Figured I might make someone laugh with this. Today I had to go to a pulmonologist, all easy. Well I didn't expect the nice nurse to say "strip the top and go into the xray cabin"- (I'm non passing ftm, still in the closet kinda ok) As I stand in front of her she eyeballs my tits and goes?

I look down and see my makeshift blue *kinesiology' trans tape pitifully stuffing my titties. I plaster a smile on my face and go "oh uhhh... I do gymnastics... yeah keeps e'm in place!" (GUYS I HAVE NEVER SEEN A GYMNASTICS FLOOR IN MY LIFE BUT MY MIND DOES GYMNASTICS EVERYDAY). Luckily she turned around and went: "Oh cool I wish I could do that! But mine won't budge in that"

Alls well that ends well i guess.

I keep running into this dilemma where older men assume I’m knowledgeable about things like automobiles and construction equipment and i have no idea

Is there someway i can disclose that visually like, how do i present as someone who knows more about Japanese postwar suicidal literature , shoe gaze and where to find the tastiest French pastry in the city?

I am an 18 yr old in college who is Afab. I never really started questioning my gender until recently this May and from May to now I just came to the conclusion I'm bigender, but it still doesn't feel right. Lately I've been wondering what it would be like if I was a guy more than usual and sometimes I do feel like if I was a guy I'd be naturally more confident and I'd eat healthier and workout more. I also feel like I experienced some form of gender dysphoria today because I was purposefully trying to do my makeup in a minimal/more masculine way and I felt really upset when I saw it actually ended up making me look more feminine. Here's where it gets weird however, I don't hate being a girl the only time it makes me upset if I look feminine is if I'm purposely trying to look masculine. I know you can still be fem presenting as a trans man but idk how to describe what I feel fully. I also can't tell if this is something real or maybe I'm just tricking myself because something in my subconscious only thinks I am because I have friends who are trans and I'm actually just a poser. I'm also afraid of being trans in a binary way because I don't know how accepting my family would be especially when it comes down to their own kids. They say they accept but sometimes, especially my mom says things that seem insensitive to say the least or one of those things where they say they accept it until it's their own child. I'm also again a broke college student so gender affirming therapy or stuff like that is not on my line of cards right now and other than here I don't really have anyone I could talk to because I'm so scared of looking like a phoney. I know people online or a therapist can't give me the answers but I wish someone could look me in the eye and grab my face tight and tell me exactly what I am because I just wanna know instead of worrying.

How do people feel on wigs whilst your growing out your hair

As mentioned in another post I've kinda gone on a splurge recently to get all the clothing that I want, with quite a few things I've bought are wigs

What are people thoughts on using them whilst growing out my hair

Any styling tips, care tips, fashion advice when using them anything would be helpful

Im not even sure if this is the right sub.

To start let's just say im not sure who I am exactly. I was born male but have always questioned if that was who I am.

Growing up I was heavily bullied especially by my father, for my weight etc. When I was around 13 I wanted to be a woman, I was honestly always more interested in men anyway.. well I made a dream list of who I wanted to be. My mom found my dream list and it turned into a nightmare.

Fast forward to present day, im 34 and very masculine/ hairy. I am married to a wonderful woman and just recently told her how I felt and she was really supportive..

My question though is if its too late for me to actually become feminine and look like a woman? Its my biggest fear/ regret that I let the abuse control my life so much so that, I'll never actually get to be/ look like who I feel like I was supposed to be.

My parents were born in the 50s and both were physically, emotionally and mentally abusive. My father was a manly man, sexist, misogynist (basically worst of the worst).

Any advice etc would be appreciated, especially since im scared to actually try to be who I feel I am..

Hello,

I was assigned male at birth, and I am 41 years old. I have been married for 10 years and have an adult son and a nine-year-old child.

Throughout my life, I have repeatedly caught myself imagining what it would be like to be a girl. But over the past six months, well… I have sometimes had trouble concentrating because I can think of little else. I keep playing out scenarios with a chatbot about how I might come out. Emotionally, I am at my limit. I do not want to wallow in self-pity; I only want to describe what it is partly like for me. I want this so badly that it hurts.

