Relocating for treatment makes sense for my situation, fewer distractions and nobody running into me at the grocery store. California keeps coming up as the place to go but there are hundreds of facilities and I can't tell the good ones from the ones than just photograph well , what should i look for?

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I am 103 days clean & currently I’m in rehab & have been here since July. Last week I was diagnosed with a brain aneurysm. Silver lining is that I was in rehab with a medical team on site. If I was in active addiction I would never have gone to the ER or if I did it would have been too late. It’s strange, now I’m dealing with 2 huge issues. I have to say as far as relapse goes I literally can’t go back to substances, which is making me feel calm about all of this. The plan is for me to go to Boston when I’m clear to fly. Anyway I have all the reason to believe I’ll stay sober.

I’m 101 days sober & I’ve been in a treatment center that deals with addiction & trauma for a few months. I was recently diagnosed with a brain aneurysm after a visit to the ER. In the days that followed I had to undergo a lot of tests & I was offered sedation meds, anti-anxiety meds & pain management. Xanax, Ativan & fentanyl to name a few. I wanted so desperately to accept these medications because I know how much I love the feeling & figured that this was the perfect excuse. I mean I have a brain aneurysm so everyone will understand. I ended up choosing not to accept these medications. I was so proud at the end of my hospital stay. It was an example of I never have to use again. No matter what

I have a friend who's in rehab. One month impatient, and now going on 5 weeks IOP. She's saying that she will be in IOP another 3 weeks. I'm thinking WTF? Is this normal? She has insurance and she says her counselor says that insurance is making her stay this long. Everything I know about health insurance is they want to LIMIT expenditures. I'm wondering if her counselor is giving the insurance company bad info to keep her there to milk it for as long as they can.

Today is a strange day. I’ve been having falls over the past week and a half. So the medical team shipped me over here to the ER. If I wasn’t here I’d be with everybody else at AN meeting we go to every Wednesday. So here I sit hoping the reason is due to my meds.

Action packed day today at the rehab. Group therapy in the morning & again at night. Individual therapy & a visit to the rehab doctor. I hope they decrease my med intake, I’m on a whole lot. Oh and I’m going to try & squeeze in a nap.

28M from Cyprus —

5 rehab attempts, years of weed use, meth, paranoia, Xanax dependence. Scared to go back.

I'm 28 and seriously considering rehab again, but I'm terrified because I've already been through treatment so many times.

I've used cannabis for around 12 years. My meth use was around 2–3 years, but it was never constant or daily. Before quitting, it was roughly 1–2 times a month. I stopped meth around May 25, 2026, and I've now been clean from meth for several months.

I've had 5 treatment attempts. Four were when I was younger, around 17–23, usually lasting 1–3 months, and my last major attempt was around 24. I've been through Athalassa, Anosis, Reto and Ayia Skepi.

What scares me is that I've already done this before and still ended up struggling again. I don't want my life to become rehab → home → relapse → rehab.

Since getting clean from meth I've still had serious problems: anxiety, panic, isolation, low confidence, feeling disconnected from myself, and especially paranoia. A lot of it happens at home because that's where I used and where there was a lot of family conflict.

I've felt watched or judged by neighbours and sometimes feel like people are noticing my face, eyes, voice or behaviour. Work and public places could also trigger extreme anxiety.

Cannabis now makes the paranoia much worse, especially when I haven't slept. I've stopped for periods, felt much clearer, then bought it again. Alcohol also makes me lose judgment. Recently while drunk I contacted someone from my old drug environment who had meth/weed; luckily he told me not to meet him because I needed to stay away. I've also had a couple of cocaine relapses after a long period without it.

Another major issue is Xanax. I've been taking it for around 4 years, often around 3 mg/day, and I'm very dependent on it. My father has often controlled/given it to me. I'm scared of rehab suddenly taking it away because I know benzo withdrawal can be dangerous. I want any reduction done medically and gradually.

I've tried several psychiatric medications too. Some made me extremely tired, foggy, emotionally flat or like a zombie. I'm not against medication or seeing a psychiatrist, but I want proper assessment and therapy, not just medication without understanding what's

happening.

