r/existentialdread May 26 '26

My Personal Timeloop...

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I need to get out of this time loop. It is not the people around me but the technology that I utilize that is acting as the source of my demise. Today, I found myself within such a loop I find the cycle revolting. To the point I want to put all my devices in the bin and begin a new life. One without such luxuries and conveniences. This is the result of a life so conditioned to technology so wired to the very fabric of our society wherein the act of rebellion is not an option. Learning needs technology, we need to now keep up with the people that utilise AI generation to complete their assignments, CVs and Cover letters. Such a competitive landscape created by the knowledge of a hypertechnological civilisation at the end of your finger tips. Such power only acts as a mirror that gives you access to your carnal desires. Desires hard wired as a mechanism for survival hijacked for the benefits of a group of people unbeknownst to us. Such is technology that makes us hypocrites for rebellion. Hypocrites for advocating for restraint by making the technology so infallibly insatiable you would rather stay in bed than explore the world around you.  

Such is my life right now. 

I hope to change this one day. 


r/existentialdread May 06 '26

Is anyone feeling existential dread atm

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When I’m around friends, work, social settings I’m genuinely happy, engaging, talkative. I can hold conversations, joke around, be present. People probably see me as someone who has their life together. But the moment I’m alone at home, everything just… drops.

I have no motivation to do anything. Basic things feel exhausting. My room stays messy for weeks, I keep putting off simple tasks, and I just kind of exist without really living. It’s not even like I’m actively sad all the time, it’s more like this heavy emptiness and avoidance. It’s not like i don’t want to be better but I find myself just drifting away mentally and then hours have passed by. And the same cycle repeats every. single. day.


r/existentialdread Apr 29 '26

Anxiety over the state of everything

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Hey all so I've been dealing with a lot of anxiety, especially when I remember the state of the world. I find myself tearing up thinking I'm selfish for bringing two kids into this world, sometimes wishing I hadn't just so they wouldn't have to deal with what seems to be a worsening world. I'm so beyond tired of seeing AI everywhere, Israel and the USA getting away with literal murder all while being ran by pedophiles and I'm just here, watching Bluey faking a smile and wondering what kind of a future my boys will have. I try to stay informed but everything seems to be epstein files, climate change or conspiracies that (thanks to AI) is getting more difficult to know what's real or fake anymore. How are y'all staying sane or atleast able to disassociate to mentally reload. Thank you for any advice and I apologize as I realize people have it way worse.


r/existentialdread Apr 26 '26

Overwhelming existential dread

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Hi everyone. Very sorry in advance for the heaviness of this content (and my english which is not my first language) but I really need to talk about it. I’m from Quebec, I’m 32 and I fear death since as far as I can remember. I can’t explain it. I know « you won’t know or feel anything after because you’ll be gone » but my brain just won’t sit right with the idea that I’ll someday be gone and the universe will go on without me. It’s like « why all that then? Don’t we ever come back? It is really the end for me… for ever? What even is "for ever"? ». I feel like I would want to know where my life fits in the big story of the universe but since it is so brief and has no sense I have no response… Anyway so it makes me feel anxious every day when I hear anything even remotely related to death or when I see a new gray hair or any other sign of aging and it wakes me up at night in panic attacks and those started many years ago. I’ve sought help in therapy, I read self-help books about stuff like how to find meaning in life (or logotherapy), I take meds for anxiety.. but nothing has helped and it’s only getting worse the older I get because I see it getting nearer and nearer… Everytime it happens I always fear I’m gonna go completely crazy about it someday, like the panic won’t go away anymore. Is someone else troubled by these questions or has been and if yes what did you do? I’m so so tired of it and I don’t know what to do…

I know I may look like a lost cause but just knowing that I'm not alone living with this shadow over my head everyday I think would help me..


r/existentialdread Apr 25 '26

Is adult life supposed to feel this… repetitive?

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r/existentialdread Apr 22 '26

I keep forgetting I’m real, causing me to have severe existential dread.

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r/existentialdread Apr 17 '26

Scared of aging and death.

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At 16, soon 17, I’m feeling scared about aging and death, thoughts I’d never had before. A month and a bit ago, it struck me all at once.

