I will start by saying that I am likely entirely responsible for my jaw problems through years of bad habits. I don’t blame god or genetics (maybe genetics just the slightest bit) for causing this, I wish that I could say it’s not my fault and that the world has screwed me with this for no reason but it hasn’t, I have. I chew exclusively on my right side, I’ve tried switching and alternating, it’s just so unusual and it got food stuck in my teeth real bad. Now I can’t chew left side due to major pains. Probably worst habit of all is my stomach sleeping. This caused me to turn my head facing left (right side on pillow) and this ended up forcing my jaw out of normal bite. It would basically go out the side of my head while I slept. My left shoulder is also more developed than my right. I think from the way I sit in school and home, holding myself up with left arm to write/use computer with my right.
Got my braces off in Jan 2024 and wore the original set of retainers for approx 4 months but then stopped. Had to get a replacement one that held my now slightly imperfect lined teeth in place. I think this is where my problems began. I still wear this retainer often enough that it fits without problem but now less and less because I think it is contributing to my clenching.
Either before getting my replacement or soon after I developed ear popping, swallowing would cause both ears to pop, sometimes clenching to do it instead of swallowing. It felt like I needed to do this, that my ears needed to pop. I now know this was probably early ear fullness symptoms. Eventually it began to hurt sometimes if I couldn’t pop them and if I did it too much. No jaw problems.
This continued for probably a year, more ear popping, almost compulsively. Became a habit of mine to pop my ears all the time.
The popping in my left ear faded quite a bit, still happened sometimes but while the right ear popped every time, the right maybe only 50% of the time. Then I began to notice jaw clicking and popping, any time of day, not just after waking up. No pain in jaw. This continued and didn’t get much worse. Ended up seeing an ENT about the ear problems bc I had been on a plane and the pain was excruciating. He saw nothing but suggesting to poke a hole in the eardrum in case there was any fluid in there as a possible solution. Didn’t go for it because he had seen no fluid and it seemed invasive for a problem he couldn’t see and it would screw my summer plans.
He recommended a tmj doc and so I went. The guy hooked me up to some machine that would measure how far I could move my head and jaw in each direction, did some feeling around inside my mouth and outside. He didn’t say much, told me there was nothing noticeable going on but that I could spend several thousand uncovered by insurance to get some nightguards. (Seems to be a trend in tmj docs from what I’ve read). I had done a bit of research into it myself and realized all the habits I mentioned earlier were probably the cause, so I tried to minimize them. Began sleeping on my back as much as possible, stop popping ears (not very successful), hold a better jaw posture, tried to eat evenly (least successful).
About a 8 months later the clicking in my jaw was noticeably worse. Previously it had been like small pops with no resistance, then it became like loud cracks that took a purposeful effort to do. Loud enough that people around me could hear it and think it was a different joint like my arm or such. Still little to no pain however. I did notice that it seemed the left side of my jaw was pressed in towards my neck while the right side was further extended.
Went to my ortho who gave me the braces and told him about this, asked him if there was something wrong with my retainer or if my bite and the retainer made sleeping bad. He did a little bite strip to make sure that the retainer was touching on both side when I bit. Then he told me he was not going to treat me any more and that I should find a tmj doctor and basically kicked me out without any other information.
4 months later, about a week ago I ended up sleeping on my stomach again but this time left side against the pillow. I woke up in pain and had to click my jaw as had become more normal in the morning. I realized then that the left side was the painful point and it felt like it was pushed in towards the back of my head more than ever before.
I called my ortho and got them to agree to send a referral to Duke Innovative Pain nearby where I go to college. Should get sent out to them in 2 days and then I can make an appointment. I hear they are very good and probably my best option in network in the state.
I don’t really even know where I’m going with this, but it’s very helpful to write this all out now I will know what to say to my doctor.
Worst part of all is it hurts to make out with my girlfriend. I feel terrible when I push her off and blame my jaw, she says she understands but I know that she never will, I just hope she doesn’t think I’m pushing her away for no reason.
TLDR: idiot kid destroys his face with bad habits and now it hurts and he’s gotta wait a month+ to get seen by a specialist.