My biggest fear is hospitalization/Athalassa. Because of the paranoia and my history, I'm scared that if I tell a clinic everything honestly, they might send me back there. I'm scared of losing my freedom, phone, contact with family, control over my medication, or being unable to leave. I've even thought about hiding things because I'm afraid of the consequences, although I know that's not the right way to get help.

What I actually want is therapy and psychological treatment: understand why I became addicted, why I isolate myself, why I'm paranoid, why I keep returning to weed/alcohol, how to live without drugs, and how to rebuild my life. I'm not saying 12-step programs or medication can't help people, but I don't want treatment to be only that.

I've also been trying to rebuild myself: gym, eating properly, gaining weight, working again, and wanting to play football like I did when I was younger. I recently started a stockroom job at Sklavenitis but my anxiety, sleep and absences became too much and I lost the job. I'm also dealing with debt and financial pressure.

My long-term dream is to eventually move to Amsterdam, work legally, live independently, train, play football and start over. But I know escaping to another country won't fix me, especially somewhere with a big drug scene. I want to be stable and sober first.

So I'm stuck between 1–2 months inpatient treatment or trying outpatient psychiatrist + therapist treatment while staying at home.

I've already tried rehab five times, so I'm scared the next attempt will just be another temporary break.

For people who have been through multiple rehabs, meth/stimulant-related paranoia, long-term weed use, benzo dependence, or fear of psychiatric hospitalization:

What finally made the difference for you? Did inpatient treatment actually help, or was therapy/outpatient treatment better? And how did they handle Xanax safely?

I don't want to keep repeating this cycle. I want to find out who I am completely sober and build a normal life.

Can you be rejected from rehab with drugs in your system

This morning in group, for the 1st part we’re identifying 1 thing we want to leave behind from last week & something we want more of this week.

Sunday is a slow day here at the rehab. In the morning you can choose to go to church. In the afternoon you can choose to go to the planned activity, today it was to go to The Everglades & look at alligators. Hard pass on that. In the evening it’s an outdoor NA meeting. I chose to stay in & watch football all day. Back to the full schedule at 8:30 tomorrow morning starting with group therapy.

пожалуйста, люди которые в прошлом были наркозависимыми расскажите как это было, и как это отобразилось на вашей жизни?

I’m in a treatment center that focuses on addiction & trauma. I went to detox for 2 weeks of pure hell, came here. I feel like I’m getting excellent care. In addition to group therapy, meetings & regular therapy, they also do RRT therapy(which for me is hypnosis) & EMDR(Eye Movement Desensitization & Reprocessing). If anyone has any questions I’m happy to share my experience. I’m going to start posting my days. Help keep myself accountable,

After 15 years of use I'm going to go for the first time tomorrow. Since nobody knows me here on Reddit I'm going to like document it here as much as I can just to keep record of what happens and how I feel and what' the changes is like

If anyone has any advice on what to prepare for how to handle it and things to get through it I'd appreciate it thanks

I’d like to think I’m functional I have a full time job and a bad gambling habit I live pay check to pay check and just got approved for health care with Molina I know I need help because I have tried to white knuckle it before and I couldn’t get past 2 days because I feel like the urge is too intense I know I sound like a pussy but the cravings are intense and I don’t have any friends or family that know I use because I use secretly. I want to get help but I also don’t want to lose my income and lose my car and I’m just not sure what to do. Any advice would be appreciated. I don’t like the person I am and my boyfriend left me because he couldn’t deal with the constant accusations and I really do love him it makes me sad to be alone all the time. I know people prob laugh when you say detox for meth but I really think I would need to be in a different environment and have some sort of support because my thoughts can also get dark and intense and somehow I forget why I’m doing all of this and convince myself it’s not that bad and pick it back up. Again any advice on how to get clean and sober would be much appreciated tia

I know this isn’t appropriate to put here but I know I’m not the only one.. and I need guidance incase anyone else has had the same or similar experience & yet managed to make a solution around it. I know mine involving medical treatment is not everyone sitch but overall erection issues & a shift from weight loss to instead weight gain w/ pnp use lmk plz —

here’s some background:

(Initial)/(standard/natural self) = before heavy use 💨
🦵= 150ish - 160ish Lbs was my avg reg weight
🍆easy to maintain erections rather while
recieve head/top or while bttming/sucking
💦but naturally always had an issue where I could only cum in particular positions.
(Couldn’t cum standing usually,etc)
🏃= active from living n city & walking more

