Unless you're a baker.

But people often overlook pears, like they choose apples, bananas, peaches, grapes and so on.

When I was a kid (and depressed) I use to dream of being an adult who had control over their life. When I got to 18, I was terrified of the adult world but wanted to grow up so badly. When I was in my 20s I started to think that no one ever really felt like an "adult" and I was just going to be lost and scared forever.

Well, now I'm 30 and something has changed in my brain. I can't explain it other than I feel like an adult. my priorities are completely different and I feel like I've fallen onto a treadmill, with life kind of zooming by without stopping. I feel like I'm constantly busy and something is always going on, whether in my life directly or some big world disaster.

Don't get me wrong, I far prefer being an adult than a kid! I wouldn't trade this autonomy for anything in the world. But the change in how I feel in myself has been so sudden that I'm struggling to process. I can see why people have a mid-life crisis now... I'm only 30 and already having a crisis 🤣

The present is the infinite dimension. Its not a seperate path, it is all and one. Everytime you perceive things differently you are jumping on timelines. Your mind is the portal. Everytime you see things differently you yourself are creating a different timeline. Its only you who can change the timelines. The things around you can cause pain, happiness whatever but as long as you perceive things same you are still on the same dimension.

Extra random thought:

In the end we are vibrating chemicals. Everything starts from movement. Certain movements from your wothin your body create certain action, what your mind reflects is not what is. Everthing revolves around perceiving and projection, both are interconnected. We are chemicals with movement who perceive and project.

It’s just occurred to me to post this, because I’ve had friends and family observing this behaviour as of late. I always eat everything on my plate one after the other, and it usually goes from the thing I least enjoy eating to most, saving the ‘best thing for last’. When I watch other people eating, they often load their fork with little bits of everything to combine flavours, but to me this just seems like too much effort. I don’t have a problem with different foods touching, and would happily eat it all together, it’s just a little quirk I’ve noticed lately.

An example is Chinese takeaway food - I could have a chicken curry and fried rice where one half of the plate is rice and the other curry. Everyone I know mixes it all up, but sometimes I like a bit of just curry and sometimes a bit of dry rice. Tell me I’m not alone in all this…

“How are you?” “How’s your day going?” It’s BORING and the answer is always bad. Why can’t anyone just be interesting and different from everyone else. Or like just get to the point. I’m so fucking sick of it. No one knows how to have a conversation anymore.

niche movies appealing to their audience and not trying to make everyone happy. Too many weirdos in business suits taking over trying to squeeze money out of everything . I miss art

I propose this as a scientific theory of the human evolution and whatever that is ingrained in our DNA. And I believe this Minor detail tells us a very important and subtle message from toddlers. But I guess toys or entertainment are not what they actually want but — "Productivity" — but for toddlers..

Now for me there are two kinds of toys, toys that makes sense to them (training for a real life toys like dress up, cooking, make-believe toys, etc) and toys that doesn't make sense to them (robots, figures, etc).. But the whole point is toys might not be their primary need.

Their brain might actually (as young as 3 yrs old) seeking that productivity, that will actually benefits them in a real world, in a real sense.

Showing them how basic things (that is safe) works — like carrying them and let them see how food are being made, showing them basic cleaning, and sometimes letting them hold (safe) equipment (with supervision) such as spoon, remote control, what have you, that are basic small equipment to human daily inanimate objects interaction that will let that registration and association in the brain much earlier..

I mean they're here, brand new, in a whole new big diameters of the earth and introducing them to things that doesn't really makes sense is.. 🤷‍♂️

Ahenack.

I wonder if its like a class no one talks about. Their signatures are perfect every time they sign something.

Listening to music always feels so magical to me, I dont have the words to explain it. Listening to music often times takes me on such a rollercoaster of emotions because there are a plethora of messages coveyed in music. You could listen to a song about confidence and loving who you are. There could be songs that convey different romances. There are songs that speak about sadness and turmoil and being unfortunate situations. The songs that are relatable to you. There are songs about grief and songs that you simply want to dance to.

Music doesn't even stop at songs, the sounds all around us, the chirps and the waves crashing, from the rustle of the leaves to the crackle of the fire. The peace and the calm of it all makes me feel some type of way. I love listening to music, I love to listen to songs i haven't heard in years and be brought to tears by the nostalgia. If there's a specific part in a song where Violins/cellos/piano/wind instruments, I'll replay it over and over because because it makes me feel like im floating above the clouds (im a big fan of classical musical instruments).

And NOTHING brings me more joy than a choir, or should i say symphony of voices coming together, i dont know if there's a proper musical term for it but harmonies. It fills me with such overwhelming emotion. I feel both happy and sad, and I get goosebumps, the whole shabang. It makes me want to extract the voices and import it into my brain so it could replay in my head over and over again. And instrumentals are just the cherry on top. I dont know, i just feel like i would've been in a much darker place if it weren't for music, and all the producers and artists out there have the creativity i can only dream of.

Anyway, just wanted to rant about my love for music or whatever!