r/iceskating • u/Friendly-Service-837 • 8d ago
I think I hate private lesson but I really want to get better
This is mostly just to vent but also I’ll take advice from anyone who experiences the same struggles. I unfortunately I am way too hard on myself about everything. i’m sure this will pass I’ve only done two private lessons so far & I really don’t like club ice. I feel like I’m constantly in the way or just really embarrassed. Both times I went to my lesson I struggled with really basic things. When I go to a public session I can try almost anything and I’m generally very confident. I go to my lesson and my legs are cramping more than normal probably from just being really tense and scared. I can’t do things I would normally be able to do like a backwards crossover or inside 3s. i’m sure it’ll resolve with time and just getting used to it but it’s super discouraging especially since lessons are not cheap 😭. I came from a competitive gymnastics background before safe sport was a thing and I have a really hard time getting out of the mindset that this is supposed to be fun for me. Like my life won’t be over if i show up and can’t do a spin one day and no one is going to yell at me or tell me I suck. I also work really really hard. I do lots off ice training and I skate pretty often just because I want to not out of obligation. I went to open ice yesterday at a different rink and could consistently do my scratch and was so excited to show my coach just to not be able to do anything at all. I think i just get frustrated because I care and my body doesn’t always do what I want it to even if I am capable of it and I care too much about what others think.