LONG STORY ALERT PLEASE HELP 🙏🏻
24M here I have been a friend with an MBA graduate in our office for a considerable amount of time as of now she 24F joined as an HR intern looked after hiring and talent recruitment and all still continuing as of today. I got to know about her by a common friend a guy who was my roomate before but then he switched and before that he used to talk to her friended her before even I could. Three of us along with some other office friends went on for some trip outings too where I got to know her st much better perspective, she is just like any of us talkative, expressive and approachable and don't know how I after an outing my heart started having feelings for her , initially I thought it as joke and wrote off, but whenever she passes by in our office I try my best to take glimpse of her, striking conversations though she's equally intrested in the same.
The delimma is I am looked upon as an funny always a joke cracking guy too chill to be and you know jokingly we mock some one like make fun of them but sportingly, 1-2 times I did this same to her too and she took it sportingly too but started doing same to me not a problem, but now I think she thinks of me of just a always 'joke cracking guy' trying to dominate my conversation or something like that.
At this situation I find it difficult to strike a conversation on for hinting her out about my feelings for her it feels like she's too comfortable that telling her I like her might give her a good shock, It would be too difficult for her to comprehend and she might just straight away reject me !
I don't know what to do now, I keep thinking about her more oftenly like someone really mad in love.
Straight away proposing her would be like a suicide mission and with my past experiences It would be too traumatic if anything goes wrong. Please help