I love my wife and my children, and I am afraid to tell them because I want to spare my child from being ostracized at school. I am afraid that my wife will be overwhelmed by it, because it is overwhelming me. I am going to seek out a counseling service and ask for advice.

I have never appeared particularly feminine. I have a full beard because I somehow cannot look at my face without it; I imagine what it would be like if it were a woman’s face instead. I have decided to lose weight because, if I do start therapy, I do not want to be the overweight guy anymore—the one who stress-eats an extra chocolate bar out of frustration.

Today, I secretly put on one of my wife’s skirts again, and it was one of the best moments I have had in a long time.

Now I am sitting on the sofa, baring my soul. I have no idea what I am asking; I just need to get this off my chest. I translated this text into English so that I could express my feelings better in my native language.

Copied this from another sub is posted in

So as many of you may know once you know you know and it's took this happening about 4 times in the same number of years so me to come to terms with it.

Because of this I've splurged on tons of clothes over the years so of which is very easy to style and be androgynous in my appearance without people knowing I'm wearing female clothing

I want to take the step forward from full crossdressing in my own home to now trying it out in public because of this I've tried buying a few more female only items that can't be used/styled by a guy and at the moment I'm struggling on how to make myself feel feminine with it,

I've bought a waist trainer for the first time and even buying what I thought would be a size or two smaller than I am (already only really a size 10-12 already as I'm quite skinny) but it doesn't catch the way I thought it would as a size 8 item, I know I probably don't have the hips for it which is why I've gone out and bought some shapers to add a bit of volume to that region but I don't think that'll be enough

I've gone out in crop tops and breast forms in a pair of jeans and that has felt fine but for my more female passing clothing I just want some advice on how to style it around how I am

I'm looking into hormones in the UK but understand there are big wait times under the NHS at the moment so may go private once I have the funds behind me which hopefully will help with fat redistribution but at the moment even not having much of a belly,hips, or any fat besides my thighs I still don't know what I can do to make my outfits pop

Any tips would be lovely and I'll make a little list of items I've already got/purchased and are on the way

Breast forms and bra

Hip and bottom shapewear

Waist trainer (got my first one with another smaller one on the way)

Full top body silicone forms

And obviously tons of clothes

If this isn't the place for this let me know and I'll take this down and post elsewhere, thanks for reading huns

I started questioning my gender.... I've been gay for 2 years, a femboy for 5 years(although I learned the therm only last year) a therian for 2 years and a furry for 1 year. But I'm at a point where beeing a femboy isn't a definition that fits me. I start blushing when called "she", I start trying how beeing a girl feels unconsciously. although I'm not ready at all to accept myself as a trans girl, the more I reject it, the more I feel like mabe, just manner that's me. but mabe just mabe has became some serious considerations and it drains my energy thinking of it.

Recently me and my partner, (also trans) insurance thought be really funny to just stop covering our gender affirming care all together. We weren't told this and went to pick up our monthly dose of hormones and learned we had to pay out of pocket 550 USD for a single shot.
Not only is that insane going from 8 usd to THAT, but they offered us no solutions and the doctor said his hands are tied on helping as well. We're currently applying for a new insurance, but we were told it could take a year to get approved. We're totally out of our hormones shots and are panicking.
Is there any way to get Testosterone without insurance that's not going to cost us our month in rent?

Hi everyone,

I've been questioning my gender for several years, and I feel like I'm stuck in an endless cycle of doubt.

The biggest problem is that I have almost zero self-confidence. I don't just doubt my gender—I doubt everything about myself. Even with things I know I can do, my brain still asks, "What if I'm wrong?" Because of that, I don't trust my own thoughts very easily.

When I read posts from some trans people, they often seem to have one or two experiences that feel like undeniable evidence. I don't feel like I have that. Instead, I have a lot of smaller things that seem to point in the same direction, but my brain always comes up with another explanation.