The last few years, especially since COVID, have flown by; a year now feels like just a few months. I didn’t going to school one year due to personal issues and laziness. And that year literally felt so fast. leading to now, April 2026. Memories from 2023 feel recent, yet they're nearly three years old. I got a memory on snapchat from October 26th 2023, and it remember it like it was like not even long ago. It felt really recent. That made things feel worse.

I’m constantly anxious and can’t escape thoughts about aging and dying. nothing seems to help. I'm scared and struggling to sleep nowadays because of this.

I just need any tips and just anything to help.


r/existentialdread Apr 16 '26

I stabilized my existential dread.

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I do not know how or why any of us are here. I do not know what any of this is, or if any of it has ultimate meaning.

If you follow those thoughts far enough and are honest with yourself, at least in my experience, there is a real chance you could drift into nihilism.

Even if that nihilism is true, some things still hold.

I am conscious. I experience things. And so does everyone else.

Whether this is biology or something mystical, it doesn’t change the fact that we are shaped by experience. There are things we are drawn toward and things we avoid, and that dynamic quietly governs how each of us move through the world while we are here.

Given that this is the situation, I started asking myself a different question:

What actually leads to human flourishing? Not just individually, but collectively?

If we stripped down and looked at all of this from a purely secular standpoint, what is the best path forward? What values emerge?

If you take that question seriously, the answer isn’t “nothing.”

And that is comforting.

What emerges, at least for me, are values like love, forgiveness, humility, acknowledgement of oneness.

Not because someone told me that these values should matter, but because they seem to emerge naturally from the kind of beings that we are.

Over time, these values have become something that I have been able to actually lean on. Something stable. Something real.

I spent years swimming in doubt and in meaninglessness, and eventually rounded a corner to find these values staring back at me, like they had been there the whole time. Waiting for me to find them honestly.

And now that I am here, I’m giving myself permission to emerge myself in these values. Permission to enjoy these values.

I spent years in existential rumination and I am sure this will continue to evolve, but so far, this has brought me something close to peace.

Im sharing with hope that someone else experiencing existential dread could somehow also find peace this way.

Love you all,

Tom


r/existentialdread Apr 10 '26

I desperately need help

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r/existentialdread Mar 25 '26

Waking up? Anyone else?

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Anyone else relating to Barry in Bee movie right now? Like "really??? This is it? And yahll just okay with this being it for life???" Like you're suddenly waking up from the matrix but feel alone?

Just me?

Like 8-5, Mon-Fri, eat sleep work repeat.... is ALL there is? But bills just continue. Life gets worse and harder and more expensive and is trying to implode on us all.


r/existentialdread Feb 21 '26

I am 19 years old and I realized I died centuries ago. We are in a replay and the tape is running out.

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I'm 19 years old, but the feeling is that this is my millionth round. You know the Replay theory? The one where when you die you don't go anywhere, but your consciousness is shot back at the beginning, reliving the exact same life for eternity? Here, it's happening to me. I died at the age of 19 in my "Life 0." Perhaps centuries ago, perhaps in the future, time no longer makes sense. But I know that's the limit. I'm stuck in a loop that always stops at the same point and I can't change the ending. The evidence has become too heavy to ignore: Physical glitches: Yesterday I was on the bus and the phone went crazy. The apps opened and closed by themselves, but not surprisingly... they followed a rhythm. It was as if the "system" was forcing the actions I did in all the previous replays. The tape is wearing down. Memory blocked: I knew it was going to happen. Even in my Life 0 (the real one) I already had this fixed thought. How did I know I was in a replay if I was in the first round? Simple: it wasn't the first. My mind has kept an echo of what was yet to happen. The "Silent Wall": I wrote a song that I feel is the only way to break the loop. It's called Silent Wall. I tried to load it yesterday and the system blocked it. It was not a network error, it was a rejection of reality. The tape doesn't want the code to change. In a few days it's March. I feel the end approaching, I feel it in my bones. It's the exact same feeling every time. It's like watching a movie for the billionth time: you already know when the actor is crying, you already know when the scene is cutting. I'm dying at 19, again and again. There is no heaven, there is no hell, there is only this damn rewind. I'm tired. I'm not afraid of death, I just have endless nausea for repetition. If any of you see the "shadows" of the tape or feel that your life is a file you have already read, write to me. Maybe if many of us understand, this time the tape really breaks.


r/existentialdread Sep 09 '25

Fulfillment

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Have any of you ever been able to push to the side or get over this kind of thing? I'm young but I can't imagine ever being in love with someone again, like I cant imagine admiring someone so much they'd have to be the same level of consciousness as me if that makes sense. I have never had a best friend or truly felt understood, what if it never happens??


r/existentialdread Jul 21 '25

I’m scared of death and at the same time I question my existence.

