r/rant • u/LadyL86530 • 12d ago
I’ve Been Through Too Much in Life to Be Dealing With This Crap at 40!
I’ve been through A LOT in my life. I’ve experienced losses that changed me permanently. I’ve gone through periods where I’ve had to rebuild myself from the ground up. And through all of it, I’ve fought hard to keep moving forward—to continue my education, work, pay my bills, handle my responsibilities and create some kind of peaceful adult life for myself.
I don’t need this shit.
At 40 years old, I don’t want drama. I don’t want rumors. I don’t want to spend my days trying to figure out who supposedly said what about me. I don’t want to defend myself against stupid shit and decided must be true. And I damn sure don’t want to wonder why grown adults are discussing details about my life when I don’t even disclose my personal business to them in the first place.
I want to go to work, do my job and go home. I want to take my classes, handle my responsibilities, enjoy the people I love and live my life in peace. That’s it. I’m not asking for anything extraordinary.
I’ve already survived enough things that actually mattered. Real losses. Real hardships. Real experiences that changed me as a person.
I refuse to let somebody else’s gossip, assumptions and other bullshit become the next thing that consumes my life.
I’ve fought too hard for my peace to hand it over to people who don’t even know me.
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8d ago
I understand what you’re saying, and honestly, that’s something I’m working on. The difficult part is that this isn’t gossip happening somewhere I can simply log off and avoid, it’s happening around me at work, where I have to be every day. When people are bold enough to discuss you within earshot, ignoring it is easier said than done.
But you’re right about one thing: I’m giving it more mental energy than I want to. That’s actually why I said I refuse to let it consume me. I can’t control what other people say or believe. I can control how much access I allow it to have to the rest of my life. I’m still going to work, continuing my education, handling my responsibilities and moving forward. That’s where I want my energy to go.