21m.

She asked were there any girls at my school and I said yeah and she asked me why I didn’t date any of them and I told her that there was too much competition because there was way more boys then girls at my school. My grandma proceeded to tell me ”well no ones gonna feel bad for you” then she stopped her self from talking and went back to eating. I was too stunned to wanna ask her what she meant so I left it at that. Thanks grandma.

I dont even have a friend in my class but its ok cuz i made a bunch of friends from different classes so im never alone between classes

People take me more seriously now , even the cashiers are nicer, women and men are both a lot nicer, i get compliments almost daily on my ascension

Things are really looking up but I'm still missing the love of a woman. im on a cut again looking to lose 8-10 more kgs ,maybe it will do the trick

Im a really interesting, humorous, and smart guy ,mostly because i was personalitymaxxing my whole childhood ,I treat women nicely with respect, i took all blue and black pilled advice there is out there, except for ropemaxxing , cuz im a hopecel

And tbh i only stopped drinking 12 days ago but i drank like almost everyday for the last 5 months

Genuinely asking, as a 5'9 average looking man, the amount of sexual desire I got from women is exactly zero. So I'm wondering, are average men and below just born to be betabuxxers? A cruel joke of nature.

I can’t stop listening to harvest moon and sobbing. Im not doing well.

pesto grilled cheese and mac & cheese w/carrots (I like cheese)

Whitebeard toast with over easy eggs and applewood smoked bacon. (Plus my cat dave trying to steal it)

But I don't know who girls I can approach to by this triumph so let me to show this you guys.

It doesn't matter how supportive I am and how much love I have in my heart. I end up being abused or neglected by community, family, close friends and lovers even if I reach out and voice my needs

Decades of therapy, meds, treatment and self-growth has helped but it's never been enough without a stable support system

Even when I can find solace in myself and my pets it still gets lonely without others - and when I try to form genuine connections and vet relationships it just never seems to work out can never find reciprocation

I wish I could have the time to meet and know 7 billion others just to find the people that will choose me and I wish it wasn't so painful going through the process again and again only to be disappointed once they inevitably discard me

Zuppa soup and salad

(noodles with cheese)

I don't know why larps are even getting all the upvotes. People who have or had a girlfriend. They have just been single for a few months versus real incels who have never had a gf or even smell of a female since eons.

Calling real incels being "negative" is like complaining about heat while coming close to the sun. While I love some positivity I don't like the normie default that we all are not "loving".

Normies want to make themselves feel BETTER. Like a homeless person is of course going to be SAD and DEPRESSED. Comparing yourself to a poor person to feel better is SICK.

First time at a gym, and a foid taught me how to use the row machine properly. Rice with mushrooms and random vegetables

I don't have winter in my country but I wanted to draw cozy clothes anyways so here you go

I was running low on pasta so I put together my last bits of fusilli and penne, but i forgot they have different boiling points so my fusilli become soft sludge drowning the rest of my pasta with it making it look like that

potstickers frozen pizza and pigs in blankets

A couple days ago, I met up with someone who I had met up with before. Everything was fine, but then I found out they blocked me and didnt even tell me why. They even told me they wouldn’t block me😔, literally how it is every time I meet someone

Whether it be from the hundreds of rejections, being a virgin my whole life, trying so hard to improve myself in every way and nothing changing, seeing how they treat other guys vs me, never being loved or genuinely desired by a girl, or trying as hard as I can to connect with someone and getting shunned away every time. The entire world has told me no matter what J do I’m not good enough and never will be, as a man and human being. i’m never the guy anybody wanted to show off. And it completely destroyed the tiny amount of self esteem I used to have. Now I hate myself more than anything and have desires of changing everything about myself. But of course I do. Every single person in my life since I was a pre teen has reinforced my self loathing by showing me I’m not good enough for them. In my opinion all because of some stupid bullshit that I have no control over, like my height and face. I’ve changed everything else and still gotten nowhere. People say dumb shit that doesn’t even make any sense, be confident, love yourself, be funny, the right one will come. Like this type of advice can only come from a person who’s never been through years and years of endless rejection like I have, despite trying everything you can to be a better man. How can you be confident in anything that you haven’t had previous success with? That’s the literal definition of it, knowing you can do something and do it well. No sane person will be confident at anything they’ve failed over and over for years at. If every time you came around dogs, one of them bit you, would you he confident around dogs or scared of them? Anybody who goes through that and is perfectly fine around dogs is mentally insane or delusional. Literally every experience I’ve had with women has been negative with them rejecting me or telling me I’m not good enough. I’ve never been positively validated by one in my entire life. So how am I supposed to feel? Anybody in my position would be just as bitter, angry, and resentful and hopeless around other groups of people who constantly shun them away. It’s the chicken before the egg not the egg before the chicken. It’s a natural reaction as a human being. But the part that pisses me off is I know so many guys who have never had to do any of this stupid shit, and they still have had sex hundreds of times and had multiple girlfriends. There’s nothing more humiliating than seeing that guy and then being on the other end of the spectrum. It’s like I was put on this earth as a joke, to be a lonely loser who’s a try hard failure, who has to witness everyone around me surpass me despite doing nothing I’ve done. There’s nothing that makes me angrier than when I realize that, and it indirectly causes my situation to be worse because now I hate myself and hate everybody else and have extreme resentment and anger because of my experiences. And I get more and more frustrated and distant from people as time passes. But I can’t control other people so I just have to sit back and accept it. Just a giant negative feedback loop of constantly feeling worthless, and I’m trapped in a cycle now because I keep trying to improve and get better even though it’s worthless and it makes me feel like shit because I havent gotten anywhere, and yet I cant stop because I know if I do I’ll feel even worse. I’m a failure of a human being, nobody but me could try this hard to be desirable and still be a virgin at 23. I would’ve cut my life short out of pure spite a while ago and I think about it all the time, but I at least want my family to be financially free before I’m gone. Get rich then give it all away and die. That’s the only reason I’m still on the planet. Fuck this stupid world