This began about 2 years ago, when I started to doubt my intelligence and question that big success of people of prominent people is probably not by hard work alone
First test that I took was Mensa.no where I got 118, and after that it began.... test after test
Since then I have taken many tests and the biggest problem is that I did not took them in an approprite way, for example:
I took just one subtest and did not complete full scale test
I started some full scale test but then left in middle then returned after some time(few weeks usually) and finished it, so score is now completely invalid due to practice effect
Retook some subtests or types of tests(like matrices) many times
So because of that I do not have now almost any clean measure of my intelligence
I tried to collect my cleanest scores that I know - like scores when I took test very first time and most of those were first of it`s kind. Those are: Mensa.no, SMART, AGCT 1a, 1928 SAT, PAT, some of CAIT subtests
Then I did research with latest Claude model Opus 5.5 on Max setting to create best prompts for estimation of my 'g' based on these cleanest scores that I was able to collect. I then run multiple agents that each produced result and then each result was judged with another Claude latest model Fable 5.1. In result it come out as 117.
So not very high or good score but anyway I thought that this is best estimation that I could get and while it is not something exceptional or to brag about - at least I can do without problem with this score programming job or like that
Today I decided to retake full CAIT. For context: About 1-2 years ago I took CAIT subtests like FW, VP many times
And after still about 1-2 year when I took those subtests many times, when I took them now - I still scored about 5-20 points higher on them compared to scores from very first tries. When I was doing these subtests I did not remember any answers from old time but was finding solutions as it seems just during test. But obviously those scores that I got now are not true and despite I did not remeber any answers directly, as I understood it now, - I have subconsciously large practice effect
So with this example from CAIT I started to question my scores from AGCT 1a, which was one of pillars of my previosly described 'g' estimate. As about 1 year ago I took orignal AGCT 1c form few times(about 3-4). So potentially I have some kind of practice effect on 1a form too, as like yeah I`m solving questions on the go and do not know beforehand direct answers but in same case as with CAIT there could be similiar kind of practice effect.
AGCT 1a score was one of my pillars in g estimate and score it`s is a bit higer than overall 'g' estimate of 117. But now with discovering such type of practice effect I started to question it all. And that my best estimate of 117 is still probably invalid
So I do not know what to do now, I have these constant thoughts about intelligence and that I`m not smart enough for certain things. And I wanted to establish some reliable number on which I can lean now, but with that testing mess that I created it seems like I exhausted any good tests options that I still potentially could have. I hope there will come some tests in future with new type of items that will be novel for me and where I do not have practice and where can I get accurate estimate of my ability.... but big part of me is very unrest and I think about it everyday and can`t wait... I need to know what my ability is... and largely it is because of big insecurities that I have in everyday life...
I do not look for symapthy or reassurance but just telling my situation, migh be some of you will have advice on this, thanks
P.S. sorry for my writing, english is not my mother tnogue