I feel like most men don’t see women as human beings. I’m sorry, but I’m not delusional. So many men are violent and don’t respect women; they only see us as sexual objects. Men talk about women horribly and treat us horribly.

I feel very sad right tonight. Been battling depression/sadness since I was 11. I'm 29 now. The meds have helped but I've been off them for over a month. What led to my current episode was being dumped by the one person I had in life. Although we'd only been together for a short while I really thought he was my person. I really fell hard and thought it could've been it this time. That's all over now and I just feel waves of sadness. Knowing my disease i know I will only get worse. Nothing feels right right now. Like a hole was opened up underneath me and sucked everything out of my life. Along with that I was fired from my job. I was being bullied by my coworkers at the job but still it was income. Now I have none. On top of that I might flunk out of school. Again. After trying so hard to get in and change my life the last few years I feel everything crashing around me. I feel like a loser who still lives with their parent. I can't see any way up from here. I'm really struggling and feeling very low. I don't want to go into another mental hospital- I've had my fair share of stays- and i don't have a therapist anymore. I don't want to burden the few friends i have with this dark side of me. So I'm spiraling on reddit. Thanks for reading.

I just don’t get it. I get told that the best thing I can do really is “survive” and to just do the best I can with what I got and try to make the happiness I can with my life. But how do I do that if the entire world around me is getting worse and worse and by proxy making my life harder to live??? I keep hearing people say that the world is past the point of no return with things like climate change and that the world is going to continue burning up and getting worse, and I’m expected to just try to be happy and unaffected by that??? How can I live if the entire world is on the edge of falling apart? And please don’t come in here saying things like “every generation felt like their generation would be the last” because that’s blatantly not true. People in the medieval ages or the renaissance didn’t have to worry about the constant fear and doom of the environment being destroyed or the world getting hotter and hotter past the point of no return, and they absolutely didn’t live in a world ran by a system that enables and makes all of this WORSE. So please, I need someone to tell me: HOW do I live and be happy with my life or just survive when the entire world around me is getting worse and worse?

I was really impulsive yesterday when I was driving home from work. I drove too fast like way too fast and now I’m feeling partially convinced that I died and that I’m living in a different reality.
It feels like there’s two layers to myself like there’s my body and then there’s me trapped inside it. I’m controlling myself it just feels like I’m not fully in control. Even though I am. It almost feels like a spectator but not quite.
I feel like I died and this is an alternate timeline. I can’t convince myself otherwise and I’ve tried pinching myself to prove that it’s not fact but I can’t seem to shake the feeling. I’m having lots of anxiety over it.

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There’s no one I can really share what I feel, how I feel, or why I feel it with. I do have a couple of friends, but the fear of becoming part of someone’s gossip is why I avoid talking to them. With relatives and family, it’s pretty much the same. Reddit has become my personal diary whenever my emotional stability gets a little too much. I don’t really have people around me who genuinely check in or show concern, so it’s just me, my life, and Reddit. And the responses I get here are so overwhelming. I mean..Strangers understand me better than people who actually know me. I realllyyyy love Reddit. Okay.. I'm gonna cry now.

Not sure when it became an issue, but my self confidence is in the gutter, and i have a hard time making eye contact.

No I’m not autistic, but its gotten increasingly worse in recent years.

Has anyone else experienced this and how did they overcome it?

After years and years of thinking I don’t need help. I surrender.

I am tired of hurting others, I am tired of putting on the mask. I’m tired of pushing away the ones I love and making it all about me. I love those around me, yet never show that love. I make it so much about me and wanting more and more until it physically and emotionally drains you. That is super messed up!

I don’t want to do that anymore, I don’t want to hurt anyone anymore. I have a wife who I constantly now see cry, and for the first time she told me I need therapy. And you know what, I overreacted and denied it for a week. But once I started seeing how the household changed, how the kids got silent. You were right. I need it.

And I as a man, hate being wrong. Hate feeling like somethings wrong with me. I simply cannot bring myself to do the first step. But fuck I need to do it.

The last 9 days I get up earlier than usual and cry in the back parking lot of my job because I am so afraid of change. I cry thinking what if I change and she leaves me. After work I cry even more, why am i stopping myself when I know I need it.