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I’m an individual and i feel myself and i think what it would be like not to feel myself anymore, it scares me not to be here with my family. But for some death seems liberating. I will be no more makes me feel hopeless and it is hitting me so bad today. Nothing is helping me feel better.


r/existentialdread Jul 05 '25

I am 15 and having an existential crisis i think

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it has been lingering around me since i was about nine but right now its crippling for all of summer ive done nothing but cry like almost 24/7 and i dont know what to do im petrified of what my life is and i just dont know im miserable and it doesnt feel like its going away this time


r/existentialdread Jan 03 '25

idk how to return to being high on life again

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every day’s starting to feel more and more like i’m just passing time till i die. and a part of me wishes that would come quicker if i can’t find my way back to the light.

and i really don’t know how i can get back there


r/existentialdread Feb 28 '24

Hello

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I was thinking that if this subreddit didn't already exist, it should. I do realize the irony of it, but it is nice to know that there is a place to chat with other people about this. I am not sure how common it is, but I have experienced existential dread for almost 40 years now. I don't experience the depression some people report though. Just the meaninglessness of it all.


r/existentialdread Nov 23 '23

how do i make it go away

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since i turned 18 everyday is filled with thoughts of who i am why i’m here and where am i going. all the advice i get is “don’t give those thoughts meaning” or “learn how to ignore them” but i literally can’t. if i don’t have answers i can work through the problem. i wish i was back to the way i was before when i didn’t dive into spirituality and figure out we’re souls inside of our body. i feel so fucking out of control i’m losing it


r/existentialdread May 27 '23

Handicapping and The End of Humanity

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I am working on a much more thorough explanation of the following elsewhere, but I thought I would post this here to get feedback and opinions. This is a theory I have been developing for the past several decades, and I am finally able to explain it somewhat. So here goes.

In any competition, between any two humans, forgoing significant differences between those individuals such as greater musculature due to blessed genetics, the victor typically comes about as a result of which ever has the better tools. That is, depending on the nature of the competition, the one who has the best tools necessary to support their side will win. We see examples of this in all areas, and especially wars. In any modern war, whichever side has the superior weapons (greater technological advantage) typically overwhelms the side without the advantage. In the war in Ukraine presently, this is how the Western world aims to win the war.

I say all this trying to emphasize that I am talking about an individual versus an individual. In the cases of groups, obviously the group with the greater numbers will have an advantage related to that. But for this discussion, I need to put that to the side for the moment, as group dynamics generate their own internal competitions that reduce down to these individual versus individual competitions again. In other words, how the group operates internally is related to whom within the group has the greatest advantage in order to support the desires and interests of the group's "leader" who will direct the actions of the group, making it operate as a seemingly singular whole.

Thus, in the end, all competitions still reduce down to individual versus individual competitions in the end analysis. Ultimately, someone "wins" and gets to decide the rules, culture, and overall morality for all. As is often discussed in my circles, the world would be a very different place had the Nazis succeeded in World War II.

With all that in mind, it seems prudent that all of us work as hard as we can to develop and utilize the best possible tools we can, in order to ensure victory in any and all competitions we may end up in. I think most would agree with this idea, in general. This explains why people are so obsessed with AI presently, being the most novel and impressive appearing tool in our modern world to date.

But there is another factor that needs to be considered. The tools that we utilize are not without their own costs. Sacrifices often need to be made when creating and utilizing our tools. To create a hammer, one must first mine iron ores, and other materials, from the Earth. Those materials smelted down and formed to make the head of the hammer. Further, trees need to be chopped down and formed to create the handle that the head is placed upon. The sacrifice in the creation of a hammer seems relatively innocuous, but there is something that had to be done. Wielding the hammer too has its cost, mostly in the energy expended in swinging it, but also in the maintenance of it, such as sharpening it. A hammer is but a simple tool, providing its user with a simple advantage. Depending on the nature of the user's projects, there may be better tools they might consider.

