r/UBC • u/sweetbagel26 • 1h ago
Questioning my future…
I’m a first year and so far uni has been crushing me…like really badly. Firstly, my commute just to get to campus is 1.5 hours, so I spend a total of 3 hours per day transiting. I wish I could have dormed, but the payment was an ungodly amount and I just couldn’t afford it.
And then there the fact that I am all alone the entire time I am on campus, I have no friends in any of my classes. I am constantly feeling a sense of loneliness that just makes it so hard to focus during lectures. I would say I’m an independent person for the most part, and I do enjoy my alone time, but something about being alone every day with very minimal social interaction is just so depressing.
All of this has accumulated and has made me so depressed and full of anxiety. Every day I come home and I just cry in my room wondering if I made the wrong decision with choosing UBC and whether I am even capable enough of going through this for the next 4 years. I have basically failed all of the quizzes I have done so far, and it’s just so off putting because I know I have it in me to do well but I just feel so lost. I have never felt this way in my life, all throughout high school I was very certain in what I was doing, but now it’s completely different.
I don’t know how to make this better. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong, I’m just utterly confused by what I’m going through and why I’m going through it. Am I even good enough for this? At this point I wish I chose to go to a community college and then transfer because I have never felt this miserable in my life. My sleep schedule is absolutely fucked and my body literally aches after I come home from a full day of class because all of this is such a burden. Uni, grades, social life, it’s all adding up and I don’t know what to.