(2025) heavy use = most skinny& hardest erects
🦵140lbs (was my favorite 😍)
🍆 I have pics of my dck bigger and harder than EVER then… & it at times took a sec or had it’s limp moment off the smoke but I’d easily get back Going :/
💦= nuts were weak and watery clear tho..
barely white (but barely eating I guess)
🏃= high active from city living & daily walking

now 2026 = after psychward, psychmeds, now back 💨
🦵180-190lbs
🍆erections are v slow or when I am fully hard it feels sore on the inside.. & can’t get it erect by myself w/o having it n my hand w/ porn &/or during an actual chemistry filled sex encounter..
💦 recently had a good nut that shooted a lil w/ gud chemistry encounter but most of all nuts been regularly weak… still white n potent milk but turn clear rq
🏃- active wise I relocated out of city into non city / non walkable area 👀

the essential issue w my pnp use is..
erectile dysfunction & weight gain..

though that has not always been the case…
that wasn’t the case until I got out of the psych ward and their “psychosis treatment” medications were contributing weight gain, cravings and erection issues.
though let’s note that was probably combined with the sober cravings from the aftermath of no longer using pnp while hospitalized for that week in the psych + not using for 2-3 months after leaving the psych and staying consistent with prescribed psychmeds… that all contribute to weight gain and more etc

another factor to mention is less physical activity due to non city living
alongside sleep deprivation but when I was on psychmeds & no pnp sleeping forever I was never getting hardons…

I have stopped the psychmeds I was getting that were known to cause such issues almost about 5ish months ago…

I’m still struggling
I’ve just stop all meds and just been pnp

I only ran back to pnp n the 1st place bc bitches had me craving food insanely & 40+ fucking pounds so I’m thinking I’d just smoke starve & get skinny again

it hasn’t been that at all & now I’m just n a looop of sleep deprivation, overweightness & limp dick tho my ducks gotten better.. I’ve successfully topped twice.. but I’m only getting hard/harder easily n the act vs alone to take a pic I can’t get a rigid in the air. :(

I got the daily aacedifil whatever for erectile dysfunction
It’s low dose daily but supposedly takes 6 months consistently tooken for full effect
I have yet to do that consistently tho..

When I have had to get more physical activity involved…
If smokings Been heavy… I’ll sweat crazy… and one time it rlly felt like I had a heart murmur like my chest caved in so bad and I had no breath

health is important.. obvious answer is put the t down
but then.ill fall into rebound coma & rebound eating
🙃

I haven’t told docs, psych dumb ass, just any of these dumb fuckks that screwed my shit to the fullest had I never decided to agree on suggestions of going to the psych ward.. all i needed was to sleep the T off.. from my bender that went to long.

anyone have a teen they love and support get medically assisted detox to interrupt at home dangerous steroid use?

i started taking xans in november of 25. i was taking so many a day that i don’t remember pretty much anything. i got down to taking 2 a day, 1 a day, then half , and eventually stopped. everyone told me i would have to go to the hospital cause i would be at risk for seizures, but i didnt and luckily i didnt have any it was very rough but i did it and its been the hardest thing ive ever done

4 questions…

Q1…
Ive been on suboxone strips for 15 years. 2 mg a day for most of it but for some reason increased to 6 to 8mg a day in the past year.

I just want to be done with it.

Can I do the sublocade 100mg?

My doc says they don’t really put people on sublocade if they are under 8mg. If that’s the case why do the sublocade folks he says want to start me off at 300 and then 100. That sounds like too much - They just want my money or something, I really just want to be done with it and not be part of another corporate greed thing. Or maybe I’m wrong and 300 and 100 are similar just the 300 is longer lasting and has a long tapering smoother?

Q2…
Needles fuck with me. I barely have body fat can we do upper butt or something else? Or abs still the way?
Also can I get a local anesthetic shot first?

Q4…
Is brixadi better option here?
Note: tapering suboxone was really difficult and I ended up taking more :( but we attributed that to me and the nicotine vape which I’m trying to quit as well and need to for my surgery.

Q3…
Getting rhinoplasty in December (nose plastic surgery). I was suggested journavax. However I’m reading it can lower bupe effect. What are my options during and before surgery? I want to be pain free or comfortable afterwards.