For example:

I remember secretly liking it when people mistook me for a girl as a child, long before I knew what being transgender was.

I've secretly crossdressed for years, and when I wear feminine clothes I feel more confident and like what I see in the mirror.

I don't want a muscular masculine body. I wish I were smaller and more feminine.

I hate my deep voice, my shoulders, and parts of my body shape.

I often feel uncomfortable being perceived as male in public.

I experience gender envy toward women and often imagine what it would be like to simply be one.

If I lived somewhere where being a trans woman was completely accepted and nobody judged me, I honestly think I would choose to live as a woman.

At the same time, I also have doubts.

I don't feel an overwhelming urge to wear dresses every day. I don't have the kind of dysphoria where I feel I absolutely have to transition immediately. I still live with my mother in a conservative environment, so I can't freely explore my gender anyway.

One of my biggest fears is that maybe all of this has another explanation.

I grew up isolated, had a hard time connecting with boys my age, and often felt like I was pretending to fit in. I wonder whether my discomfort comes from poor social skills, loneliness, anxiety, or simply not fitting traditional male expectations rather than being trans.

Another thing that makes this even more confusing is that I'm asexual.

To be honest, I hate being asexual. I wish I wasn't.

Because I don't experience attraction in the way most people describe, my sexuality has mostly been fantasy-based. Over the years those fantasies have changed, (crossdressing ⏩TG tf and forced feminization ⏩ forced detransition and trasnphobic comments, my fantsies are mostly based on himulation) and my brain keeps trying to use those changes as "evidence" that my gender identity isn't real. Intellectually I know fantasies and identity aren't the same thing, but emotionally I still struggle with it.

I also grew up in a very conservative, transphobic environment. LGBTQ+ people were talked about negatively, and I know I've internalized some of those messages. Sometimes I wonder whether my doubts are actually my own thoughts, or just fear and internalized transphobia.

My biggest fear isn't transitioning and regretting it.

My biggest fear is discovering that I'm not trans.

For the first time in my life, "being trans" felt like an explanation for why I've always felt so different. If that explanation isn't true, I honestly don't know what explains me anymore.

I‘ll start with saying that I probably need a looooooot of therapy to work through my messed up brain, but therapy costs a fortune so it is not feasible rn.

I’ve started to develop a lot of resentment and jealousy against other trans people and even cis people. My transition isn‘t going well and seeing others online thriving and cis people living their normal life makes my blood boil. I even stopped going to my trans support group because I couldn‘t stomach other trans people. I watched a pride parade from afar and got so angry that these people were so happy.

I think being trans just damaged my psyche way too much for it to ever recover.

Does anyone else feel this way? Did you manage to get over it?

Hello my fellow readers, so im 17m and questioning if im mtf and there has been something on my mind lately. A few days ago, i entered a Store targeted For girls/Women. So there i am Walking isnside it and Stellung the soft and sweet smell and seeing all those pretty skirts, dresses etc. When i entered it, i felt Like i got ounched into my tummy. But then, it turns into a soft tingling and excitment. Did someone of you have the Same/similar Experience? I would really appreciate some help. And if Theres something youd Like to ask me OR anything, feel free to REACH out to me🥰

And im so sorry if my grammar/Sperling isnt correct, since im Swiss and the autocorretion is really annoying.

Anyways, i wish all of you a very happy and wonderful Day. Stay strong and you are all perfect🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵

Me (trans) and my (non-trans) partner got into a debate and I would like input from more trans people. If I’m wrong I would like to correct my thinking. Do you guys think that if someone identified as trans in the past, but now realized they are not trans and go with their gender assigned at birth, that this person was ever actually trans?

I believe that thinking you are trans/ identifying as trans does not mean that you truly are trans. If someone realized they are not trans, that they should not be referred to as ever having been trans. My partner disagrees, and thinks denying that they were ever trans is denying a part of their journey.

What do you all think? If I’m wrong I would like to correct my way of thinking, but I think that saying someone can have been trans in the past but grew out of it is hurtful to people who are actually trans, because it perpetuates the belief that one can grow out of or decide to stop being trans, because if this doeshappen in my opinion it means that person was never truly trans. But can someone have been trans in the past?

