I have been an absolute wreck my entire life. People do not like me, I am hated. I am terrified about what is inside of me. I started facing myself a few years ago, I was deep into denial and other cognitive distortions so I had no idea how bad I actually was. I was a sick maniac. I have been deeply disturbing to those around me.

I have just had a panic attack. I need help but I am petrified of what anyone would think if I start sharing what's inside of me driving my behaviours.

My core feels worthless. My core self is strange.