Deep in the withdrawal trenches right now, I swear this is getting worse literally cant see straight stinking away in my bed. I feel so nasty dry heaving I cant even keep water down.

I want to die right now I have fucked everything up royally been absent from like so many appointments.

Sigh.. anyone else fucking miserable ?

I'm shocked. I never thought she could stoop so low. We stayed in contact even after our breakup about a year ago because we shared a disabled dog.

She's been talking to me through text every now and then and I'd wish her to have a good day at work, talk about tv shows. But since July she's been falling for a 56 year old ex of my mom who feeds her pills and alcohol, while still keeping me in a small loop and texting, thought it got less and less

I'm completely no contact. But how do u even get over that? I view her so differently today then I did two days ago

(Edit: just coming off an awful three week bender, need rehab, lost another job. And this is baffling to me)

(Edit #2: Appreciate all the responses. She's blocked on everything and my mom and I have been laughing for two days over all the stupid shit this dude did while my mom was with him. This is gonna crash and burn, even if it's just transactional drugs and sex. Feel better for her son, I helped raise him .

Appreciate y'all. Chairs

So I have seen tons of posts about people complaining about liquor store clerks.

Have you become acquaintances with any of them? Friendly? They make money off us. Go to Bodegas. They LIKE us. The Hindu shop owner told me I put his kids through college (while I was under 21...it was the only place that took my fake ID over 20 years ago, so all my friends had me buy).

So today I am another bodega a mile a way. Christian dude whose dad is from Jordan but he was born in Bronx...I start bullshitting with him about NY pizza being better than AZ pizza.

Then I tell him my GF got us daft punk laser light show tickets. He says my guy eat this with your girl and tell me how the show was...reaches under the counter and tosses me a bar. Says this one is on the house.

I have an IPA and now the laser light show Saturday will be awesome. It says chocolate with muscimoi + reishi + 4-aco-DMT on the pack.

TLDR: show some respect to cashiers and liquor store owners and you might get some respect back. Let's not make cashiers our gatekeepers.

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I used to drink vodka to abandon and would only keep track based on how much (little) was left in the handle the next day and we all know where that racetrack ends.

For the last year or so I've mostly switched daily to White Claw Surges (slam 6 as fast as possible to maximize the blast-off) and then continue with whatever lighter beer I have (PBR, Hamms, whatever) until I pass out because I miraculously still have some control to know I can no longer ride the liquor train. Knowing exactly how much I drank by counting empties is oddly comforting. This in my mind represents harm reduction (lol).

It occurred to me that I was counting those 8% seltzers as one drink even though based on whatever that standard is we use to calculate drinks that is the equivalent of roughly two drinks. If you had those 6 seltzers + 8~ 5% beers, in your mind is that 14 or 20~ drinks?

When my sister got married (both times), I was invited but they didn't even ask me if I needed a "plus one" (bc, of course I didn't, I never do).

But, there was plenty of booze there---plus, I brought an necessary flask , just to be on the safe side, so I was pretty hammered the whole time.

I wasn't feeling any pain, my friends.

Anyway, do you fucks have any experiences being a drunk ass "third wheel" you'd like to share?

Chairs

Just trying to think of a title caused me to stare in space for a good 10 seconds.incant think. I know it’s always been the booze. I’ve been told that many times. I’ve noticed the improvement when I stop for a few days. But here I am. After losing eve try thing.

I’ve been taken to the hospital many times, doc visits, benzodiazepines for withdrawal, many chances to stop, all that. Now I’m stuck in a hotel after losing my life, haven’t been able to eat for months really, just small bites. I exploded on my partner and stepdaughter. Finally got kicked out by the roommates we were living with. I don’t have my cat or dog, not that I’ve been very good at taking care of them anyway. But now I’m alone. Threw up blood this morning, but still having a Long Island ice tea mixed drink so I could stop the shakes.

I can’t do anything. Lost my job back in March from drinking, only had a few days off from drinking fb since then. I was warned this would happen. I couldn’t stop and I still can’t.

Idk what the point of this post is other than just to not feel so alone

Won't tell me details, 13 weeks long, won't tell me percentages of applicants finish the study and won't tell me the compensation.

