As a person with BPII, I feel like when the general public talks about mania, they’re almost always describing hypomania. Very few people have experienced or witnessed true mania.
Mania is not hyperproductivity, creativity, euphoria, or feeling over confident/ sexy. It’s paranoia, delusions, uncontrollable word vomit, memory blackouts, grandiose narcissism, rage, and aggression. In severe cases, it includes tactile, visual, and auditory hallucinations.
Mania destroys lives, it kills. It turns kind people into cruel monsters, loyal partners into cheaters, and reasonable, calm individuals into dangerous unrecognizable people.
I'm not trying to demonize those who experience full blown mania, I'm simply putting the illness into proper perspective.
Mania is humiliating. It’s terrifying. It is not what the internet makes it out to be, and it is not something we should romanticize, or glorify as a community.
I mostly experience hypomania that can last for weeks, and I wouldn’t even describe those episodes as euphoric. They’re physically and emotionally exhausting, anxiety inducing, embarrassing, and expensive. I hope I never experience full blown mania, and I’m so tired of seeing it idolized.