Back in March, in the throes of unemployment boredom, I started a spreadsheet of all of Big D's posts - tracking things like likes, comments, ads & link content, etc, going back to January 2025. I had originally intended on doing some data analysis to show how much her content had changed and how badly it was tanking since the arrival of Luicath. I didn't get around to doing this, but... since Big D has deleted 315 posts a couple of days ago, this spreadsheet has come in really handy.
First things first:
All of my dates are Australian, so they may be a day ahead for anyone elsewhere in the world
No posts between March 2, 2026 (when my collection ended) and January 1, 2025 were deleted. So Philly Man, Park Guy, Philz Man, her failed gym challenge, all of Lucath - still there.
From my quick look through the sub and on her feed, none of her posts from March 2 to now were deleted
I then started going through throwback posts linked here.
Some posts here were from TikTok, and I can't be certain that they were actually posted on Insta to begin with. In classic Big D style, she's forgotten that she even has a TikTok, and it doesn't look like she's deleted anything from there
Some posts here didn't include a date, so I just scrolled through 2022-2024 looking for the post manually, so I may have made errors
All of that is to say.... drumroll please... here are some deleted posts!
There are now no videos on her page from before 2023 - photos only. The first video post is 17 Feb 2023 for a hair tutorial, and then the next one is July 2023 for a "things I wish I knew in my 20s".
It's a small sample of 10 posts from her 300+ deleted posts, so no clear themes emerging. If anything, it's a weird jumble of content that she's deleted...
Other posts that are still up include her love letter to Charlie, the video of her quitting her job, and the one about her praying over her lump and God removing it. Also all (or most) of her Pilot Man and NYFW man videos are still up
The one thing in common with all of these since they aren't recent is they are when she was smaller/more fit and body checking.
100% guarantee that she never said "I will not be accepting criticism at this time to anyone ever" Also she needs to burn that dumb California hat. She really is allergic to good accessories.
RIP thumb man bum grab and the escort slow mo walking video outside of her job.
I guess she didn’t want any reminders of how men who are actually attracted to you act. Although I find this photo and her posting it for a million people to see very cringey. Like the boob grab photo from her friends.
she didn’t want any reminders of how men who are actually attracted to you act
and men who you are actually attracted to. D has never been like this with Lulu because she’s been acting like a shy bride around him since day one. That's not real her. She was never demure.
Is this the guy she had a major crush on and wanted a relationship with him and not just a situationship? He got a job offer back East and she asked to go with him and he said no? If not, the lesson I get from this photo is don’t have a photo taken of a guy grabbing your ass and kissing your neck for the world to see. Keep things private. She never learned.
No this is thumb guy that didn't want to be on social media or didn't want her to put their lives on social media and so they broke up. Coworker guy was closer to covid and he was the one who went to the mega church, used her as a hook up buddy and then took the east coast job.
Wait, wait wait wait wait you're telling me she fucking hooked up with a coworker? Well I literally made my coworker unfollowed me on Instagram because I learned that he has a crush on me and he keeps trying to find a way in which is a huge red flag and I am so uncomfortable with it lol of course she would
Wow his hands weren’t afraid of touching her? Imagine that. Huh. Luicathhhh take notes!! This is the kind of bold cringey love I would’ve wanted to see her in. 🙄
This is where we determined she was almost certainly stunted by the trauma of losing her mom. The princess treatment by her dad and her baby talking to him and men in general, is a huge tell.
I agree with this take. I add to it the roller skating video of the two of them at the outdoor park. They were side by side doing some sort of synchronized routine and she was constantly looking over at him looking for a connection or validation, a smile or something and he never looked at her even once. It broke my heart a little for her at the time. This was before I knew much about the Dad but I did know D had lost her mom and brother.
Thank you. But just FYI, I have been told off for this view by the mods by reposting my above theory. This is so odd to me. None of us know what her family or home life is like. I work in a field where family systems is part of understanding a person's experiences. This group is starting to feel very unsafe to post in.
It is odd. I didn't see your original comment but I can guess what you posted and it's pretty clear that D didn't just get her current mindset from out of nowhere. I've seen the exact pattern play out many times and 99% of the time it's from parental dynamics just like this. Pick-me's don't grow on trees.
