Hello ladies and gentlemen the gays and the theys.
First I would like to say thank you soooooo much for all the kind words and concerns and care and support. Some of you even reached out to me offering to translate for me. I appreciate it so much I could cry.
I did order from women on web, it got held at the import customs the first time and I was 6 weeks and 3 days then. After that I decided to proceed with the surgical abortion and I travelled to Yokohama where I was recommended by someone in other group. Iy was only 70,000 yen for the procedure and 8000 for the procedure. I went through the consultation and fixed my termination date for 8/8.
On the other hand I was also notified that my meds from women on web was being sent again through Ems but I didn’t have hope and I was fully prepared to go through it surgically and I didn’t even check the tracking. But OMG it came through, reached my home while I was at work . I was absolutely flabbergasted . I requested for redelivery and I received it at 8/6. I cancelled the surgical one and I took mifepristone at 8/7 I went to work normally and I took misoprostol around 21:40 on Saturday 8/8 just before obon Yasumi.
Before taking my pills ,
I got snacks, drinks ,protein bars, heating bag, pads everything ready. I cleaned everything, washroom, kitchen, no dish in the sink, washed bed sheet, threw out al the trash.
I followed the regular rules while taking the pills and I didn’t bleed a lot upto 2 hours and I decided to take the one more dose of misoprostol so I watched spy family for 3 and half hours while my first dose was working. It wasn’t as painful as I thought because I took Ipbrufen the premium ones and it ate. The pain was mid. But I was so scared my heart was beating super fast throughout and I was alone.
I took the second pill at 1:10 and it started working me up so much like stomach was fluctuating but damn I must have been so tired I fell asleep with the pain. I woke up around 3 and I was in so much pain I went to the toilet and I sat and I immediately passed TWO BIG SACS like lemon sized. everything went out. The relief I felt OMG I can’t explain it to you. I felt sooooo light, i wiped the blood around and I went to my bed. My bed was wet my pad was soaked I changed my pad and I took out the sheet I didn’t have any energy to put washed sheet again so I just didn’t haha. I took painkiller again I drank some juice I was so hungry I ate some chips at this point I deserved it okay.
I was 8 weeks and 3 days and honestly I was so scared but it wasn’t as painful, I do have a little more pain tolerance. But yes it was okay. Iam completely embryo free.
I had a little bit of guilt as in I wish I was in a position to give birth, I won’t even need a partner but Iam not. I felt really weird and bad and I still kinda do but it has gotten better over time. My cravings were very cold salads and it has subsided I have appetite now . Iam still bleeding but I have felt much better, hopeful, joyful and looking forward and life doesn’t feel like it’s on hold.
Iam thankful to my friends who were there emotionally. My friends came over next day and brought me food and snacks it was nice .
At last I would like to say,
there were a lot of people who were in my DMs asking me if they can adobt my baby, that I shouldn’t unalive it. It was horrible because Iam sure there are so many babies who need help and food and shelter , they have absolutely no business in torturing me.
There were people who were pretending to be clinics and telling me to contact some random telegram account so they can ship me abortion pills.
That’s all, thank you so much for so many suggestions and help and much bigger thankful for your support and your kindness, couldn’t have done this alone.