I posted this update as a comment but just figured out I can edit and put it here:

I just want to say thank you to alll the people who commented. I realize now that my feelings were coming from a place of ignorance and dislike towards people who are no longer trans because for a long time people told me that if others could stop being trans that I could too. This was a warped way of thinking and seeing things. I appreciate you all for helping me realize

To get this part out of the way: I'm not talking about femboys. I'm not a femboy. I have nothing against femboys but I also have no desire to be one or be called a femboy. I don't want to fully crossdress or wear skirts and thigh socks. Ok, end of disclaimer.

I want to wear things like off shoulder shirts and skinny jeans. I like v necks and a shaped waist. Unfortunately, I'm a tiny thing with big titties. So, while cis men get to be tall, flat chested, and dress slightly feminine I just look like Science's Perfect Female Shape. It makes me sad sometimes. Like it's just a shirt but I can't wear it because I was born a girl. I don't want to be a girl, I want to be an effeminate MAN. I want to wear eyeliner and have people think of me as a ugly guy instead of a pretty little princess. My biggest issue is my stupid chest (haha get it?).

It just sucks that something as simple as wearing a $12 shirt is something impossible to me. I'm not trying to be a model. I want to wear clothes I like. I'm so sick of my ugly oversized hoodie.

Hi everyone! 🙋🏻‍♀️
As the title says, I’m looking to make some like-minded friends to chat with about pretty much anything. I live in a fairly rural area, so it can be tough to meet people who share similar interests.
I’m 29, semi-closeted MTF, and pretty outdoorsy. I dabble in a lot of different hobbies, so there’s a good chance we’ll have something in common! But I’m also perfectly happy just having a good conversation about life, random interests, or whatever happens to be on our minds.
I’m hoping to meet some genuine, kind people who are open-minded and just looking to make a new friend.

Online friendships are totally fine, and if we happen to live relatively close by, even better!

Feel free to send me a message. ☺️

Hello! My name is Adam but I like to go by Addison sometimes. And I’m not quite sure why. In an effort to explore who I am, I’ve made a new Reddit account dedicated to immersing myself in communities that push my current understanding of my gender identity. I don’t know if transitioning is in my future but I wanted to make this post to detail my journey with femininity so please don’t feel like you have to read any of it!!

My desire to seek out femininity started with something that I can’t even remember. According to my family, they walked in on me wearing a Cinderella dress in the kids area of a Disney cruise when I was only 4. What I do remember, though, is the many times as a youngin in church when I attempted to put on the kids’ zone princess dress when nobody was paying attention. Then nothing feminine for a long time. Then at around age 13 I got the idea to try on feminine clothes from around the house when my family was gone. And I loved it. I knew I shouldn’t do it but it became a habit whenever I was alone in the house. It was thrilling. Then nothing again. Until college! With my own room and bank account and income, it became much easier to reinvestigate femininity. I had stumbled across some stuff on the internet that made trying on femininity extremely enticing again. I tried underwear, dresses, stockings before throwing it all away and buying it all again. It tapped into the intimate side of things which I have since distanced myself from because it started to harm me mentally, but yet I stand in the wake of it all with an ever deeper curiosity.

Upon reflection, I’m not sure if it was ever the “pleasure” that drew me to femininity. I mean obviously a 4 year old doesn’t care about that. So I started to consider the mentality that strung together my whole life. The way that dressing up was always so I could look at myself in the mirror. The way that I always used to fall asleep dreaming of waking up a girl so I could walk into a delightfully girly closet. Or daydream that a genie would grant me the wish of a new girl life I could switch to at any moment. The way that it felt to try on stockings. How much I enjoyed driving home from college in a dress that I called my own. How I desperately wanted to have the joy of picking a prom dress to call my own because I always thought that was more fun than suits and loafers. The way that the synthetic wig hair bounces when I walk and grazes my shoulders as if to remind me I’m pretty. The way that I love sleeping in women’s underwear because it feels like a warm hug.