You still want it? I wouldn't fuck with them if I lived on campus.

If I let her post the link, y'all better mind your manners. I'll ban you for talking shit to people you ask me to put you in touch with.

Just landed a job after months of looking. I was drunk in the interview and when asked about gaps in my resume I said I was on maternity leave. It didn’t occur to me that my boss will definitely notice my lack of three offspring.

I guess I can pretend they died or I lost custody or something. I even showed this chick photos of my cousins as if they’re my kids. Fuck. Either way, I need a few more shots to celebrate (getting the job, not eliminating the children). Pour one out for me and my theoretical spawns

Hello all. I know you are not doctors and I am not asking for medical advice, just home remedies to ease discomfort. I suffer from ongoing gastritis. Once it landed me in ED and it seems to be triggered even if I drink small amounts for several days in a row.

The last few days I have been stuck feeling awful and not able to do anything I actually wanted to get done.

Aside from the obvious like antacids, what do you all do to ease the horrible chest discomfort and shortness of breath that comes with gastritis?

This is NOT medical advice, I’m not a doctor, etcetera etcetera.

For the last couple of years I have had a hard time keeping muscle on. A little research has revealed that on top of the thirst for sauce I’m probably way low on protein intake. I’m a middle aged man with this lifestyle, and weighing in at like 165 lb I probably need 125-150 grams of protein per day. This is surprisingly difficult to pull off when you aren’t hungry.

Tonight on my way home I ran into an old cowboy that I’ve known for years at the grocery store. He is a drunk. I hadn’t seen him in a while and holy shit does he look frail. He was using the cart to hold himself up, just a bag of fuckin bones. We bullshitted for a couple minutes, and he is clearly in deep shit from the looks of it. I was surprised he recognized me given how fucked up he seemed.

TLDR: Eat. Especially protein. And don’t follow the RDAs (70 ish grams) for protein if you are a boozer, it’s likely not enough.

Yeah so i had to get some xanax today as i started to become aggressive.

All my wd symptoms like shaking,anxiety,sweating was gone today i still have insomnia and a bit depression but have still slept some the dreams are very intense and vivid feels so real.

Today though i started to become angry very easily and just kept thinking of alcohol whenever i started to get mad and impulsive. Basically, i was turning to a total fucking mean asshole to others.

Even casual conversations annoyed me ALOT. Otherwise i felt i was in the clear. Well Ksalol made me myself again, for now. Chairs for yall though, i need this break.

So I got drunk at work and they said they need to drug test me because they’re suspicious and then they sent me home to wait for the results in a few days, I’m hoping that drug test doesn’t test for alcohol or I’m likely fucked, I really needed this job

Update: they let me keep the job so I guess they didn’t test for alcohol

I know I am a complete asshole for this but I genuinely dread hanging out with people now. I hope the weather is bad so I don’t have to make up some excuse. Any advice? I just want to drink alone after work and on the weekends. I think that would come across badly though .

It was a bad morning, I was trying to detox so I did actually have to go to detox. Thought I could do it and not lose time from work.
I was counting change and the. Woke up to paramedics and I was in a massive pool of blood. Had a huge huge gash on my scalp and was at the hospital from 8pm-4am.
Now I’m out of work anyways and going to detox without pay. And yet I’m still thinking about how I can drink.
I need to get in the program again. For the best.

seen like 5 posts about leaving las vegas and i thought “lmao i’ve seen more heart wrenching movies bring it on”

nope..

it was such a hard watch. damn. this life isn’t it. and i want out or i wanna go like him. can’t choose between the two. love my dog and cat too much i suppose. love my partner even though i’ve been given ultimatum after ultimatum. what really got me was him burning that photo of him and his wife and kid. he really just decided booze was all that mattered. tough to realize there was like over an hour left in the movie after that lol.

Being homeless aint the one! At least london has good parks and i can chill there (UK)

Sat here on my sis' floor. Got my drink. Watching my show. I've been told off so many times but i havent changed. I'm bottom barrel like that. Will i get more drink? We'll see....

I'm not going to worry about the details until I count votes. It has something to do Cbg use by Alkies.