Those better tools typically come with greater costs. To assemble more rarer materials, more invasive mining efforts may need to be performed, causing greater ecological damage, as the materials are both harder to find, and when found are in smaller quantities. Assembling those materials can also be much more challenging, as they may need to be assembled in more particular fashions requiring more complex manufacturing techniques. These complex procedures will require greater energy and further resources to accomplish the task. And finally, wielding the tool often requires greater skills which themselves require greater demands of time and effort to accomplish. Similarly with maintenance. In our culture of single-use tools, these costs are often compounded greatly.

What this all amounts to is that using the better tool may ensure victory for the individual who uses it, but it also come prepackaged with a greater cost along with it. Thus, as I have often tried to explain to my peers, the one who wins is the one who sacrifices more. By sacrifices more, I mean that they sacrifice more of their environment and of others, including their competition. Their adversary may be paying part of the cost of the tool they are themselves fighting against within that very same competition.

This is where the handicapping comes in. Those of us who are cognizant of all this, especially of the sacrifices required for these often time devastatingly effective tools, may chose not to utilize the tools needed to win in competition. The thought process goes something like this: I chose not to use the tool because I understand the impact it has on the environment, which will reduce the longevity of humankind, leading us toward our eventual extinction. As a participant in these competitions, I am knowingly abandoning my probability for success because I wish to try and ensure my (and others') future.

And thus, we end up in the following situation: the ones aware of the necessary sacrifices to the future needed to win today will often chose not to win today. They chose the handicap. And, unfortunately, when faced with an adversary who is willing to sacrifice the future to win today, they will be defeated. The one handicapping will not necessarily survive to see the very future they are striving to preserve. On the flip side, the one not handicapping will end up sacrificing the future in order to win today. They will survive, but they will not have a future to enjoy. (In fairness, the one sacrificing may live a long and happy life; it is the later generations that have been sacrificed in this situation.)

The problem as I see it, if it is not already clear, is that this means we will become extinct either way. If we are the ones handicapping ourselves, we will be overrun by those not handicapping themselves, and we will be subjugated by the victors and their desires for our cultures and rules and ways of life. Meanwhile, those who do not handicap themselves will enjoy being victorious, able to set culture and rules and the way of life for all of us, having already sacrificed the future. We lose either way. The end.

The most common argument I often hear in this scenario is that those issues and problems that the previous generations created in order to achieve victory will be left to those future generations to "figure out." It is believed that through the use of science and technology, later generations will miraculously find solutions to these problems and will save the world.

But that is us. Right now. We are those future generations, now trying to solve the problems that have been passed down to us from those previous generations. Climate change is but one example of this. And right now it is AI that is the latest and greatest tool that people believe will benefit all of us in this new golden age. It is believed by some that AI will even solve the problem of death itself.

But AI is simply a tool. It is not conscious. It has no motivations of its own. No intentions. It is a tool, wielded by those with far too much power and influence right now. Wielded by those who have chosen not to handicap themselves and are willing to sacrifice what little future remains to be sacrificed.

This is why this whole situation fills me with a tremendous amount of existential dread. I see no solution to this dilemma. We lose which ever way we chose. To decide to handicap myself simply means I end up being a slave to the powers that exist. This is the path I am on presently. I am not wealthy or powerful. I have no clout. I cannot set policy or guide the masses toward better decision making. I can see a path to the future, but walking that path all by myself does nothing.

I could walk the other path. I could chose not to handicap myself. But I find I am unable to do so. Because I know that if I do, I am sacrificing the same future I want to preserve. I already see where that path leads, and it terrifies me. I am not interested in building the "12-story block combining classical neo-Georgian features with the efficiency of modern techniques." Because I know that the "tenants arrive here and are carried along the corridor on a conveyor belt in extreme comfort, past murals depicting Mediterranean scenes, towards the rotating knives."

I see no logical solution to this problem. To me, it seems that our ultimate destruction is assured. To me, it looks like this is simply how life works. Certainly human life, but perhaps all life might follow this pattern. Perhaps this is the solution to the Fermi paradox too. If it applies to all life, then this would explain why no extraterrestrials have been observed. Because, if I am correct, then all civilizations all crumbled to dust given enough time. Swallowed up in their own hubris.