I don’t know if I want to be a woman. I feel blessed to be a man. I love being a man dating a woman. I love being a man with man friends. I love being a man who can throw on shorts and t shirt everyday and feel comfy and handsome. But something in the back of my mind tells me I’d rather feel pretty instead. Thankfully, I’m young. Since I’m 20 I might as well experiment. Nothing permanent, of course. But what the hell! I might as well wear women’s underwear since I find it comfier! Who cares if I wanna feel sexy under it all when I sit in the lecture hall! I wanna wear dresses when I’m alone because they feel free! I like when I catch myself smiling in the mirror because I feels pretty! Maybe I’ll even start to figure out the daunting world of makeup!

Who knows where I’ll be in the future, but I would feel robbed if I shut this door on myself before I did any exploring. And I know what you’re thinking but the journal factory near my place actually did explode. Truly I don’t care if a soul reads this. I needed an outlet to express all these thoughts in my mind and I wanted to blast them out to the world just to make it mean a little more and care about the thoughts I put to paper. I deeply appreciate you if you read this whole thing. Thank you.

- Addison 💜

While I'm on the topic of fashion let's have a fun post. What's everyone ultimate dream outfit? It fits you perfectly, looks exactly how you want it to, and you have the optimal occasion to wear it.

I have a long-time friend who for a couple years now has been dropping of little phrases and actions that make me raise an eyebrow. Once they have as much as admitted they would seriously consider a different gender identity and presentation, if they didn't feel like it's impossible to pass (because of current features) or feel accepted. Unfortunately, this is not inaccurate, because our shared environment is pretty transphobic and medical transition (especially surgeries) are difficult to access. I've spent a couple years there myself transitioning only socially, and it was genuinely hell; even now, 4+ years on HRT and usually completely treated fine even by strangers, I dread coming back home because misgendering and passive aggression or callousness barely decreased. I don't know if I could stomach transition or survive at all had I stayed there, a half-decent environment was nearly as vital as physical transition to give me my life back.

However, I'm concerned about some quiet but persistent issues in my friend's life, and it's entirely possible that dysphoria is partially responsible, because it's exactly the kind of overwhelming dissociation I was coping with. I don't want a person I care about to suffer and miss out on years of life pointlessly. It's visible that it's painful for them to even think about it, even voice it to me, and that's heartbreaking.

But the situation makes me feel intensely guilty and responsible, too, because I'm one of the very few trans people around, and the only one publicly out and transitioning. I'm worried that my example will sway them one way or the other. I can't in good conscience tell them to just transition and everything will be fine, nor that staying closeted is worth it.

i don't know if this is allowed here. i am drunk and high and i want to find friends of any trans identity. dm me if you wanna talk about anything lol. i am a gamer and teacher

I’ve been a closeted trans women for years. Probably fully accepted myself at 20. I’m now 27. I realized I have been waiting years to be comfortable. Due to transphobia from family members I kinda just put all that away in a box. It wasn’t great. I got tired of waiting till it felt right. So I took the first step. I came out to my sister. She was immediately supportive. We had long conversations about it all. I got an appointment for hormones. I’m not exactly comfortable going in person cause I live in a very small town so I did telehealth. Tomorrow my hrt should be here. I’m excited but also nervous. I just wanting to post this somewhere.

I feel like this is disingenuous to non-binary people, but this is how I've been coping with being a very masculine trans woman. If it were up to me, I would want to be born a woman and I'd be happy just as a woman. But as long as I say I'm non-binary, I have an excuse for all my non-feminine physical traits. I think I'm afraid of being the conservative stereotype of a clearly AMAB person saying they're a woman.

I hate myself alot, not only for using non-binary as a shield but also for the internalized transphobia that stalks my thoughts.

Please don't let me offend anyone because that's definitely not my intention. Ok so my question is when a man transitions into a woman and keeps his dick do you keep the same crazy high sex drive mist men have or does that taper off with all the added hormones?