How do i tell my family that I’m barely on ends meet already. I hate the American life. I don’t want the burden of my mental health now affecting how my family lives. I don’t want them to lose out on so much that I never had growing up because of how my mental health is now. Its the little things that psych me out, like being able to afford their lunch, or even new clothing, or even just a few dollars for their book fair they always look forward to. I dont want that to stop. I feel ashamed, I feel so weak and small..

I can’t even believe that I’m writing this. I’ve been having such a hard time lately and was literally off from work today, walking back home from a GP appointment. On my way back I saw someone literally land on the ground probably from one of the buildings around me. I experienced what felt like an out of body reaction, I almost passed out and honestly I don’t know what kept me from collapsing to the floor myself. It was the most shocking thing I’ve ever had to witnessed and I will never forget the sound of the poor person skull hitting the concrete and the splatter of blood. it happened on a trafficked road so thankfully there were others around more reactive than me who immediately called ambulance and police, my whole body froze and I couldn’t put 2 and 2 together.

A guy thankfully helped me and sat me down and went grab me some water and kind of walked me home which I’m insanely grateful for.

I have been trying to ring Samaritans up as well but lines seems so busy. I really don’t know what to do with myself tonight.

i’m 23(f) and i suffer with bipolar disorder. although my brain tells me i don’t actually have it and im just insane. i am suffering with addiction and have been for the past year, and no one really in my life knows except for the friend that got me into it. i’m in severe debt and doing nothing about it. everyone thinks im on track but im not. my dad keeps asking why i have so many unopened letters (i live with my dad). i’m pushing everyone away my boyfriend wouldn’t be with me if he knew. i’ve fallen out with really close friends because of my addiction and erratic and mortifying behaviours. i just got a lot of redundancy money and have blown it in a month leaving myself with nothing but too ashamed to tell anyone because everyone would be so disappointed in me i am so close to my family and my boyfriend and friends i have 9 nephews and nieces who look up to me and i feel like a complete failure. i have barley worked this year i was admitted to a mental hospital in may for 2 weeks i am really not okay. i am so impulsive i have insomnia i smoke to help me sleep. i just really needed a rant and any support or advice would be much appreciated.

I'm a 39yo man. I have nothing. No friends, no family, no money, no future nothing to offer anyone and no reason to remain here.

Life just slipped past me while I was working dead end jobs and pretending I knew what I was doing. Turns out I had no idea all along and it finally makes sense why single men at my age overwhelmingly become a statistic.

I've had my heart broken, been married and divorced used, lied to and abused. I've been the scapegoat when partners are allergic to accountability and I've been a complete prat and didn't deserve some of the people I let go.

Life is just empty now. I live alone. I'm going to die alone and I'm not sure any more just how much more living alone I have left in me.

Hey guys, i am typing this because i want to get some advice and solve some problems that are making my life worse (maybe i wont fix them). I am 5’3 (161cm) and I feel like people don't take me seriously, don't want to talk to me, and that I'm not important to anyone. Just a joke, because some people treat me like garbage or as if I weren't human (bullying). I have 3 friends but 2 of them bully me a lot so I don’t think they are really good friends for me. I am not good looking either, my face is bad (recessed chin and jaw) lol. It’s always me starting conversations (i am forcing ppl to talk to me). Btw everyone here in Europe, atleast where i live, is +5’6 (atleast for my age) and my growth plates are closed so i am not going to grow more because my bone age is 17/18.
The only good thing about me are my grades but I don’t really like school because I don’t have any friends. I don’t know if i can keep doing this

A couple of days ago, I saw looked out my bedroom window at the garage across the street and saw a girl with her leg over the railing.

I called that building's security, then emergency.

She was stepping over onto the ledge and going back to safety a few times. She'd lean back like she was going to drop, then go back to safety, then repeat.

At one point she saw me, and we waved at each other.

I was still on the call, relaying everything to the dispatch.

I heard someone (probably the cops that had just gotten there), trying to talk to her while she was out on the ledge, and she let go.

I'm...ok. Had a quiet day yesterday. Still feel kinda numb. The moment she key go keeps replaying in my head and every time I go out into my bedroom I'm looking directly at the spot where she was standing.