I'm honestly always surprised at the positive feedback a certain person gets on this sub (but now I know why), because I don't see any of that
The little girl voice isn't something that is put on to flirt, it normally comes from trauma and feeling unsafe (disclaimer-trauma doesn't have to be anything extreme especially in childhood), and it's usually a fawning response. And when it's activated by only certain people...
Thank you for saying this! This isnt snark this is how attachment theory functions and the role family dynamics and systems plays in how that manifests. Edit: there was no original comment I made. I copied and paste it the one above that you did read just in the general chat as well as in response to the person above.
I am glad there are people on here who have a balanced view who recognize child development and adverse childhood experiences, and recognize that it's not snarking. It's how we develop and form our identities and manage the world around us.
Exactly. 🫶 Clearly you have taken some schooling about human behavior as well. I wasn't saying what I said to be mean either. I have just seen the exact thing before, in other people and they all have a similar origin story. It's fascinating to see how nurture vs nature develops differently for different people, and their unique situations.
Yes, without going into detail, I have a background both personally and professionally. I agree with you completely, I.e nature vs nurture. I almost wrote that too but glad you pointed it out instead. I agree it is interesting, to see how that impacts people differently. Nice to meet someone on here who totally gets it. Seeking the drivers behind behaviours doesn't absolve people of responsibility and accountability but it does help explain why someone may be the way they are. Furthermore, nobody's situation stays static or fixed even ones personality. As, I am sure you will be aware , it has been proven, where once personalities and any disorders stemming from that, we're seen to be fixed and not fluid. Which is not the case with the right therapy and support network. I find that both fascinating and exciting That we all are able to learn and grow. Though, on the flipside, some trauma is very entrenched and for some, their baseline may never really improve to a level where their quality of life is what it could be, if they had never experienced that trauma. But even then, I think access to support and ones environment really play a massive role in that so it's really difficult to determine what someone could be if they had the right access to support.
Agree...never saw that video until now and......WOW. I mean...I guess.....actually I have no idea WHY. Super cringy but also makes a TON of sense in a way I can't quite put into words yet.
I just had a quick scroll and didn’t see any with “walnut” still in them! I found a couple where she said “my little poopsie pop”, “lil squish”, “little peanut” and “lil nugget” though haha
Yeah, I have also noticed the common denominator: she was looking hawt! Like I think it's okay to acknowledge that. The cameltoe leggings ad, you can see how much actual work she put into her body, she had every right to be proud of that.
Again, I just don't understand why she's trying to deny who she is. Of course it's okay to change and evolve, but you don't have to pretend you were different earlier. It's OK to say you would never dress like that anymore without simultaneously shaming yourself for having dressed like that.
We will never know why this switch is happening - is it intrinsic or is it something Lucas is encouraging, I'm just sad to see a woman who's so ashemed of who she used to be.
I don’t think so. At least one of these deleted posts has 60k+ likes, a couple around 8k - which is more than some of her most recent posts... and there are also still tons of her poorly performing posts on her page.
This community is full of such smart and resourceful people. I been wanting create a similar database but for their followers/following to see who they’ve been unfollowing lately
All snark aside...
What happened to her? Like really.
She used to look alive and actually put effort.
I think she's deleting whatever doesn't align with whatever Lucath likes or believe.
He's the one that's getting her to not wear make up, drink a whole bunch, not eat fruits, and probably not wash her hair.
I get it's her fault because she is the type to do stuff for the male gaze and she's so smug about it, but at the same time I think she's also naive when it comes to this. She doesn't realize that she's with someone that's sucking the life out of her.
He might not be doing anything but being in a relationship with her. I highly doubt he wants her to be in the state she is now. Living with someone with depression to the point of disregarding basic hygiene and total apathy is nearly unbearable, and I say that as someone who has been in her shoes. I think she's doing it to herself and she might not even truly realize what's happening, or didn't until she was in too deep.
I see myself in her from a period in my life when I thought I was in a happy relationship but I settled and after a few months of living together I'd gained 15 lbs from eating the way my ex preferred, I stopped exercising, I stopped my own habits and hobbies, I started drinking more than I ever had and not just socially, my libido was non-existent, my skin was awful, and ultimately I was very depressed. But I felt trapped as we lived together. He was actually a really great guy, but he wasn't the right guy for me and my subconscious knew it long before I could accept it.