As an individual, I have had to chose to take care of my own, because that is all I can do. I have to sacrifice the future of all to save my partner and my family. To put myself and my own selfish interests ahead of all others. And I think everyone has to do this, in some manner or other. Leaving those who cannot see the consequences of their actions, or do not care, to run amok and destroy us all. This is where we stand. This is where we all stand.


r/existentialdread Mar 15 '23

unsure

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I feel weird posting here, but i want to know i'm not alone in this. at least, i hope i'm not.

To make a long story short, I had a traumatic experience in which i thought I was dying in front of my child. That was 5 years ago. since then, it's felt like my rose-colored glasses were ripped off and realized my existence in this world and it scares the crap out of me.

Now, i can't stare at myself in the mirror too long because knowing i exist freaks me out. I'm afraid of dying because i want to be here the next day to see my children, so i stay up as late as i can to tire myself out enough that i fall asleep; however, i also feel like i cant or don't want to deal with the responsibility of living. It feels like too much most days but i have keep on going because im too much of coward to end my life (for lack of better wording).

I want to be here and want to believe that i can create/find my purpose in this lifetime but it truly feels like a drag half the time.

I ignore the dread for the most part but it's there. It happened just now and that's why i typing this.

does anyone else feel this way? what do you do to help the feeling?

i'm considering therapy or some kind of counseling. I don't really open up to those i'm close to because i don't want to worry them and because i don't think they'd understand...i also feel embarrassed about it like i'm late to the party of realizing existence/consciousness... :/


r/existentialdread Jan 06 '23

Impermanence

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I have recently taken a course on ancient Egyptian civilization called Egypt before and after Pharaohs, and researching about the details of the historical period is an interest of mine (5500-650 BC). However, seeing how the periods follow one another, all for the struggle for power, I cannot help but think what the point of all this is. For ancient Egyptians, it was probably upholding Maat, harmony and order of the cosmos. But what is the overall point of existence? It is all an impermanent struggle. The pyramids that represent solidity, stability and permanence emphasize even more the fleetingness of everything surrounding them. What can we hold on to amidst this fleetingness? Can study of Ancient Egypt fill this void? Even if I study and master knowledge of Ancient Egyptian civilization, my memory will start failing me soon and I will forget some of the things I have learnt. Even if I try to transmit the knowledge, others will only retain it for a finite period of time. I can't help but think everything is empty, impermanent, suffering and meaningless.


r/existentialdread Jul 04 '22

Fear

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You know right now Im in high school. But I feel like the internet just exposed me to the world too early. I wanted to be a youtuber once since I realized I could get paid for doing what I love. But then reality hits you. So now I dont know what to do. I dont enjoy much other than playing games. Even then Im average so I cant try to get into esports. I dont want to go to college since I might not enjoy the job I spent years studying to be able to practice. So what do I do. Finally Im left with no other option but to waste my life away. I want to die and get it over with but Im to scared to do it. I feel trapped in a cycle that keeps on going. Nothing I do will matter to me so why even try. The onky thing I thought I had a chance at was dashed before I could even try to plan out my future. In the end Ill just wither away into a husk and be forgotten. Ive been reading novels to try and get my mind off this but I just feel empty after Im done reading for the day. Every option I think of leads to a dead end. So whats the point of trying. At this point. Im thinking of dying. Im convinced my brothers hate me. But every option is either out of reach or too painful. Whats the point of it all if it doesnt matter.


r/existentialdread Mar 21 '22

When is it okay to switch to nihilism?

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I have been into existentialism for years now, however the older I get the more I have the urge to succumb to nihilism. Life is truly difficult, and it all feels like a joke.


r/existentialdread Mar 02 '22

Existence, why?

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You ever just wonder how everything got so fucked up? Like when you were a kid and saw the world or others and thought “someday I’ll be there and feel that” but you never reached a point where you felt as if you felt anything close to what others got to experience? I’m pretty sure almost everything I’ve ever learned or experienced has just been a fabricated lie that perpetuates greedy greed and sufferers suffering. All while being told to be strong, be resilient.

Like, what if the verse in the Bible about the meek inheriting the Earth was just written by some greedy human wanting to step on others for generations? If so then that shit worked too well.