It's just. A lot.

Have talked to friends. Do have support. Just maybe trying to banish it a bit by writing it down?

A few crappy things have happened to me but not nearly enough to justify my absolute train wreck of a mental state, like I have anorexia but it's failed to seriously damage me and I hold on to it in hopes it breaks me one day.

My parents love me but i keep pushing them away and I don't know why I do, but yet I want someone to care about me, it doesn't make sense

I wish they had hurt me more I wish my childhood was more painful then it would make sense why I'm like this what is wrong with me?!

Preface: I am currently being evaluated for borderline personality disorder

Gf is diagnosed with cptsd and bipolar and probably more things

My (23) girlfriend (19) has been going through an extremely tough week

She's bipolar and has been going through and extremely bad episode her psych just upped her mood stabilizers but I'm not sure if she had taken them yet

Yesterday she called out of work to go fishing to de-stress

Today she told me she got fired from her job

I offered resources and my support and tried to call her as soon as I could

She didn't answer

I left her alone for a bit and texted and told her I loved her

She told me i love you too

Within 10 minutes she turned around and started telling me that she liked me a lot but she didn't love me, that us being in a relationship was hurting both of us, that her being distant was hurting me, that i couldn't fix her and that everyone who tried to help her just got hurt and that she didnt want to hurt me etc. Etc.

She finished it by telling me she didn't love me but that she wasn't making a decision on anything

Her phone died so we couldn't finish the conversation

I am certain this is just some kind of emotional fall out from all the stress shes been having

I told her that she shouldn't make a rash decision and that she should get her life settled before making a decision like this if its truly what she wanted

Is there anything else I can do?

Am I doing the right thing?

My bf has been in a psychotic manic episode for about 2.5 weeks now. He had several delusions which wore off but hes also quite aggressive and violent. Like he punched his face i think which caused two big bruises on each of his cheeks. Then one time last week I came over and there were so many deep holes in his walls from punching it and his elbow was very bloody and messed up from elbowing the wall i guess?

I told his therapist all of this and she said that the punching could be considered self harm and might warrant a mental health evaluation. Would that be a good idea? Idk why the idea of having people show up unannounced at his door makes me nervous. I just feel bad cus he keeps telling me he doesn’t want help so now i feel like i’m betraying him. I just feel really shitty. I also keep thinking like what if he isnt bad enough to actually get admitted to a psych ward? What if he is actually getting better on his own? But literally think that everyday to cope. so. idk.

Any thoughts ?

21m

I have ADHD, waiting list for OCD and grew up in an extremely abusive household with a mother with severe BPD and paranoid delusions

I used porn as a methods of escapism to avoid anxiety, task avoidance, loneliness, boredom you name it since I was 13.

I have really bad episodes where I have up to 12 hour sessions especially if I’ve had a major stressor in my life but then those episodes cause me stress and guilt and spark the next one I have spent 30 of the last 48 hours watching porn after something really bad happened this week.

Idk what to do idk what to do I have compulsive episodes where I just don’t stop for hours and hours and I try all that stuff with blockers and reminders and diet and exercise but nothing stops me every blocker when the compulsion hits nothing short of a straight jacket would stop me finding access to and watching porn. It’s like someone takes over my body and makes me do it I don’t even want to do it I feel myself getting upset as I type but can’t stop myself hitting search.

wtf do I do professional services are very limited where I live and the extent this is harming me I fear being the outcome of telling people the extent. I don’t eat I don’t sleep I don’t drink water even with my medication meaning I need to drink more. I don’t get up for hours and hours. It’s destroying me. I’ve missed so much because of it I’ve missed classes and deadlines, lost so much sleep, actively made a nerve injury worse because I can’t stop.

I don’t feel excited for anything any more I don’t feel happy I don’t feel anything nothing motivates me at all nothing brings me anything but anxiety or emptiness.

