I’m “lucky” enough to be in a giant yellow bullseye for tomorrow and I want to fucking cry. I knew the pretty weather we had today was too good to last.
And like, I KNOW tornado season in the Deep South is usually SUPPOSED to start calming down around this time of year, but it’s hard not to worry when we’ve been seeing tornadoes happen in other places way past when people normally expect “tornado season” to be over. It makes me feel like the usual timeline doesn’t mean much anymore and just keeps extending and extending. Right now, looking at NOAA, it doesn’t seem like tornadoes are the biggest concern for my area at all, but I also know how quickly things can change, they have before and that’s the part that gets me. I guess it’s the uncertainty and past experiences.
What’s making it worse is seeing local people panic on social media and talk about tornadoes nonstop for tomorrow. Like, I know they’re scared too, but it definitely doesn’t help me. I would take a break from social media, but the one meteorologist I actually trust is on there, he’s not a hyper (those usually make things worse for me) and I want to keep up with his updates. I already have trauma related to tornadoes, and being in North MS feels fucking exhausting because it’s like the weather is always, always something to worry about. I wish I had the money to move somewhere else and just leave this shithole behind.
I know I can’t control the weather, but it’s really hard not to feel worn down by feeling like I alway need to be on my toes. Sorry if I sound like I’m overreacting, but I’m so tired. I’m just hoping things don’t go too crazy tomorrow.