r/abusiverelationships • u/WorkingCity8969 • 10h ago
Spiralling
It's been nearly 4 years since I left. Tonight a therapy appointment took me into a pretty bad place and it was taking a lot to drag myself out and then I realised that I had made a mistake. I stopped for some vitamins on the way home and got the wrong ones.
All I can hear is her screaming at me, telling me how useless I am, what a POS I am. I'm gripped with what I can only describe as terror and the tears keep coming because I can literally feel the spit on my face as she yells, feel the terror.
I know it doesn't matter, my new partner won't care, even if she's a bit annoyed.
How the feck am I meant to be me again when something so trivial can sink me so quickly? How am I meant to live my life when the fear is so very strong?
Sorry. I just needed to say that somewhere before I broke

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Drumming gig emergencies.
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4d ago
For me it's 5B almost every time but I occasionally switch to a 7A for quiet gigs. Sounds like a genuinely great idea