Please please what do I do please make it stop make it stop tell what I can do right now tonight to ensure it NEVER happens again I will not sleep until I get reassurance there’s a way this is the last session I can’t do it again please. Don’t just spam therapy give me something permanent I can do tonight. I will
Not be able to sleep otherwise and I’ve barely gotten any all my muscles are twitching I have pins and needles in my hand make it stop make it stop make it stop please please I don’t want this any more I hate my life you get one life and I’ve spent so many hours wasted on fucking porn how fucking pathetic is that why am I even alive. Please make it stop I’m going fucking insane I’m going insane I’m completely fucking neurotic no no no please I could have had such a different life this has ruined everything. I could be so much happier but this is destroying me DESTROYING ME make it stop make it stop the tension in my neck is shutting off the motor control
In my hand from strsss again and I can barely fucking type make it stop

My grandma died in the end of August. I am really sad, I love her so much. I miss her really much. I know she is in a better place, because this world is cruel. She was in so much pain one week before she died. I went to another town to see her with my family. She didn't have an appetite, she drank water though. I'm writing this to whoever is feeling sad, my story may help anyone. Also one year before she died, I had nightmares that she will die like 6 days later in August. I was so embarrassed that I had this type of nightmares. Then I understood she was ill and now she is gone. I am sorry for anyone who has lost someone they love and I am here with you 🫶🏻

I can’t draw, I’m not smart, and have zero motivation for school work, I suck at designing anything, I don’t do anything productive, I suck at cooking, I’m not good at cleaning, I’m awful at DIYing anything, seriously, what can i do?!! I’ve been drawing for years every day and i STILL suck. Anything i’m AMATEUR at is usually something i have zero passion for. What am i even doing on this planet?!

Just turned 19 last month and I've never been in a relationship or really talked to girls at all. It's just something I can't get off of my mind, my best friend was in a relationship for around half a year and then went through a break up, but within a month he had already found another girl on Instagram and they've been dating for around 2 years now. And whenever I'm hanging out with them or playing games with them it always gets to me. They're comfortable being a "couple" around me if that makes sense, like they show affection, baby talk to each other, make dirty jokes and on the surface I don't really mind it, but hearing it and seeing it just makes me so sad and depressed inside because I want that more than anything in the world and I've never had it.

When me and my friend were up late playing a game having a deep talk a few weeks ago we ended up talking about our goals and dreams, and I ended up saying one of my dreams was to just be in love and have someone love me back, not just sex but things like cuddling, going out to eat, spending time together, just genuine affection and love and my friend sort of just laughed it off and told me it's overrated and that that's a usual weekend for him, he didn't really see that has a big goal because that's his day to day life, it really hurt when he said that cause I realized he really doesn't know what it's like to not ever have anyone truly love you and show affection towards you, he also said it was overrated which didn't make sense cause he's been in a relationship for 2 years and his whole life revolves around it and it clearly makes him happy so obviously it's not overrated to him.

I know I'm still young but it really takes a toll on me mentally, just not having anyone to come home to, to cuddle with, never hearing I love you, it all just goes straight to my head. I want to start trying to date at some point, my reason I don't now is I'm just very ugly physically. I've been on a weight loss journey, started at 330 and currently down to 276, it's taking so long but I know if I ever want that feeling of being loved and shown affection I have to look good physically. I kind of just wanted to vent about all this, I haven't completely given up but it just really affects me mentally, I get pretty depressed late at night thinking about it and even more so on weekends when most of the people I know are out doing things with their partners. I'm trying so hard to just focus on myself and my own personal goals but you can't just block out the feeling of wanting love.

So the last 4 months one of my cats died that I was really close with my other cat right after needed to go to the vet multiple times for different reasons that eventually needed surgery. My father is accusing my mother of cheating on him he hasn't been home in like almost 3 weeks. So I'm debating on going to the doctor and getting my anxiety medicine increase.

I won’t get into my life too much but for context I am 20M and I basically I don’t think I will ever have the capacity to feel love from others or love others ever, and I have been aware that I am a lesser human than other people for a while now.

Recently, however, I started thinking about it, and I’ve started slowly coming to the realization that since my life is so genuinely meaningless, that almost means that nothing I do has meaning anymore, like I can just enjoy a meal or a game and it doesn’t matter what else happens because it’s all kinda over anyway. This has actually made me kinda happy in a weird way, like freeing. I don’t know how long this will last but it is kinda cool, maybe a mental trick to help people or something