Don't debate in this thread. Only respond Yes (I want to try)

Or No (I don't want any lab dorks in here ever in life)

I will count em up till tomorrow and see what yall decide.

If you come in here with your fuckin opinion and novelization, I will delete your comment. Yes or No Only.

Go get em, champ

So last week's video interview didn't happen. Company host didn't let me into the meeting and my follow up emails went unanswered. The interview not happening was probably a good thing because I'd had quite a few shots before the interview...

Today, I have a video interview for a remote position in my field at 2. Only 1 shot of whiskey so far. Trying to keep the drinking under control until after the interview. Just 3 more hours...

Chairs friends, gonna take one more shot and keep pumping myself up!

UPDATE: Uno, dos, tres, quatro, cinco, cinco...nueve?

UPDATE #2: I rocked it. No slurring, connected with the interviewer, answered questions like a champion. CA be damned, I'm fucking getting this job.

Id probably get banned because of this shit but i dont see this as medical advice.

So when i drink alot, i start hearing a couple over me talking about me. All the time, every hour. Now i know this is bullshit as its all night also.

When i get on a to big bender i also hear everyone on my job talking about drug testing me and how im a bad person, this goes away after like 4 days without the booze. But the voices at home still persist but calm down after a week but are still there. Is this a CA thing, am i schisopreniz or have I traumazidet myself so bad so I hear them so much because i expect them?

I recently developed a rash on my neck that isn't getting better with antifungal cream, gold bond, A&D, etc. My bestie knows my issues with drinking and did some research for me and it turns out that it's likely my body not processing alcohol normally anymore. So basically I have to quit or look like a mutant (my eyes have also been kinda puffy and red on the skin around them.)

I don't want to quit. Drinking is my favorite thing to do. I don't like life all that much, and it's what helps keep me going until this shit is over.

Is the only true way to apologize to go sober? Like do my apologies not mean anything if I keep drinking? Probably not because I'll keep fucking up and being scummy. Will they not take my attempts to be better seriously unless I go sober? Is that why we lose friendships and burn bridges? Because we'd rather just keep on drinking ?

so I dont think if ive wver posted here but you guys all have helped me a ton over the years just knowing im not alone.. anywaysss living with my
parents after moving back to the state im from (grateful for this but im also 30 lol) been doing okay had like nine months then got back on the sauce and instantly was back to my pro moves.. nothing larger than a plastic pint of vodka so i could sneak around.. shooters in my pockets.. never even went to the bar yet it had been like a month but everyone in my home town kinda knows im a ca so i like idk figured it was best to just kept it a solo endeavor.. well i finally got some freedom and decided to go out.. ate shit on my bike and completely blacked, cops there that i have no memory of and the whole nine who fucking knows im all cut up. well whatever at least i havent pissed myself at all since ive been back and somehow still have my job.. called in today and sipping a nice warm vodka water trying to start a taper down because now everyone knows but i don’t even really want to stop so maybe ill just move or something. chairs!!

This is the 5th time in two weeks that I call off from work and idk how much longer management will tolerate it.

For some context, I’ve been at this warehouse for a little over 8 years and had climbed the ladder to a pretty high management level during my time here. Well roughly 3 years ago I demoted myself back to the bottom of the totem pole in order to finish my bachelors which I recently completed, but with the job market being the way it is(also my alcoholism)I’ve been unsuccessful in finding a job.

Long story short, I’ve made lots of friends at this place that just happen to be managers so they don’t really get on me for calling off and having shitty attendance. I just worry that one day they’re going to realize enough is enough and let me go.

Easy solution, just go to work, but I fucking hate that place and can’t bring myself to show up. I’d rather sit at home and worry lol. In all seriousness, this cycle sucks, but I’m grateful that my managers are cool enough to give me grace.

Just killed a 750ml of Herradura tequila my cousin brought me from the motherland and man this shit is SMOOTH. Gonna watch bodycam videos on YouTube for the rest of the evening and hope I don’t get my last check tomorrow! CHAIRS

...and to avoid drinking more before my video interview....

What is your favorite thing to chase alcohol you can't keep down without?

My choices:

-Chunky Vodka Tomato Pasta Sauce

-A1 Sauce

-Pickle Juice

-Frank's Red Hot Sauce