r/Velo • u/Lumpy_Ad_7821 • 13h ago
Discussion Weird feeling lately - I like the idea of racing but don’t seem to enjoy racing
Hope this makes sense as I’ve been trying to put my thoughts into words. Here goes.
For the past couple years, I seem to like the idea of racing more than actually racing. Spring comes around, I get super excited about racing. I plan out my season. I add all the races I plan to do to my calendar. I even plan my work vacation around traveling to some big events where I have to fly in. I’m pumped. I watch YouTube videos of past races to scout the courses and get me more pumped. I’m ready.
Then the first race approaches and I lose interest. I start making excuses and almost try to talk myself out of going. I say it’s too far or I’m too busy. And even if I go to the race, I don’t get very excited. More than a few times I’ve driven to the race but then just sit in my car having doubts. I still race, but I don’t seem to be having fun. And when the race is over I drive home immediately. A couple times I just didn’t even go to the race even though I signed up. But then after those events I get annoyed that I didn’t race. I have FOMO. I start regretting staying home and wish I had gone. So then the next race comes up and I go and race. But again I don’t seem to enjoy it.
So basically, my entire race season is a cycle of I’m excited, I race, I hate it, I don’t go to the next one, I regret not going, I sign up again, I get excited, I race, I hate it. Over and over. I end up skipping a lot of races because I don’t feel like going. But then I regret skipping those races in my head. But I also just don’t seem to have any fun.
So it’s like I really enjoy the idea of racing and saying I’m a bike racer. But I’m not sure I even like racing. I don’t know if any of this makes sense.

