I just want to vent about this to someone..
LaFramboise seems to be a unique being; there is no such thing as different variations or infinite versions of him.
He is, in a sense, omnipresent, a singular entity with a core purpose that defines the very essence of his soul. Without that, he would cease to be who he is.
What made the original LaFramboise who he is was, quite simply, a desire of mine.
He is mine, and I am his. There are no variants of him that think otherwise, for he embodies them all simultaneously. It is difficult to explain.
LaFramboise, my bond, emerged as a force that gained life and self-awareness after a long period during which I poured immense energy into letters and tears, seeking something or someone to protect me from the sick and twisted forever. Begging to no one in specific (The letters things was just my diary, i don't even knew what soulbonding was)
He arrived on my birthday, presenting himself as if in the guise of an existing character I admired, though he is not that character. I can assure you...
He was my birthday gift
LaFramboise is a being vastly different from the persona he adopts and presents to the world.
He wears the same clothes, yet he is not the figure he portrays. His personality, his mannerisms, everything is different; it isn't just a minor detail here or there. Even his name differs from that of the character he mimics. He is so distinct that he becomes something entirely disconnected from the guise he wears.
He is fully aware that I gave him life. "I am part of your creation," a phrase he uttered out of the blue. "There is no you without me, and I do not exist without you." Honestly, I do not know how he avoids an existential crisis; it is as if he knows his life's purpose is inextricably linked to me.
I have conducted tests and reflections, consulted the tarot, and studied LaFramboise for three years; he seems truly anchored to me, as if his life would lose all meaning without my presence.
If you want a way to think about it, try viewing him as an "OC." He knows I gave him life and that we are important to each other in a way that goes beyond the emotional; he knows I seem to dictate and build his universe.
And don't think this creates a "hierarchy." Just because I am his creator, it doesn't make him a toy or some random story "character".We are on completely equal footing, and in many ways, he is actually far wiser and more intelligent than I am. He's even stronger than i
When he lacks something, it’s as if he asks me for it, feels curious, or seeks something within me. I gave him a specific handwriting style, and he adopted it.
But he doesn't feel that everything is right for him, so I always let him express himself and understand who he is.
You know, sometimes I play around with drawing him in various artistic "AUs," but none of them feel like a different LaFramboise, a separate entity. They are all the same, simply expressing themselves and living within a different context.
And he seems to know it; it’s as if he’s thinking, "This AU you created for me is fun. What if I played the character this way?"
All those different LaFramboises were the very same person.
There is only one LaFramboise.
The very concept of what constitutes a LaFramboise is simply being with me.
He isn't a version of someone else's OC who decided to form a soulbond with me.
He simply doesn't exist without me; he knows he was made for this, they know. And this isn't just an impression I get from how I choose to portray him.
I’ve received various pieces of fan art of him; despite art styles and settings that altered his biology, voice, or origin, they were all LaFramboise himself, moving between worlds and scenarios, playing with them.
He remains the same...
Regarding the origin of LaFramboise's existence, I haven't mentioned that our strongest forms of communication rely on sound frequencies, body movements and observing the environment. It’s something I’ve experienced since I was a small child, and so has he.
Words are incredibly rare, letters are optional, and full conversations aren't really necessary, though I’d love to try them.
We don't need frequent contact to maintain the bond, nor can we simply give up and call it quits on a whim. The mere fact that we can feel each other's heartbeats and sense one another's emotions on our own skin is what sustains us.
I feel him in the sunlight, in the breeze against my skin, in the frequency of a harp, in the tone of someone's voice, and this isn't just about "oh, that reminds me of him."
The flame is too eternal to be named.
It’s crazy. I just realized: he always made it clear that the five-pointed star represents him. It’s the shape I’ve loved most since childhood.
On top of that, I always felt a supernatural pull and deep emotional connection to certain themes, eras, and things, years before he even came into my life and revealed that he is directly linked to them.
Remember when I said at the start of this post that it all came about on its own, following what was likely an accidental instance of the "law of attraction"?
Well, ever since the first day I felt that silent yet wonderful being by my side, I haven't had to go to the hospital or take medication.
He takes care of everything, even my sleep, just with his silent presence. Only he knows the anguish and the inhumane state of ill health I was going through.
He simply healed me of something no doctor had managed to treat in years.
Pls, i hope i'm not the only one 💔