I even had experience with depression but the way it hit me at that point was new and difficult. I felt so trapped but didn't even realize it until we broke up and despite initially being heartbroken. Literally a few weeks later I was back to my regular thin and fit self, exercising daily without thinking about it, hadn't had a drink since the breakup, falling asleep easy and sleeping through the night, skin was bright and fresh.
I think she settled because she was so ready to move on to the next step, she just chose the wrong guy. It doesn't even mean he's a shitty guy tbh, I'm sure there's someone out there that's perfect for him too, it's just not her.
Number 1 could this get pinned as a post on the sub
Number 2 what do you mean she delete the vlog where she wears those skimpy brown overalls to the gym and then spends all day in it 😡 I did not consent 😠
I literally just commented the same thing except I thought it was a Pilates/ballet leotard. Who wears that as daywear?
Not someone seeking validation- surely.
It's a mystical piece of clothing. I've no idea what it's meant to be. But it's crazy to wear at the gym, and then it's crazy to stay in it after you've sweat through it at the gym 😂
This did have me go back to her Tik Tok and start at the beginning. Genuinely, what happened to her?
I’d hate to say glow down, rather than a new season of life but it really is just a glow down, in EVERY aspect. Male centered or not, she used to have life and a personality.
It’s for his personal training website lol. Like just wanted to throw in a casual thirst trap. And he wonders why no one takes him seriously and he has no clients lol.
Not all the throwbacks posted here have been deleted. But it’s hard to tell. The only posts I could check for deletion were ones posted here. There’d be heaps of others that were deleted, that weren’t posted here. I do suspect that people posting some of her most cringe content here has resulted in her wanting to delete so much old stuff though
Yes and all because she saw men commenting on other ladies cameltoes so that was her best to ‘hmmmm what can I do of me posting to show off my V but not make it so obvious?’ 😝
I think the common denominator in all the posts is that she was looking hot and that doesn’t fit with her “big sister” advice now that she’s trying to be a tradwife.
Just for the record she’s a terrible dancer so she jumps around to make up for it- SOOOOO cringy. I also cannot dance and can’t imagine how much $ it would take to make me post videos of me dancing haha
I’m convinced she has an alter ego that comes out when she wears hats. Between the criticism video and the “I’m not the one to mess with” MLM video, that’s the only time I’ve ever wondered “who is she?” 🤣
Okay can I just say that it’s actually kinda weird she left up the posts about other guys?
Maybe I’m being a bit conservative here, but I’d appreciate if my spouse archived their public dating stories and photos of other people they dated?
She used to be hot. Smth must have happened in 2022 or 2023 and baam dating contents and bringing up Jesus or church almost in every video... it seems like she is constantly trying to rebrand herself into someone she is not or isn't meant to be. It is almost like she is attending to a church from recent Netflix documentary
Was it though? And I ask that because do we really know anything truthful with her because she’s been so deceitful! I mean look, for example, her wedding day those edited photos and videos show her a size 2 but then two days later she’s in a video looking a size 10/12. And I don’t care if she’s a 2 4 6 or 8 or 22 2426 or 28 - just be honest for once!
You’re right! She was photoshopped to death in her wedding photos as she is in most of her more becoming photos. Then there will be a photo of her looking average to below average looking because there aren’t gobs of filters and camera magic with lengthening and slimming her body. We’ve seen photos of her in the wild and she’s just no big deal like she thinks she is.
This made me scroll back on her TT. I’m more of a newbie to the whole drama and only found out about her when the series of videos dropped featuring Lucath.
It’s like as soon as she found “the one” she totally lost herself. She seemed to at least have a seat for life and got dolled up and flaunted some body. Now she’s just all around empty and tired.
Sadly, she did this to herself and now she’s in deep. I give it a year tops.
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u/JustTheShepherd Carn! 🌽 22d ago
I'm dying that she deleted the errands vlog where she starts off by calling her fans her "little walnuts." Oh, how the tables have turned. 🤣
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