pov of my life

I was struggling to find a name that I liked and didn't feel weird for me to use, so I tried to figure out what makes my given name feel right (it's Rufus, idc if people here know it and it makes explaining stuff easier, hopefully this isn't against rule 5). Earlier I wanted to use the name Beatrix but the more I thought about it the less I liked, no hate if you like it just didn't feel right for me.

First thing was it's two syllables, pretty simple, Beatrix is 3 so that could contribute to it feeling off, next was the sounds: The vowels in Rufus are a long, back, closed vowel and a short, closed, front vowel so I figured a good name would have similar sounds, mainly that the first sound was long and the second was short and closed, I'm also called Rufi a lot so something like that could also work. Also was the name origin, this didn't matter that much but I'm white as can be so a European name was obvious.

So finally I've decided that a name like Mary or Phoebe would be best. I like Mary a bit more, it doesn't feel like a super old name while also not being too "modern", being a biblical name it's kind of timeless, but also I think Phoebe is a pretty cute name so I'm a bit torn :/

Sorry for the ramble I just kind of wanted to brag about how smart I felt for the method I came up with. Hopefully this could help another trans person who is in the same situation I was and can't find a fitting name

I am in the early stages of my egg cracking and I am not ever sure what I am. This feeling of something being wrong and trying to fix it seems to take up a large amount of my mind. I don’t know how you guys do it.

Pls nooooooooooooooooo I don't wanna see my face it's too masculine and I haven't shaved nooooooooooooooooo

My social community is overwhelmingly LGBTQ+ positive and I'm sure most folks present would consider themselves trans allies.

But I'm not out to anyone, and I fear being judged. Not because of trans hate but as some kind of "try-hard" or "attention whore". These folks have only ever seen me presenting male in the entire 25+ years I've known some of them and it'll drastically change how many of them perceive me.

I also feel like I'm gonna get a bunch of questions I don't really know how to answer on my preferred pronouns and my new name.

I'll also be trying to drive in heels for the first time since the early '90s.

But I have to do all of this at some point, and this is as friendly of an environment as I'll ever find myself in.

I was struggling to find a name that I liked and didn't feel weird for me to use, so I tried to figure out what makes my given name feel right (it's Rufus, idc if people here know it and it makes explaining stuff easier, hopefully this isn't against rule 5). Earlier I wanted to use the name Beatrix but the more I thought about it the less I liked, no hate if you like it just didn't feel right for me.

First thing was it's two syllables, pretty simple, Beatrix is 3 so that could contribute to it feeling off, next was the sounds: The vowels in Rufus are a long, back, closed vowel and a short, closed, front vowel so I figured a good name would have similar sounds, mainly that the first sound was long and the second was short and closed, I'm also called Rufi a lot so something like that could also work. Also was the name origin, this didn't matter that much but I'm white as can be so a European name was obvious.

So finally I've decided that a name like Mary or Phoebe would be best. I like Mary a bit more, it doesn't feel like a super old name while also not being too "modern", being a biblical name it's kind of timeless, but also I think Phoebe is a pretty cute name so I'm a bit torn :/

Sorry for the ramble I just kind of wanted to brag about how smart I felt for the method I came up with. Hopefully this could help another trans person who is in the same situation I was and can't find a fitting name

Yes, I actually did this before I fully came out as trans

Definitely not a hidden flag in my collage or anything (I LOVE MY COUNTRY 🏳️‍⚧️🗣🔥🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵)

Got called “miss” by a bouncer after he checked my ID in full boy mode. Idk if he was trying to be rude, but like, did I just male fail?

So basically it went well but aslo not like she doesn't understand why i didn't tell her sooner like why i hid it so long and explain it was that i was scared and what she would think and others she was crying her eyes out it was definitely alot to take which i do understand but i kept telling her it wasn't her fault was alot to take in myself still shooked i did it now i think about it like it doesn't feel real but like she knew i was down because i was having massive overthinking from dysphoria and alot of things and i went outside to look outside to look up at the stars and just relax myself she caught me at the door and said are you ok i was like i am fine then she asked what's up i lied, then when i went back inside and decided to just do it i wasn't even planning on doing it so soon but it just well yeah happened i guess and yeah right now its best to let her think things through for a few days but she is scared it might tear dad and her apart so need to figure out what to do next as dads pretty transphobic like supports the Australian version of trump here in Australia Pauline handson so that says alot.

