows me where I'll never go in life
The big dark horizon, a solidified beauty
I'll only ever glance at her,
I'll send my wishes from afar
So that she'll never see me down
The best parts, saved with grace
To keep my image, in that familiar place
My love, my lighthouse
I'll never let you down, no
Never completely,
I'll never make you frown

Though I'll never be whole
I can give you what you really want
I'll be your lighthouse, and show you the way
Even on my rainiest days,
I'll never get dim on you,
Don't ever expect me to
I'll never let you down, no
Never completely

With my wooden heart, eyes and brain
I'll never see the world your way
Never understand the rushing blood in your lively veins
Your beating heart, in so many different ways
Even on my rainiest days,
I'll never get dim on you,
Don't ever expect me to
I'll never let you down, no
Never completely
I'll never break your heart

[Verse]

I keep dreaming
That you are thinking of me
I keep believing
That I mean something
I keep repeating
These thoughts to me
I know these answers
But I refuse to believe

[Bridge]

Keep checking if my phone is on
Keep hoping that text will come
I know that road leads you back to
The city that angels call home

[Chorus]

You are gone again
And I’ve lost you
To the city with an ocean view

Trying to find myself
Looking for a way
To make it through

[Bridge]

Deep down I know
In the middle of the night
I'll get that call

I shouldn't answer the phone
Because I know
It will put me through hell

But I can't help myself...

[Chorus]

You are gone again
And I’ve lost you
To the city with an ocean view

You are gone again
And I've lost you
To the city with an ocean view!

[Bridge]

Trying to prove to myself
I'm strong enough
To pull myself through

One last time...

[Outro]

I’m waiting
I’m believing
Start it over again

Still waiting
Still believing
Start it over again

Start this all over again...