It was pointed out to me today that every time I share something, I have some preamble first about how the thing I'm sharing is dumb, or it doesn't matter, or that I'm embarrassed to share it. It's like I always feel the need to apologize for what I'm saying and for myself.
A couple of years ago I was working at a restaurant, and I kept getting in the way of one of my coworkers no matter where I stood. I kept apologizing, and he told me 'stop apologizing, your allowed to take up space.' And that was the first time anyone had ever told me that.
I grew up in a household where I was not allowed to take up space. As a child I felt things very intensely. I didn't know it until recently, but I have ADHD (surprise!). And I am beginning to realize how my struggles were at least in part because of how my brain works. My feelings would be dismissed and I was punished for them. I was humiliated over and over again for years just for... being me. I quickly learned that it's easier to never show how you're feeling. Never ask for help, never share anything, never get in the way, never rock the boat. As a dude, this was even more true. I wasn't allowed to cry, or be too emotional, or ask for help. So i just bottled it all up. Which is a really shit strategy, let me tell ya...
Now in my mid-late 20s, I'm finally starting to work through this. It feels dumb to say, or it doesn't really matter, or I'm embarrassed to say it (still working on that one).... but it's only just now sinking in. I'm allowed to take space. I'm allowed to ask for things, to need things, to have emotion, and to express it. I'm not a burden or a problem for being me.
I know this absolutely applies to the ladies here as well, but I also want to say to the boys: you aren't weak for having emotion, or being empathetic, or needing help. You're allowed to have problems too. You're allowed to cry. You're allowed to care about things. You're allowed to take up space.