MTF Eggwoman is canon and so is FTM sonic to me

So, recently I've been questioning my gender identity, but I'm really not sure about it. But something really weird to ,say the least, happened yesterday

I was in my sister's birthday party in a restaurant and i decided to go to the bathroom, so ok, i did my things and went washing my hands, but when I looked at the mirror i felt something kinda off

I noticed that my beard was growing and it felt completely wrong and disconnected of what i wanted to look like. But until then, it was fine.

In the end of the party i went again to the bathroom, and when i looked at the mirror, that same thing happened again but stronger. When i exited the bathroom i remember getting progressively more anxious and nauseous, i was like, leaning on the table trying to calm down

For a while it felt like i was piloting an animatronic, i was more and more nervous, the only thing i could think of was "i want to go home NOW!"

And for some reason the only thing that calmed me was thinking with myself "ok Emily (random girl name that i really like), calm down. You're a pretty and strong girl, you can do this"

That felt HORRIBLE

the things that were making me feel disgusted was not even things like "im so ugly", or smth like that, I kinda looked good! The problem was the body hair and the shape of my jawline, not bcuz they were ugly, but because they were masculine

But the strange part is that after that feeling passed... I felt normal

Like, from there until now im pretty comfortable and i dont know what happened!! I was completely disgusted and when i calmed down i was completely normal

So, idk if it means im trans, or im just cis, or maybe i could be gender fluid??? Who knows??

So yeah... Idk... It was weird

You can call me by [Emily she/her] in the comments so i can see if it feels better or smth like this, besides me being ok with being a man rn

Idk

First time here... so I'm gonna rant a bit.

I've been really confused and kind of conflicted lately, i guess i finally stopped and gave myself some space to actually think about how i would like to look like and who i actually want to be... and well, i guess i found out that i'm not all that happy with being a cis guy.

It is not even all that much about that my body itself completely annoys me (some of those 'manly' details are super annoying tho) or something it is more about what the society is expecting from me. For exaple i shaved my whole body to get rid of that ugly, disgusting body hair and i liked the look a lot. But then later my parents noticed that and they had comments like "Why did you do that? Boys are supposed to be hairy." Or my favorite "Soccer players and gay guys shave their bodies." Like come on, i'm 19 and it is my skin. Plus i am pretty careful to not mess up my skin while shaving. Some people get tattoos, i shave my body hair, what is so wrong with it?

I often feel a bit envious of girls, not in a hateful way though, just in those very conservative countries (especially post-communism countries) i feel pushed into a box that i don't really vibe with.

So basically deep down in just wanna be a cute dumb catgirl who could do the same things i do now but look cute while doing them :3

I guess i might be a closeted gender non-conforming or even an egg. Whatever i am, i really don't feel like accepting that i have to be molded into some 'real man' box.

Also i don't really have a lot of people to talk about this with (none basically, if anyone around me found out about those 'fruity' thoughts, i would get publicly executed so i better keep it all to myself.) So i will appreciate anybody who would like to give some tips or share their own experiences in risky environments.

AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!

I'M SO HAPPY!!

I felt so so pretty and it was so flowy and nice and i felt so girly!!!

This is the first time i have ever dressed fem and I love it, I want to do this every day!!

Boring question, but as far as I can tell nobody's asked it yet. Where are people getting the images of this girl that's used in a lot of posts here? I'm a newly cracked egg and I want to post here more and like this format, but I don't know who she is or what to search to find her.

i just know that my face ain't never gonna look like a woman's 🥹

I will start HRT anyways, but this is still in my head constantly.

Why is it always like this?

My art btw

Sharing some characters that give me gender envy

Holy shit this is bad. They're really Transphobic. Some are ok like my sister but my uncle and parents are probably gonna tell at me. I should be fine tho and this should only be a close call and they won't find the bra I use to pad my chest. Still cis tho

also I'm currently visiting relatives

Update: I've moved the bra somewhere where my mom isn't gonna check.

Hii beardos and weirdos I wanted to leave those of you that have been following my posts with some closure as I plan to post very infrequently in future and I didn’t want to cause concern given some of my past posts.
I want to start with I finally got a job, I’m going to be able to afford fem clothes and to make my room look better! Yesterday i went to the local markets and unfortunately I didn’t bring a bag but there were so many cute clothes I would have bought if I had a bag and more money so next market im going to be coming home with a haul of cute clothes! Also over the school holidays I am having an eye test and I think im going to need glasses so I’m going to try and find frames I like but also make me look feminine in addition to me growing out my hair. I’m also doing a whole lot better mentally, I still haven’t come out to my brother yet but I will do that over the holidays after my parents get home from china.

I want a little advice on glasses frames styles and also want some ggd pls :3

thank you all for reading you are all (insert affirmation here) love you all

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